Title: Finding Heaven
Author: Chris F.
Rating: NC-17. Sex. No violence, no BDSM, but
sex :)
Sean Waltman sat tiredly at the bar. Tori was off with Road Dogg, doing God-knows-what, Stephanie has snuck away with Kurt Angle, and Shane had long since gone to bed. He swirled his beer idly,.
He felt a presence next to him, turning his head he saw Hunter sit down next to him. "Hey, the hotel people really don't like people sleeping in their bar," the older man said.
Sean looked up at him. "What're you doing here?"
"I got bored. You can only play Solitaire so many times before you get sick of it."
"Aww, poor Huntie all alone?" Sean grinned as Hunter lightly elbowed him, but his expression soon turned sad. "When did it all start slipping away? You and Steph, me and Tori.....it's like all the women around here are sluts." Hunter nodded sympathetically. "I remember, back when I was younger, people used to really have relationships, you know? Real relationships, not just strings of one night stands." He looked over at Hunter. "Was it like that where you grew up?"
Hunter looked slightly uncomfortable, but still answered. "Yeah...like...people made commitments....you really had to like someone before you slept with them"
Sean was too lost in his memories to notice Hunter's discomfort. "I remember my first time.....she was so beautiful...she was my whole world...well, for my senior year." He smiled. "What was yours like?"
Hunter began to sweat. "Uhm......look...."
Sean touched his arm. "I take it that's not a happy memory?" Hunter continued to shake slightly in the next seat. "If you don't want to talk about it, that's fine. I'm sorry I brought it up."
Hunter unsteadily got up. "I'm...uhm...I'm gonna go back to my room." He walked away.
Sean trailed after him. "Hey Hunter...wait...c'mon, get back here..."
When Hunter reached his door, he spun around. "Go to bed Sean, you need to get some sleep."
"And you need to stop closing yourself off." Hunter walked into his room and Sean followed him in. They sat down on the couch. "Look, sometimes bad memories are worse when you keep them all inside..."
"Will you spare me the self-help shit?" Hunter said angrily. "It's not a bad memory, I just don't want to talk about it."
"Oh, come on, you mean to tell me you're the only guy in the world who doesn't want to brag about the first time they got it on?" Seeing the panic rise in Hunter's face again, something clicked in Sean's mind. "Oh my God....Hunter, you've never...never done it, have you? But what about Chyna? Or....or Shawn?"
Hunter had his face buried in his hands. "Chyna and I are just friends and....Shawn and I aren't as close as you seem to think." He rubbed his eyes. "I know, I'm fuckin' pathetic, you don't have to rub it in."
Sean was grinning. "So I guess it's like 'you and me baby ain't nothing but mammals, so if you're anyone but Hunter you're on the Discovery channel'?"
"This isn't funny." Hunter couldn't even look up, too humiliated to look his friend in the face.
"Sorry...I'll sing a different song. 'Do a little dance...make a little love....' well at least you can dance Hunter."
"What is WRONG with you?" Hunter finally glared at Sean, but instead of a mocking smile he found a sympathetic one.
"I got you to stop thinking you were a loser for a minute cuz you were too busy thinking I was an asshole, right?" Hunter nodded slowly. "Mission accomplished then." He moved closer to Hunter. "Seriously, there's nothing wrong with being a virgin. Are you still just waiting for the right person to come along?"
"No...not really." Hunter dropped his head again. "I've never really been attracted to women, so it seemed wrong to do anything with them...and men...I don't know...I don't think they find me attractive."
"I can't see that being true."
Hunter's eyes were full of surprise. "What?"
Sean blushed. "I'm bisexual. I thought you knew that."
"I've known that for years." Hunter said softly. "It's the other part that threw me."
"Oh yeah, I forgot I was talking to Mr. Self-Esteem here." Sean got up to stand in front of him. "You're beautiful, Hunter. I don't know why there haven't been men busting your door down to get a piece of you." He bent down and kissed Hunter's lips, a kiss meant only to be comforting but when they pulled away, Sean could see a desire in Hunter's eyes that he had never experienced before.
Hunter smiled sadly through his longing. "You can go if you want, Sean. Don't feel obligated to stay here."
Sean sat down, almost in Hunter's lap. "You know, there are a lot of big scary guys out there preying on innocent virgins like you."
Hunter raised his eyebrows. "I'm a fairly big gu ymyself. I think I got that taken care of."
"I'm not sure you do. Which is why I suggest you lose your virginity to someone you trust, someone you know would never hurt you."
"Like you?" Hunter whispered.
"Like me." Sean kissed Hunter again. "Do you want this?"
"More than you can imagine." Hunter replied, leaning his head backward to allow Sean better access.
Sean began to nuzzle Hunter's neck, laying small kisses on the tanned flesh. "I can imagine a lot." He got up, leading Hunter onto the bed. "I don't want your first time to be on some too-small couch."
Hunter laughed as Sean gently pushed him down so he was laying on his back. "I never thought it would be in a hotel room." He looked around. "At least it's a nice hotel room."
Sean straddled him, putting his hands on Hunter's chest for balance. "Trust me, before the night is done you won't be paying attention to the scenery."
"Is that a promise?" Hunter was silenced by another kiss, this one more passionate then the ones before. Sean pulled Hunter's shirt off, followed by his own. He leaned forward and traced a path down Hunter's chest with his tongue, lightly flicking the blonde's nipples. Hunter arched up from beneath him. "Oh God...Sean...."
