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~My Last Night~
I look out of my window
and ponder all the ways
that I can change my
life
throughout all of my
days
Then a thought comes
to mind
of an easy way out
many fear this thought
while others don't have
a doubt
This thought has one
true meaning
this thought is suicide
this thought is scary
yet...
this thought is world
wide
What has come upon me?
why do I feel this way?
I need some way out
but is this the game
to play?
I look around my room
and think a real long
time
listening to the deep
silence
I wonder if this is a
crime
A crime to take one's
life
a crime that's hard to
bear
a crime hard to commit
a crime that isn't fair
What will happen when
I die?
what will people think?
No one truly knows
my life has many cinks
Iknow the one's I care
about
will get upset and cry
I just hope that they
know
I don't want to live,
but die
More and more questions
come to mind
and completely fill the
air
but I honestly must say
I really do not care
It has come to a point
as I stand here with
a knife
it is time to chose...
either death or life
As I stare at my wrists
the sweat drips from
my brow
the clock strikes twelve
I must decide now
A knock is heard at my
door
who could this be?
Whoever it is
they won't stop me
I hide the knife behind
my back
as a figure comes to
the door
it grabs me as we both
fall onto the floor
I felt a trickle of something
wet
was this his blood or
mine?
I turned on the bright
light
and noticed the blood's
his not mine
Panic ran through my
veins
as I turned off the light
what was I gonna do?
the night of all nights!
I drug the body into
the hall
and stared at the figures
face
I didn't recognize him
but there was a name
tag in it's place
And what is this I see?
Oh no this can not be!
he is from the insane
isalem
He was here to get me!
I wrapped the body in
a sheet
and took it outside
now all i have to do
is find a place to hide
Wait, what am I hiding
for?
what did I do wrong?
I have to go back to
my room
to end this night, it's
already too long
I ran into my room
and quickly locked the
door
I closed all the blinds,
even scanned the floor
I took the knife and
ran my finger across
the blade
watchign theblood dripped
from my finger tip
I realized the memories
will never fade
I said to myself
"It is time"
to purify my body
and procede with this
"crime"
The slits weren't painful
to my suprise
as the blood streamed
out
I then realized
I realized something
most don't know
yet, something I can't
say
you will not understand
until you have your day
My body is relaxed
as everything gets dark
I just hope and pray
that I have left a mark
A mark for the world
to see
that life can still go
on
I know it is too late
for me
and I know my life is
almost gone
Please forgive me for
what I had done
Please realize that you...
the reader of this poem
can have your life re-newed.
PLEASE....
learn from my mistake
REALIZE...
a life is something too
valueble to take
~GLITTER GIRL~
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~Without You~
I sit here and watch
the leaves on the bushes move.
thinking of how nice
it would be to be with you.
I sit here and ponder
"what would happen if you were gone"
"How would I live. How
would your friends live without you"
These things went through
my mind when I though about what you said
what you said about killing
yourself.
The every day things
that I really don't notice I notice now.
The things that you would
miss if you left.
The joy of going out
to the mall or just sitting chatting.
These things would mean
nothing to me without you.
Without you, my life
would be nothing.
No joy, No happiness,
and No love.
Even if the sun was nice
and bright and cheery, to me it would still be gloomy and dull and raining.
Everything would be black
and dull and lifeless.
Without a friend like
you to look out for me The way that you do
life as I know it would
be dead.
Please If you are thinking
about suicide talk to someone. even if it just someone from a service.
You could save someone from these feelings and save your life at the same
time.
{Precious}@--}---
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~Love~
I look at you and I can't
imagine life with out you.
when you not around I
feel like there is a big whole in my heart.
When I see you the whole
fills with love.
When I am not near you
or able to talk to you, my head fills with thoughts of you.
I think about you, me,
us.
I think about us together,
holding hands, kissing, making love.
There isn't anything
I haven't thought of you, me or us together doing.
