Who is True Love?

True love rescued me
I was depressed, unloved, lonesome, angry
he comforted, he loved, he cared, he listened
he was depressed, suicidal, reclusive by necessity, and drowning in darkness
I comforted, I supported, I protected, I loved
He made me feel as one worth loving,  a woman.
He discovered the Truth deep within, a man finding his peace.

I struggled, he lifted me up
he battled demons, I fought beside him
he was in danger, I lifted him up
I cried, he wiped away my tears
We healed in sickness together.
I found the most loving, the most candid emotions
Crying with pain at the happiness he longed to feel

True love has had many names, many identities.
I found I loved the man inside for who he was
who he promised to grow to be
My  beloved reached out
Finding others in the  midst of his own pain

True love had a dream of someday
Tenuous hopes of miracles despite the danger
True love loved so deeply and so faithfully
He protected me from his danger
"All I can think of is how much I love you
and how much I will miss you.
You will always been in my thoughts and in my heart,
a part of my soul till the end of time."

My true love cannot be named.
But he is half my heart, and so will remain.

~Summer, 1999

Decisions

A choice I need to make
to cling with faith in the Everlasting
to know the purpose in His plan
the assurance of unconditional love

to hold to a dream
to remain faithful to one I may never see
But who has begun his journey in You

to face reality
to love one who cares for me
but who is not guided by You

Lord, I beg you to calm this storm
that whirls and churns within my heart
to be a beacon leading me to safety
hear my cry, calm my soul, heal my pain.

~Summer, 1999