I stop to look back,
take a glimpse at what I lack.
Never realized value,
now it's something I can't undo.
I try to hold on,
won't accept that it's gone.
Now I see my face,
and it's become my own disgrace.
I want to live,
but my grasp just won't give.
Another addiction,
I've lost my inhibition.
I look down,
not the only one at frown.
I feel stuck,
never really had much luck.
Normal is lost,
at me and my brothers' cost.
Most are gone,
but I'm left to spawn.
Continue the pain,
with family and friends that stain.
My browning memories,
won't someone help me please.
My life is lost,
their images begin to fade and frost.
The pain is true,
and everyone forgotten, I miss you.
I take a glimpse,
but I wonder, at who's expense?