Jenny's Thoughts

why is it that we accept on one hand the fact that we are part of the animal kingdom, and on the other hand don't accept that what we do is not natural.Human beings are basically killers. They have been tamed like dogs to be civilized. Every now and then the true nature comes through. And we are all very surprised and shocked.

We are in the process of learning to be different from what we are. It is not a fast process, to my mind. We are taught from birth to do the most banale things...that eventually become part and parcel of our lives...not to lie and steal and kill and hurt each other in different and various ways. We have to be taught this. Animals, other animals don't have to be taught anything ...they know instinctively. How to hunt for food and how to look after their young and how to defend their young ones.

We are taught how to do it. And every now and then the 'truth' comes through in the form of a holocaust or a Rowanda or a Crusade or Kosovo. We are always shocked, but have you noticed how quickly we get used to it? Cause it is human nature to be cruel. Of course there are those who can never be cruel or bad and most are among them. I would like to think of myself as one of them..but I don't know. I don't know how I would have acted had I been in Germany on the side of the Germans and had the Despised Jews shoved in my face day in and day out. Would I have had the strength of character to be different? I shall never know.

I know that when I had an Arab friend who was a delight to be with, my family were very upset about it, and didn't want him to be a frequent visitor in my home. I am proud to say that I did what i wanted to....it was a platonic friendship that i didn't want to miss. But this is an example.

As far as God is concerned. We mortals know nothing about him. But it is so comforting to have an Omnipotent to be incharge. How wonderful for those who accept religiously the 'Word' never to question anything. This is the ultimate luxury to believe that somewhere there is someone who is responsible for ALL that occurs. I envy that...and I would love more than anything to believe that i am not alone in this universe of ours. I have not got the confidence to say that it doesn't exist and I don't have the naivete to believe that for sure it does. Like sitting on the fence.

The more I know and read about religion the more i think people are stupid and allowing themselves to believe without ever questioning. And then , I think maybe just maybe it is I who is stupid, not believing and accepting...and maybe i am missing out. Because like I said...we mortals know nothing. about God.

As far as life is concerned....I believe that the more one becomes AWARE of things the better the easier and the sweeter life becomes. By aware i mean really and truly to pay attention. Not as easy as it sounds. It means taking time to listen to look to hear to smell to breath and all the rest.

Jenny