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And he says, Oh, no, oh no, can't you see/ When I was a girl, my mom and I, we always talked/ I picked flowers everywhere that I walked./ And I could cry all the time, now even when I'm alone I seldom do/ And I have lost some kindness,/ But I was a girl too./ And you were just like me, and I was just like you.

- Dar Williams, When I Was A Boy

Confusion will be my epitaph,/ As I crawl a cracked and broken path/ If we make it we can all sit back and laugh./ But I fear tomorrow I'll be crying,/ Yes, I fear tomorrow I'll be crying.

- King Crimson, Epitaph

There's something kinda sad about/ The way that things have come to be./ Desensitized to everything,/ What's become of subtlety?/ How can it mean anything to me/ If I really don't feel anything at all.

Tool, Stinkfist

So I walked out into the gamma fields, out in Mercury, Nevada/ Where I stood in a cirlcle, and that circle started to pray./ And now the wind at the nuclear test site floats the data of the radiation/ From the underground testing, cross the line, you'll get arrested./ And we came from all over in a silent appeal/ As the drill comes down like a presidential seal/ And we stand for the living and we stand for the dead/ And we looked out to see your enemies, and we see that you're looking all at us instead, and/ You think I am being disruptive,/ But no, I'm running home, I'm running/ 'Cause I'm trying to put the atom back together. It's the Great Unknown/ I'm just trying to put the atom back together...

Dar Williams, The Great Unknown

I could have cried then./ I should have cried then.

Tool, H

Evolution in reverse/ Now it's time for me, changing/ What am I to be, contorted/ An eternity, defeated,/ By the new machine.

Meshuggah, Future Breed Machine

"Why is it that every half-educated lackwit on the 'net seems to think that writing with bad spelling or no capitalization or punctuation is "style"? As my high-school creative writing teacher told me, "You must master the SKILL before you develop the ART." E.E. Cummings must be doing about 2500 RPM in his grave right now."

- some guy named John Smith.

Friday, 1:21AM, 01/02/98

We're in the age of the sans-serif font.

People are wearing shiny clothes lately. What are they doing? They're becoming that product on the television that is the object of your consumerist lust. The shiny new wares on the showroom floor that you just can't wait to buy. They're the television set that is at the center of millions of Americans' lives. They're gas guzzling sport utility vehicle's shiny chrome bumper. In a world of shiny new products those that shine the brightest are the ones to be bought. Buy me, buy me.

I saw a building decorated for Christmas with huge images of candles rendered in neon. I'm GenX. I'm supposed to come with a powerful built-in sense of irony and distance. I thought that qualified as some twisted irony.

INFLUENCES: H.P. Lovecraft, Douglas Rushkoff, Notorious BIG, ELP, King Crimson, Anthony Jackson, Black Sabbath, R.U. Sirius, _Legend_, _The Company of Wolves_, Meshuggah, Cannibal Corpse, Dr. Octagon, Dar Williams, Andy Woodson, Jaco Pastorius, _War Games_, Akira, The Dirty Pair, Project A-Ko, M-66, Appleseed, _Secrets of a Superhacker_, Robotech, Sumer, Noah Kramer, Led Zeppelin, H.R. Giger, Jim Maneri, Barb Lucas, Harold Lucas, Deicide, Morbid Angel, Medeski Martin and Wood (MMW), Kenny Garret, Fredrik Thordendal, Chuck Schuldner and Death, Rush, Soul Coughing, Infocom, UNIX, Linux, Bjork, Akira Kurosawa's _Dreams_, Frank Zappa, Mark Lochstampfor, Metroid

I like video games.

I like bass players:

Andy Woodson
Anthony Jackson
Jaco Pastorius
Gary Willis
Jimmy Smith
Scott LaFaro
Christian McBride