I see stars and fireworks
when I kiss you
I imagine what I see
when I will make love to you.
My day fills with joys
and happiness when I am with you.
When you leave my day
fills with lonelyness and sorrow.
I can't imagine my life
going on with out you.
and at the same time
I can't imagine being with you my whole life.
and at that moment I
am stumpted I don't what to do.
whether to dup you or
stay with you either way I am stumpted.
{Precious}@--}---
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-Torn-
I love you
or so I think.
I think about you all
the time.
I think about him all
the time.
is it wrong to have these
feelings?
Is it wrong to feel what
I feel for two men?
I sit and think.
what if I go to him
what would be left of
us.
would you be here when
I came back?
or would you leave?
I feel like someone ripped
out my heart becuz I don't deserve it
I made two men feel like
crap
like they are not wanted
but they are
do they know that?
Do I enjoy this?
of course not.
I love these men.
Do I really?
I dunno I am so so confused
that everything seems unreal.
not human.
these things I am feeling
are they bad
are they good
or are they something
god throws at you to see if you can handle it.
or to make you stronger.
these are things that
we will never know.
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I could never be her;
I could never be what
you wanted me to
When I didn't know what
that was.
I could never ask you
to love me,
But I could never ask
you to hurt me.
I could never live up
to your expectations
I could never live up
to mine.
I could never make your
kissed seem anyless important
Or turn your back time
and make that day disappear.
I could never put a leash
on my heart
and because of that
A part of me has died.
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I sit here
Listening to the cars
and trains moce ethereally outside
My cigarette comforts
me
How do I wish it was
you instead
Doubt and worry seep
into my mind
And tears come to my
eyes
Oh, how easily I fall
apart
Don't touch me-I will
break
But how I want you too...
Do not touch me if you
will not be there to help me pick up the pieces
My heart is so fagil-
labeled 'handle with care'
so many have ignored
that
so many have made my
heart ache
I have a burning inside
Help me put it put it
out
THe night comfort me
yet seems to hurt me at the same time
Be my friend -
be more then that
Kiss me and make the
pain slip away
Hold me through the good
and the bad
If only you could
I feel so alone.......
without you
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Oh my friend
Where have you gone?
I look for you,
Wait for the sound of
you voice...
It's never there...
The freedon of befriending
whoever I may choose
So wonderful yet causeing
so much pain...
You care for him so much
I care for you so much
more...
You mean the world to
me
Yet I've lost a part
of you
Never to return...
Where are you?
The song says to me
"Hold on to yourself,
This is gonna hurt like
hell"
And it does...
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It's when you look into
someone's eyes
And you see yourself
capable
of looking there forever;
or when you kiss their
lips
and you think them to
be
the most luscious pair
You'd ever watn yours
to caress;
It could even be when
You touch their skin,
and
No matter what it's like,
To you, it feels like
silk.
Thats when you know.
You know that's who you
want
to have thei arms around
you;
It's who you're dying
to share
Every little detail of
you life with;
That's the one person
who can make
Everything right with
one touch;
The one who will be saying
'I love you'
For eternity.
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Have you ever leaned
close to me
and noticed the way my
yes crinkle
around the edges when
I smile?
or how my nose moves
when I laugh?
Have you ever asked me
a question
just to be close enough
to smell me?
Did you ever secretly
watch me as I slept
Taking note of my pattern
of breath?
or perhaps the slow rise
and fall of my chest?
Have you ever wanted
to run you finger down
from the rop of my face
and along the gentle
slope of my neck?
And taki in each part
of me that you felt?
Don't be afraid to do
this.
Journey along the physical
to find what's inside.
I will give myself for
you to learn.
Do not hold back for
I want you to know me.
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I love you
not for what
I want you to be
but for what you are
I loved you then
For what you were
I love you now
for what you have become
I miss you
and not only you
I what I am
When you are here...
- Leonard Nimony
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What is a friend?
Many ask exactly is a
friend?
A friend always has a
heart to lend
They are always there
for you.
