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What is Bob's Ami-chan supposed to mean? Well, in totally
uncomplicated terms it is the (perception of) Ami-chan that Bob
loves obsessively. What's the perception part mean?
Everybody, you, me, Ami-chan, is effectively a different person
to each other person they interact with. Our interaction with
people is as unique as the person being interacted with. So, when
I say Bob's Ami-chan, I mean the Ami-chan that she is to me.
There are fine little differences.
So why are we here at this web site? I am here because I'm a rabid Ami-chan otaku (otaku means obsessed fan). You are here probably because my madness is contagious, or you just want to satisfy your curiousity about how cracked I am. :) Don't worry, I won't hold it against you. Sometimes being an otaku makes you question your own sanity. How does fandom cross-over to an animated person? Or how can you love a cartoon person? Both good questions, and the simple answer is I am an otaku, it doesn't need to make sense, it's an obsession. The long answer is why I hope you are here reading this. A girl in a magazine or on a TV show, or in a movie seems to be fair play for getting all excited. Sure you might meet that girl of your dreams but the chances really are very slim. So it's not that hard of a leap to a person who isn't real, is it? I'm here because I believe it's a short leap. In all of these instances what we have latched on to (fallen in love with) is the perception of that person. The person in all cases is playing a role, and to a great extent it is that role we are attracted to. So now that we're (hopefully) on the same page let me tell you about my Ami-chan. She's beautiful, stunningly smart, sexy in a self-assured (but not aware of it) comfortable with who she is way. She can be shy, and very self-critical, but she is a strong willed person who can speak her mind when it really matters and of course is not afraid to stand up for what is right even at the cost of her own life. Some people think that she is weak and easily crumbles in the face of real adversity, but she's what I call a dealer. She can deal with whatever life throws at her. She bends instead of breaking. She's highly adaptable is what I mean. She would remain herself no matter what happened to her. Bob's Ami-chan is a kind and deep soul. She has sad eyes even when she smiles. Is it just the way she's drawn? I don't think so. I think she knows what I know, the smarter you are and the more that you know only goes so far as to show how much you do not know and how smart that you are not. I am sure that Bob's Ami-chan also knows about how you can have everything and still be missing something. What is that something? I don't know, and maybe that is the something missing, the thing that we don't have and don't know, but do know that we do not have it. So, true to the first part this writing/rant/unformed-essay this is as much about Ami-chan as it is about me. That is because it is the Ami-chan that I know and love that we are talking about and that means that I am as much a part of that interaction as she is. So in semi-conclusion (there is another link below to another writing/rant/unformed-essay) I would like to say Ami-chan is an important part of my life and I feel no shame (not any more than the fans of flesh and blood girls, in any event) in saying so. |
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Feelings for Ami-chan
