Have you ever sat and wondered why things happen? Like you go over a problem, analyze it over and over and over again, until the sun is coming up and you realize the only thing that you've accomplished is losing a night's worth of rest? That has been my last few days. I don't think I've gone to bed before 3 since Thursday, with a couple of nights of no rest at all.

Last night was one of them. It seems a friend of mine here in town has gotten way jealous of the close friends I've made over the 'net. Instead of speaking to me about it, he has decided to take it upon himself to go after some people that I'd protect with every last breath in my body. So, needless to say, I haven't been Suzy Sunshine these last 24 hours. Luckily the people that this friend decided to try to get to both ignored him and took the fact that he was even trying to message them quite well. Thank goodness for that. I felt terrible because I shouldn't have to worry about people who are supposed to be my friends getting into my stuff and butting into my business. I feel like I should be blamed, that I broke a trust somehow, and that hurts me more than I could ever say. But I've been assured that it wasn't my fault, but the simple fact remains that people I trust have broken that faith, yet again.

I'm going back to Michigan soon. I ended up dropping out of classes for the summer, so I will be returning to home sweet home in about 2 weeks. A lil boy I grew up with is graduating June 2, and my closest hometown friend is having a bridal shower June 3, so I'll be able to be home for both those events. Thanks to things beyond my control, I have to miss Fan Fair, which is the one event of the summer I was looking forward to (not counting last Sunday but I'll get to that in a minute). But I will get to spend my 21st birthday with my family, we'll probably go to the riverboat casino. That could be fun, if conditions with my parents improve. That's a whole other story right about now, and this pity party is starting to get old, don't ya think? :)

May 14...*giggle*...Mother's Day, 2000. I spent it out all day with my friend DJ and her lil sis. We got tickets to the *NSYNC show in March and the day had finally arrived! *laugh* We had an absolute blast. From dancing and being crazy at a radio remote at a music store to hanging around a McDonald's just for kicks to the mile hike from heck to and from the stadium...it was some of the most fun I've ever had. The concert itself rocked. Meredith Edwards, a new Mercury Nashville recording artist (look for her CD out next spring, y'all) was the first opener and she is unbelievable. I was blown away. Next came Ron Irizarry, who I had seen last year in Nashville but was still in awe of the man even now. I missed Sisqo trying to find out where to meet Ron in between Sisqo and *NSYNC. But that didn't work out so I came back to my seat. I'm not sure what to say about the *NSYNC performance besides.....amazing. Seriously, that's about it. I had heard rumors about the show, I had heard that it was going to be great, but NOTHING could prepare me for that. *laugh* The improvement all-around from the Boys of Summer tour was incredible. Technically, the special effects and everything were off the hook. Their voices were, as always, impeccable...and the dancing. My jaw was just open. The talent those 5 have never ceases to amaze me. I doubt it ever will.

So anyways...wow this was a long entry! :) Thanks you all, for sticking around!!

Much love...

Angela