Things just seem to keep going down hill! last week i got accused of stealing jenny's essay by my english teacher and handing it in as my own which is total BULLSHIT! and so finaly today i just found out that its all cleared up and that i'm off the hook as they say that i'm "on the hook for this" like god school is so gay sometimes and the teachers are worse, then saturday marc was in a little car accident...i'm such bad luck he was suppos eto be pickin me up from mandis and we drove by and ther was his car all smashed up and him like sitting/lieing on the ground and so the ambulance came and picked him upt! it tured out some guy blew a yeild sign and side swiped him and he like spun a coupel of times and ran into a van! THEN! We went to the rodeo and then out to Corrin's party and my mom was working the rodeo dance which u have to be 19 or older to get into, and my mom i guess had kept caling my cellphone for me to come, but i got home at like 1:30 a.m. and the phone rings and i coulda just imagined who it was! and it was my mom telling me that Todd was at the dance and that he had called me earlier but i wans't home...and so i go there and i like walk up to him and hes like "Hey babe" and he was SO DRUNK! like SOOOO drunk, but i didnt know HOW drunk he was cuz he told me he was fine and i guess he was really drunk and we kissed and i just talked to him and he didn't even remember just like when we dated he never remembered anything, sometimes i wonder if there really is any point to this whole thing?? like i want there to be SO bad, but i dont know cuz after this weekend i'm so confused on like if he doesnt remember or just doesn't WANT to remember? or what? and my mom is totally in love with him again, which doens' t help cuz all i hear is "have u called him? have u talked to him? aw he's such a nice guy! he treated u so good..blah blah blah" so what else am i suppose to think of him? and he looked really good! which doesnt help! lol like why is it my frickn relationships that have problems? why can't i just be like becca and tommy,me and teanna were talkin about them today, about how its so adorable that they have been dating for over a year but yet they still walk down the hall way holding hands and they are still runnin to see eachother at breaks and how it just hasn't died down like losta relationships after the first couple of months. and Teanna and Blair broke up and its just so sad i mean i knew he was an asshole all along and we all warned her but now i know how she feels that u can't help how u feel about a guy, i mean if the feelings are there no matter who says something to u, even if its ur bestest friend in the whole world, u gotta like the guy! and the more un-attainable they are, the more you want them to the point that u just think there isnt' any point to this whole love thing! i dont think i'll ever fall in love! anyways i'm gonna go!
bubi's'
Dev
p.s. HI TODD IF UR READING THIS :P
