Journal 6. September 24 I can hardly think straight because my teeth are killing me, it's the first time i've ever had toothache...and it's agony. I lost a filling a while ago and just didn't bother to get it fixed, so i suppose it serves me right. Whats worse is that it started on Saturday and i cant do anything until tomorrow as it's a bank holiday. Anyway, i've had a great weekend, On Friday during the day while Gary visited his gran in hospital, (she fell at home and is being kept in for a little while) Kayleigh, her big cuz Megan and i went to a place called whale of a time. Megan was with us to save her from a day traipsing around the clothes warehouse at gretna, lol, (you know how much 7 yr olds love shopping for adult clothes) 'Whale of a time' is an indoor play area/adventure playground with soft area, ball pools, nets, chutes and lots of kids stuff like that, the area are seperated into 2_5 yr area and 5_11 yr old area. There are tables where parents can watch our kids to make sure they're safe and have a wee cup of tea at the same time, and also some supervisors to make sure things don't get rough. At night time Gary treated Kay and i to a lovely homemade 3 course meal , and bought me a tiny 1 glass bottle of chardonnay . We were watching friends afterwards after Kayleigh had gone to bed for the night when we heard her crying and went to see what was wrong. My poor baby had been sick all over her bed, she had had too much excitement i think. I got her up and ran a lovely Johnstons bedtime lavender bubble bath for her and i, to calm her down and get her sleepy enough to get a good nights sleep. She loves being bathed now, although not so long ago she hated it. Now she can't get in quick enough, she has lots of bath toys, but her favourite is her little red cups, she likes to pretend she's giving me 'tea'. On Saturday Gary went back to work and Kay and i went to get her photos taken with my brother Darren.( She'd had her photo taken with Megan the day before.) Then my mum and i saw a beautiful little beige afghan style coat for Kayleigh at 1/2 price. Suckers for a bargain we picked it up and she looks so adorable in it..like a baby eskimo. Then we went to the pram centre and my mum tried to persuade me to lookfor a different pram from the ivory leather one that i loved and she hated. We saw an adorable Blue 2 in 1 , it was the last in a discontinued line but it was so sweet, it had a silver and lilac plaid through the material that you have to be up close to see, it does from birth and as it was on sale and is saving us a lot of money. I also saw the sling that i want, it even comes with a little mini sling for Kayleigh to carry one of her dolls in. The sling is so much easier for me as wearing the baby allows me to let baby breastfeed on the move. I loved carrying Kayleigh around and still do although its harder now that i'm pregnant, but she's a good sturdy walker and doesn't need lifted much unless she gets tired. Saturday night we went for a meal at a chinese resteraunt called the Lee Palace, The meal was gorgeous and was an excellent price, we both ordered chicken noodle soup, then i had sirloin steak, and Gary had chicken, green peppers and black bean sauce, then we had gateaux and fresh cream, and while gary had a lager and jack daniels..i forced a cappucino into my full to the brim belly. We had a lovely time, talking about our relationship, Kay and the new baby. Gary said that he is very happy, and we agreed that we are both lucky to have the kind of security that we have even though we are young parents. The night was perfect from start to finish, but i think i'll leave out the details of how we finished our perfect night **hee hee**. Sunday, Gary had to work, but myself, Kay, my mum dad, 2 brothers, niece Lauren and sis n law all went to the safari park. My mum drove me, kay , Lauren and Lauraine, and dad drove Leon and Darren. The kiddie farm was shut due to the foot and mouth, but the wild animal reserves were open as usual although we had to stand on disinfectant mats as a precaution. Kay and Lauren loved the lions and elephants, it's the first time Kay has seen wild animals apart from pictures and television..( I HATE ZOOS. ) We had a lovely picnic and Kay and Lauren enjoyed playing in the play park and little amusements. My dad embaressed me by wearing his t_shirt with Lauren on the back and me and Kay on the front OMG how embaressing! Gary was exhausted from work when i came home so we ordered a pizza and cuddled up to watch 'Donnie Brasco', then we ended another night with...well with an amazing finish..lol. Nothing much happened today, basically i moaned and groaned all day with toothache, as i had no money to buy anything to help it. I left Garys bank card in my mums car yesterday and he had to take all his money to work, leaving me penniless today. He's almost crying to get on the puter to play his stupid half life game so i'd better get off before he bans me from the pc. If you get a chance remember to try out my new chat. 26th September. Well, i really didn't get much sleep last night. My dreams have been very vivid, and i wake up feeling as though i haven't slept at all. Kayleigh is being lovely and being really good, she knows i don't feel great and keeps cuddling me and asking if i'm alright. It was her great grans birthday last night and i took her up to the hospital with gary, his sister and his mum. I'm not sure that kids are allowed in the geriatric wards but noone said anything and she was as good as gold. I haven't had much strong movement from baby today or yesterday which made me a little worried, but i think i'm probably paranoid because of our experiance with Amy Caitlin. I'm just going to leave