And rescue you from being
blue.
They're sad when you're
sad
and mad when you're mad.
A friend is someone you'll
always remember;
Year after Year, January
through December.
Friendship is the key
to sucess.
It is truly something
God has blessed.
A friend is someone who
makes you feel secure.
A friend showers you
with love in galore
A friend knows you from
the inside out.
And will come to your
aid in a single shout.
There is only one word
for a someone with these qualilties
And that sole word is
a..................friend
~Glitter Girl~
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Softly, through the years
of tears,
yesterdays whisper they're
gone.
Dimly, though a mist
of fears,
tomorrow's promise lures
him on.
Somewhere by in a cloud-tossed
sky
calls a lonesome mourning
dove.
Chill winds cry and tell
a tale
of years of discontent;
and a young man strives
to rend a veil
that plainly can't be
rent.
Downcast, he pales, while
banshees wail
and he visits where pain
lies pent.
And somewhere by in a
cloud-gray sky
keens a lonesome mourning
dove.
No art he commands can
breach the wall
that always obscures
his sight.
Tomorrow, though he gives
his all,
remains dark as ink-stained
night.
But yesterdays stay plain
and clear
though he prays with
all his might.
Still, somewhere by in
a cloud-hung sky
laments a lonesome mourning
dove.
[The Forgotten One]
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A TITAN CAN I BE
There is a girl,
Someone for me,
The one that will
Set my heart free.
And in a sea of thousands,
You alone can
I see,
Only with your love,
A titan can I
be.
I seek your charm,
Your beauty, your
grace,
In my dreams alone,
I may caress your
tender face.
Love truly can reign
in me,
For you, a beautiful
dove,
Fallen from the heights
of heaven,
Only you I will
forever love.
Your eyes lore me in
like a raging trap
Which no man can
resist,
Their beauty compares
to diamonds,
I see them through
the mist.
I've fallen head first
in my own dreams,
Where you stay
until I sleep again,
Only in my thoughts may
I speak to you,
When did this
madness all begin.
I wish I could turn back
the clock of my life
To the day we
first made contact,
If I could risk it all
for one day, one hour with you,
I would gladly
but reluctantly sign that contract.
You must understand,
I only mean good,
No harm or depravation
did I intend,
You alone can make my
soul take flight,
Nothing can brake the
silence of a soft candle light.
[The Forgotten One]
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Paradox
by
Benjamin "Jamm" L. Villanueva
Life, as described,
is all happiness;
Contradicting
the fact, there is something else.
The sight of poverty
is rarely brought
To the mind of
a joyful man when everything's bought.
War, they say,
is just a mere misunderstanding,
But to the eyes
of the youth, it is the most devastating.
Like a child,
soldiers play guns
Until they realize
their days are gone.
This worn out
world has a filthy reality:
Nuclear tests,
money, and the villainy
Of men with greed
no God to proclaim;
They are all subject
to their earthly aim.
The ozone we preserve
is no longer alive;
Trees are almost
gone, and now we are deprived.
The longing for
progress is a vain intuition
For without a
stepstool, the program's a destruction.
Peace was once
freedom, but now a false regime
Of corrupt gunlords
and pure illegal gambling;
The system of
justice, just a method of business
Of paid lawyers
with habits of nonsense.
When can the triumph
be for the deserving?
Honesty is not
even a thing in this living.
The promises they
had are the reverse of the present,
Lest the ruling
confusion of man is finally ended.
But despite the
chaos and all the troubles,
There is an Overseer
who has purposed these all.
The future he
holds is the future I follow.
There is peace
amidst sorrow and a glorious tomorrow.
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Everyday i've learned
from you..
when your soul
has caught my eye..
I would gaze and
stare, and deeply search,
for answers to
how and why...
And now i walk
this confusion filled earth..
with new knowledge
that i have found..
and its to you
i thank for the making sense,
of a shaky unstable
ground...
Author: UNKNOWN
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