The smaller man smiled. "I'm guessing you like that." His grin got wider. "Let's try a little lower." He unbuttoned Hunter's pants, slipping them down off his hips. Hunter's eyes widened slightly and Sean paused. "Hunter...if you don't want to do this, it's fine."
"No...." Hunter swallowed. "I'm just a little nervous...."
"That's understandable." Sean pushed some of Hunter's hair back from his forehead. "I promise Hunter...I won't hurt you. We'll take this nice and slow..." Sean brushed his fingers over the bulge in Hunter's boxers.
Hunter gasped loudly. "God....I don't know if I can handle nice and slow."
Sean pulled off his own jeans, leaving both men in only their boxers. "Relax...we'll get to the next part soon." He looked at Hunter, who was biting his lower lip in anxiety and anticipation, and frowned. "You're gonna hurt yourself if you keep doing that." Hunter released his lip, and sure enough, Sean could see indentations from his teeth. He began rubbing Hunter's shoulders. "What can I do to make this easier, Hunter? I want to make this as wonderful for you as I possibly can."
"Just keep going." Hunter whispered. "I'm fine, just please...don't stop."
"Whatever you say." Sean tucked his fingers into the waistband of Hunter's boxers and pulled downward. Now Hunter was fully unclothed. Sean sat back for a moment. "God...Hunter, you are so beautiful....."
"So are you." With that, Hunter tugged at Sean's boxers, pulling them off.
"Oh, getting a bit frisky, are we?" Sean leaned down till he and Hunter were face-to-face.
"Well I was just wondering, like...are you gonna fuck me or not? Cuz...I'm a bit cold and I'd like to get dressed if we aren't gonna do anything." Hunter smiled, arching up to kiss Sean's lips.
Sean reached over into the hotel dresser, finding a convenient package of lube. "Hunter...I'm gonna warn you now....this is gonna hurt for a minute, but after that you'll experience pleasure like you've never felt before."
"Oh God, I hope so."
Hunter started to turn onto his stomach but Sean stopped him. "It works just as well like this, and I want to see your face." He spread the lube on one of his fingers. "I'm gonna prepare you now. You ready?" Hunter nodded, his eyes squeezed shut. Sean slid his finger inside Hunter.
Hunter took a deep breath, trying to fight the nervousness. "Ok...this isn't so bad..." Sean inserted another finger and his hands clenched into fists from the stretching. "Somehow, I thought this would be a little easier."
"If you want me to stop, just tell me. It's ok, I'll understand."
Slowly, Hunter's muscles were beginning to relax. "I've gotten this far, I'm not stopping now...besides, I wanna know about this 'pleasure I've never felt before'."
Sean removed his fingers. "You wanted it, you got it..." As gently as he possibly could, Sean slid into Hunter.
Hunter couldn't keep back a gasp of shock. He clenched his teeth, trying to relax, but it wasn't working. "Sean...please, tell me we're gonna get past the 'minute of pain' soon."
"I'm trying..." Sean pushed Hunter's hair away from his sweaty forehead, trying to calm him enough to get him to enjoy the sensations. Finally, the head of Sean's cock brushed Hunter's prostate. "Found it."
Hunter was shivering against Sean. "I take it this is the pleasure part."
Sean began a slow rhythm of pumping into Hunter now that the larger man was less tense. "Yeah. Now hush and let me do my job."
As Hunter's body got more used to the fullness, Sean sped up his thrusts. Soon, Hunter was on the edge of orgasm. "Sean...I think I'm gonna come..."
"Go ahead." Sean's warm breath in Hunter's ear was enough to bring him to climax. Hunter's muscles clenching against him caused Sean to come seconds later. Carefully, he withdrew from Hunter and kissed his forehead. "Are you OK?"
"OK isn't the word I'd use. Somewhat of an understatement." Hunter rested his head against Sean's shoulder. "Thank you."
"For what? I get to brag now I took Hunter's virginity. I should be thanking you."
Hunter smiled. "No, seriously....I mean...I know I couldn't have been very good..."
Sean shook his head. "You were great. Soon as you get used to the stretching, you're gonna be an amazing lover."
"You really think so?"
"No, I'm lying to you.....of course I think so. And I intend to stick around to reap the benefits." He got serious. "That is, if you want me to."
"Well, I wouldn't want to be one of those one-night stands you were ranting about earlier...plus I like the idea of pissing off Tori and Steph like this."
Sean looked away, trying not to get upset with the man next to him. "Those aren't exactly great reasons to have a relationship, Hunter."
"Well, there's always the fact that I like you a whole lot and we've known each other for years and I trust you and you trust me...seems to me like we're set."
Sean rested his forehead against Hunter's. "Well alright then. I got myself a partner." He laughed. "You know, I always had fantasies about you...but you were always on top in them"
Hunter looked up at him. "Maybe we could try that sometime soon?"
"Maybe...if I don't decide I like this whole control thing." Sean pulled Hunter close to him. "I like you, you know that?"
Hunter yawned. "Well, I hope so." He curled up next to Sean.
"You're tired...get some sleep." He stroked Hunter's hair. "Just think, you woke of this morning a man and went to bed...well...a man who's had the Big Seanvolski."
"Don't flatter yourself." Hunter whispered sleepily, before he drifted off to sleep.
Sean kissed his head again, grateful for having
someone he genuinely cared for at his side.
Something beautiful is happening inside for
me
Something sensual, it's full of fire and mystery
I feel hypnotized, I feel paralyzed
I have found heaven....
- "Only When I Lose Myself", Depeche Mode