my journal at that right now as i'm trying to fix my site up a little bit...but i'll finish updating tonight, once Kay is in bed. 05th October. Well my computer is playing up and so is geocities, so i'm having problems up dating the site. I have some halloween graphics to put up so i'm raging that i can't do it. Anyway, Gary had an excellent birthday..He got lots of lovely gifts and loves his new jacket i bought him, i made him a meal before we went out which was nicer than a meal in a resteraunt because it was lovely and cosy and intimate. Then we went to the pub with Tracey and Paul, their friends Stevie and Evelyn, ( who're really lovely and a great laugh) and our friends Tam and Angie. They have a little boy Ryan who's one yr old tomorrow..Kay is going to his first birthday party lol. We met up with Garys younger sister Debbie later on in the evening, but she'd already given him her present..a bottle of Jack daniels, which he'd all but finished by the end of the night the drunken bum lol. In the pub Gary hardly spent a penny, owing to the fact that he kept filling his glass up from the bottle, and by the time we moved on to Dr Gormans, a pub that is done up like a mini nightclub almost, he was already very 'merry'. Evelyn forced him to dance ' which not a lot of people can manage to do' and he had a great time, he started getting really mushy and romantic and saying lots of really sweet things, but i really had to laugh as he was so drunk, even though i thought the things he said were beautiful. When the pub closed we went for food and then back to Tracey n Pauls, where everyone had even more drink, except for sober pregnant me who had a cup of tea...and we ate pizza, chicken pakora and assorted food that everyone had bought at the Indian take away. Some more friends of Tracey and Paul drooped in, and Graham who's birthday it was too, 30 something i think he was, philosophised (lmao) with Gary over the traits of a libran, level headed, sensible people apparently..except for when drunk...oh and Gary added that they were also brilliant in bed...i don't think modesty is a librans strong point. All in all we had a really great time, i don't envy Tracey and Paul living so near the pub as thats where all the after hours drunken gatherings seem to occur. We eventually had to go home when Gary turned a frightening shade of green. I was so shattered by this time though that i really had to go to my bed, it was well after 2 in the morning, and i couldn't keep my eyes open any longer. A bit worse for wear the next day, Gary agreed to go with my mum to get her his works discount on a fridge/freezer as she'd seen it in a shop owned by the same company as the computer store that Gary works for. Apart from that he spent the day getting over his hangover, then we watched a few videos. On Sunday we went to Tam and Angies little boy Ryans christening, Kayleigh decided to be a complete nightmare..bless her wee cotton socks...in chapel, so Debbie took her for a walk to the shops while we sat through the service. Ryan was as good as gold though, even when the priest poured the water over his head. The party was lovely but i felt so tired, and i looked really pregnant in my dress, it's still not instantly noticable in my blue jeans and denim jacket, but in my dress and other clothes i look enormous. Kayleigh really enjoyed herself, dancing with everyone and running riot with all the other we'ins, but i was relieved to get home, as i'd spent too much time waiting up for gary watching his last video the night before. Gary stayed out, while i took Kayleigh home, and went for a few pints with some of his mates that he hadn't seen for a while. On Monday Gary was back to work and i was back to uni, i've switched to social studies this year which is much less demanding of my time , as my talents are more inclined towards humanities which leaves me lots of spare time to devote to my little princess. I'm taking French, british social and economic history 1750 to 1870, and economics,markets and enterprise this semester. It's a really interesting group of modules and i'm enjoying it already. It's also majorly reading based so i have tonnes of work that i can do at home rather than in uni, which cuts right down on the time i'm away from Kay to an hour or two at a time. I have nothing on a monday and only an hour in the morning on wednesday. I am thankful for the huge amount of walking up and down stairs, i have to do at uni, as i've been craving heavily for the kinds of cakes and sweets that i usually don't eat. I feel like a hypocrite as i don't allow Kay, sweets as a rule, and there i am at all hours of the night longing to be scoffing chocolate muffins, and neopolitan ice cream, and all other kinds of junk food. I've even been taking a packed lunch to uni to make sure i'm eating healthily, as i don't know if my cravings will allow me to bypass the cakes or junk food in the canteen. I'm a fat bloater....it's official 10th October. You'd never believe how much this little peanut kicks, last night Gary saw my tummy move with the strength of one of those wee bumps, and today Kay was in hysterics at mummys tummy moving. Kay is hilarious, she pretends to be munching away at my tummy and then points at her mouth and says " I eat the baby, mummy!" My mum says she probably thinks i ate a baby for it to get in there..lol. I have an antenatal appointment tomorrow and i'm looking forward to hearing babys heartbeat, not looking forward to seeing Dr o' donoughy the bitch doctor from hell who'll be all " bla bla bla bla bla don't like homebirths bla bla bla bla bla" Yes, i know, fair enough..Why are you telling me, you must be mistaking me for someone who gives a toss what you