November 20, 2000

My dad sent me an email about a Nigerian girl who's part of a thinkquest team. it's a really interesting site so i thought i'd put her link here.

it's been an interesting few weeks. it's been hard in some ways but incredibly sweet in other ways. so i struggle a lot with thinking about the f word. no, not that one, i'm thinking the opposite of success. and then i get mad at myself for being hung up with it so much. i'm taking three classes and i'm a couple of weeks behind in all of them. So today i have to work on this proposal that was due a few weeks back but i just decided a topic and found a faculty advisor. Even though i was kinda disappointed that i slacked so much, i'm thankful that God guided me to this prof. He's so awesome cuz his speciality is what i'm doing research on. just the fact that we have a perfect fit even though i'd never heard of him before friday really excited me.

i'm always amazed at people's hunger for God. sometimes i get so wrapped in my stuff that i forget people don't know him. anyhow i was talking to this dude that used to be in a fellowship on campus. and just talking with him, raised so many issues. But in many ways it was good to talk about what it means to serve a loving God. It doesn't mean he's soft and will allow our atrocious actions to slide. but i also realized in discussing our beliefs it's hard for me to talk about my faith without talking about my personal experiences. i want to be more objective and explain christianity on its own merits, apart from all i've experienced.

Last tuesday was my birthday. Basically i celebrated it fromm wednesday morning to sunday morning. I didn't tell anyone it was my birthday, cuz i just don't do that. Yet, a lot of people knew. It got to the point where i didn't know what to respond. After the 100th or so person wished me a "happy belated birthday" and i could barely remember their name or where i'd met them befeltfore, I started getting a little grumpy. But i checked myself; it's an incredible blessing for people to care about me, regardless of our personal closeness. Besides, there are far worse things they could be saying to me, so their well wishes are a blessing, no matter what the quantity. Anyways the weeklong celebration ended with a dinner in Berkeley. it was really sweet cuz my little brother (who is about 8 inches taller than me) worked so hard to organize it and invite all my friends. I was so touched because i didn't know he actually remembered. I'm just really amazed at how hard my roommate and my bro. worked to make their seperate, respective events happen. I'm used to doing nothing on my bday. Last year i think one person in the entire world remembered my bday. She made it special - we went to a Delirious concert. But coming from that kind of background to this year, i felt like a queen. But as i contemplate it now, even though i value both experiences, but i much prefer the depth of spending many hours with one person to 1 minute conversations with tons of folk.

I mostly wrote this entry cuz i want people to check out this team's webpage.

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