So far the month of June has been really busy and filled with changes. May was very busy and turbulent; mainly cuz of finals and guy issues. And i was very happy to see it come to an end. The day before i left LA to come up to Stanford for graduation, Love and I hosted a Nigerian party at my house. I went to pick her up from the bus stop at 8:00 am. From the time we got back home (around 9:00 am) till about 6:00pm we cooked non-stop. That was the hardest i've worked in a long time. I kept telling myself "don't ever agree to host a 'Nigerian' party again". Next time we'll go to a restaurant. But looking back it was definitely worth it. I had a chance to say my goodbyes to Brad and some people i won't be seeing for awhile. The whole going away process was pretty sweet. Around 10pm Danielle, Rocky and Christine came by to say bye. And that was so awesome because I wasn't expecting them but i really wanted to say bye to Danielle. She helped me so much for the 4 months we met, plus she helped me clear up some stuff that i had been carrying around inside for awhile but never expressed. So after they left i spent 4 hours packing. I didn't really finish but i wanted to go to sleep.

Anyhowsers my dad drove me to the bus station. Around 6:30 my shinyu showed up with drinks for my bus ride and to wish me good bye. it was so sweet. especially since i called you at 6:00am to ask for tape. Thanks for coming and for bringing the tape. I was so touched. The whole time i kept thinking of how blessed i am to have you as a friend. It reminded me of the son's best friend in "My father is a hero". So all these people taking a little extra time to come say bye to me just really rocked. It made me feel a little special. Sometimes i don't like saying goodbye cuz it gets so emotional and awkward. I like to keep it really clean and quick, especially if i'm going to be seeing you again. However, if i don't the next time i'll see you, it's nice (neccesary) to have a very long tearful, emotional time of saying bye bye. I don't remember ever crying when i've left home cuz i've always been ready to go or excited to reach my new destination. This time as we pulled away from the house i started crying cuz i'm going to miss my mom. I am so glad i got to spend this year with her because we have become closer. Plus my youngest brother cuz he makes me laugh so much and he introduced me to the music of Slim Shady.

I went to the beach twice last week. Both times it was kinda spontaneous, business trip mixed with fun. But i was so glad i went. I guess i'm an introverted, extrovert. I love hanging out and talking to people but i need periods of absolute silence and aloneness. I actually didn't know this until very recently. we went after sunset and the beach was deserted. It was just the two of us and we didn't talk to each other until we were ready to leave. I felt so refreshed. It was a pleasant surprised cuz i didn't even know i was drained.

I am not sure if i should be concerned or not. I have a huge problem with loss. I lose things a lot, especially when it is rather inconvenient and very expensive/valuable. I also get lost regularly. If i had to list the things i've lost since January i'd probably depress myself. The surprising thing is, though i tend to lose something i can't afford to replace, i always turn out ok. Funny thing? It's something that used to really stress me out because i wanted to be more responsible and less forgetful. I never became more responsible just more stressed out. so i try not to worry about it.