think love! Anyway i'll let you know how my appointment goes. I've had a horrible cold all weekend, i think Gary thought i was milking it, when i needed some serious tlc. He caught it after me and has felt really bad yesterday and today in work..serves him right! I've been really lazy up until now only learning what i have to when it comes to html, but as page builder isn't loading on my puter i've had to teach myself a little bit more. I've also decided to go through all my site and remove all the backgrounds and replace them with ones that i've designed myself to make it more original, so let me know what you think. I'm still waiting for my scanner, not long now, hopefully...well gotta go just a quick update, and now i'm off to bed. 15th October. I slept in for my antenatal, Gary was so warm and comfy...and my alarm clock just isn't loud enough. So i've had to reschedule an appointment. Movement is unbelievably strong, and i have a prominent bump, or so i think, but i have had quite a few people laugh when i say i'm 5 months pregnant and ask me where i'm hiding it. I had a 40th birthday to go to on Friday, and i was everywhere trying to get something to where, the smallest size of maternity skirt and trousers drown me, there were no nice dresses and everything i liked cost a fortune. I tried some dresses the size bigger than my usual dress size, but they fitted my bump but were too big everywhere else so finally i bought a black clingy sparkly skirt in the bigger size and a cerise chiffon top in my own size. The two different sizes fitted perfect and were so comfy, that i felt great going out, especially as i can still balance on my cerise stilletto sandals. I bought some nice earrings, chain and hair clip to wear to make up for not having my normal figure, lol, Gary thought i looked good though so thats all i really need. I felt strange dancing as if i looked like a freak, but there was a girl there due in January who looked enormously pregnant compared to me, so i suppose in comparison to a lot of people i'm not very big at all. My bump is very neat, it doesn't go all the way round, just sits on my tummy. I think thats why the maternity clothes don't fit as theres not much to cling on to. On Saturday we all went to a big family party, my mums cousins 50th, at Celtic Park...all my mums cousins are die hard celtic fans( Gary isn't lol, he's a Rangers man..but we can't all be perfect, although he isn't really into football like these guys are) it was a real family party with lots of kids running around mad, and little boys in their celtic kilts. One of my mums cousins was talking to Gary when my mum told him he wasn't a celtic supporter, he said to Gaz that he knew, that he was too ugly to be a tim and that he never met a handsome hun..he told me that i could do better lol...luckily gaz knows that it's all in good fun. There was a live band, and we really enjoyed ourselves, Kay got some balloons, Darren got a promise to get taken to a match and my mum got to see her family somewhere other than a funeral. Her cousin Jim laughed that he almost put a black tie on before he realised that no_one had died...lol. Gary was off yesterday, but he visited his Gran, before that though we went across to Asda for our breakfast, which was nice. He's working today, so me and Kay are on our lonesome...but we've been having fun drawing with her big thick crayons, she's tired out poor soul and is having a long nap...well that way she'll be able to stay up a little longer and see her daddy when he comes home. well i need to go and put her dinner on, she'll be hungry when she gets up...and she can't eat the kind of crap that i've been craving! Before you go take a look at the amazing picture below...that's how my baby looks just now...isn't that amazing!!! I've linked it to the site i got it, so if your pregnant and want to see an equally cool picture of how your baby looks, it's well worth a visit! 16th october Hiya, only 2 hr long lectures today..then me, mum, and Kay went to watch my lil bro Darry playing football, he's playing in goal right now, and i think he misses being on the park but, because he can play all positions well, it's pot luck which position he plays...he can be a right little huffy, stroppy kid when he wants to be..i'm sure he'll be oscar winner 2010. I'm desperately trying to find my text book for my french lectures but can't get it anywhere which makes studying twice as hard. I got my bag back i'd left at Celtic park..thank god..it had all my make up and my matriculation card in it! I'm so tired, baby has been kicking like mad, which is really cute and Kayleigh has been putting her little hand on my tummy to feel it kicking, she calls the baby "Kayleighs baby" and is chuffed that the baby is bringing her a present. We're going to buy her a baby doll with all the accessories so that she can be just like mummy, we're also goingto buy her the miniature sling to match mine for her own baby. She's picking up so much from overhearing me talking to Gary, and has been saying "mummys boobies, babies milk" because i've had leaky boobs...lol. Garys reaction was oh no boobie milk already..he hated waking up in the morning soaked in "boobies" when I was heavily pregnant and just after the birth last time. I've noticed that i've been getting a few sideways glances when i have my jacket open in uni, as if they've never seen a pregnant woman before. I've been resorting to zipping myself up to avoid feeling like a freak lol. I can't wait until gaz comes in and he can rub the bottom of my back, it feels quite stiff and a little sore, and a bath only takes it away for a while. Right now though i think i'll pop in beside Kay for a wee nap..i'm shattered! cya