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08.27.00

hey there i guess you're ultra curious about the author of this webpage, or you are really bored, and you're willing to read anything...ha. hmm...my name is sue and i'm a 23 year old grad student at the university of san francisco...and...an avid movie/video/dvd watcher...x-philer...buffy watcher...coffee-drinking...artsy-fartsy painter/drawer...who has no life at all...

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i consider myself a very open person, meaning i consider the different sides of the story, and try not to criticize other people's views, because people can have their own ideas and views. i'll try anything, almost, at least once, well, okay, most things, considering it doesn't go over my own internal boundaries. and defining those boundaries is pretty hard to determine at will. well, i'll probably not attempt things that could hinder me from living. i'm no thrill seeker. but i'm game for new food, hair styles, music, etc. etc. etc. i guess my openness has led me to be eclectic person that i am.
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 i enjoy all sorts of sh*t. i love art: making it, looking at it, buying it (at least the cheap prints of it, i'm poor!). i like all kinds of music: techno, alternative, r n' b, rap, country, rock, oldies, musicals, whatever. but, for the most part i listen to alternative. most of the time i like working out...but, sometimes i'm too lazy to go to the gym. so, i'm a pretty weird person. i'm either sedate or active. naps feel so good. i guess you can call me a night owl. i like working during the wee hours of the night. i generally hate mornings, and try to avoid waking up early on purpose.
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 as for movies and tv and such, my all time favorite show is the x-files. i'm such a fanatic. i tape every episode, and have a collection of x-files paraphanalia. i went to the x-files expo last year and even got to meet nick, mitch and dean (you know who they are if you're an x-phile like me). i even got to share cheese and crackers with mitch! (it's a long story) woo-hoo! and as for my movie preferences, i like a lot of independent films and foreign movies. small movies, i think make a whole lot of impact on their audience than those major movies. i'm awaiting to see "boy's don't cry" with hilary swank! i try not to see really stupid films, because i just can't watch them sometimes. i have to be in the mood to be mindlessly entertained. i mean, i love adam sandler, but i watched "waterboy" when i wasn't in the mood, and i hated it. i have to be in my "i just want to watch a stupid movie to be entertained" kind of a mood. i really liked the "wedding singer", a lot. i think there was a little less sophomoric humor there. and perhaps the 80's theme got to me. i love watching old cheesy 80's teen movies. that was the time; all those coming of age films aren't the same now. during the whole time i was watching, "she's all that" i was thinking, "why does she have to change her look? why?" but, it's the old "pygmalion" formula, i know. so, she has to be un-geeky to be accepted and loved. i like geekiness. yes, i guess i'm strange.
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 and i guess that's why i like a little geekiness when it comes to significant others. i like people that have eccentricities, i mean, i think everyone has one at least. but, i guess that's why i crush on people who are artists, or poets, or goths (geez, depressing people???). okay, i guess i'm attracted to people with angst, and people who are able to transcend their thoughts and ideas onto paper, or to their photos or to their line of work, or what have you. you don't have to be an artist or anything, however, i like interesting people. i like intelligence, openness, and honesty. i would like to be with a person who enjoys kicking back sometimes, and someone who's determined as well. someone who is able to let go sometimes and smell the flowers as they pursue their md, phd, or whatever. not that the person needs to be in graduate school. i think whoever works hard, and is able to enjoy life, is a plus in my book. life is too short, and all the phd's and degrees you've earned don't exactly equate to a fulfilled life, at least in my opinion, and in my life. my priority in life is to be happy. and sometimes collecting degrees isn't all that. and sometimes, making all the money in the world, isn't all that. the question is, "are you happy?" and if making money and having 5 different degrees makes you happy, then good for you. i guess happiness for me is dying with the knowledge that i am at peace with myself. no regrets, and no apologies.
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 i have my faults, everybody does, and i think i have more than others sometimes. i don't hold grudges usually (except for some ex's, heh-heh), and let bygones be bygones. it's useless to hold on to past grievences. i tend to be a push-over, i know, and sometimes it's hard for me to say no, because i like pleasing others. but, i am a very affectionate person, and i care a lot for my friends and family and significant others at the time. and maybe that goes hand-in-hand with the whole push-over thing. sometimes i think i come off as a sycophant sometimes. i would hate that though, if i do come off like that. (heh..."yes sir..no sir...you look very dashing tonight...can i get your slippers for you???") i am VERY affectionate with some people, although i don't think that's a fault. i try not to expect the same with others, but am cursed with unrequited love and affection i think, when it comes to relationships. but, i do cherish friends and family, who have been with me through thick and thin. i am a stubborn person, at least that's what my mother says. i'm shy to most, but open up when i get to know you better. and i don't do well in groups, and often get lost in the crowd. i like one-on-one interaction a whole lot better.
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 i can go on and on about my stupid little existence. oh yeah, another fault: i sometimes put myself down. but i never forget my accomplishments. i just want to be grounded, i don't want to get in over my head. and if not, i'm sure a good friend will put me into my place. for the most part, i think, this website (when i get it finished), in it's whole, will give you perhaps a good idea who i am.

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*bonus - since you've come this far. you are eligible to download a special mp3. written by grace, sung by me, guitar by jeline...here are the "lakeshore allstars" and their one and only song...whore (865 kb).

this mp3 isn't high quality...and my singing is crap. what can you say? late night foolishness and a karaoke machine...ha.

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