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| Poetry By yours truely |
| Torn Heart I know I still have feelings for you And I know I can still feel your love Even though you haven't been true My eyes won't cry. You may never call me You may never come up you still have my key You can still open my heart. I may say things I don't mean Do things I have no control over But my feelings are so keen It hurts my soul. You may seem to get colder We may be growing apart Atleast I could cry on your shoulder Cry my heart out. Deep down you feel the same way You don't know how to show it I really want you to stay But not on your terms. Will you remember me if I go Or will I be dense and morn Will your love finally show I think the answer is no. I'm not as strong as you think My heart is weak and unsure Soon as my eyes will blink you will be gone. Melly |
| Summer Time Fantasies Dreaming of you I wake up slow Ready for things I once knew Ready for new lessons. You and I is all I see In my mind so brave and raw Knowing that my feelings are free You were the one who saw. I love the way you smile So simple to be able to glow My heart races mile on mile Soul on soul. I'll remember your touch How could I forget It melted my heart Leaving a dent. Your kiss is one of a kind One I'm not use to It still turns me blind Under your control. Melly |
| Dying Love When I first saw your face It was a dream come true My heart pounded like a race Faster, better, brand new. Loving the ways I never felt The fast pace of my blood Making my heart and gaze melt I felt my feelings flood. I never felt like this before Never experienced the rush of life It's something I could not explore Love does cut like a knife. Knowing now what love is for Knowing the rush of life ahead Makes me know whats instore Knowing how my heart blead. Seeing pain that love can cause Makes me know what to expect Through memories and most laws Knowing the love I have recked. I couldn't tell you more Or what I'm feeling inside I'm afraid of openning the door Where my feelings will always hide. Melly |
| Cutting Blades Do you know the meaning of hurt Or how to say sweet nothings By the way you treated me like dirt I guess this is how you get your flings. I can't say you've always been bad Or that I will never care But in the nights you've left me sad A blank wall for me to stare. You never use to be this way Or act the way that you do I can't understand these games you play Or the way you drained my blue. Will our love ever glow again Or shine as bright as it did Or will my heart bleed with pain will you always be a kid? Tell me whats really going on The real reason we broke up You know our love could have shawn Like the darkness in the eyes of a pup. Look in the blue of my eyes Tell me the feelings you see Can you see the pain in the lies You said so hurtful and free? You know what I say is true The pain you caused me hopefully you'll get the clue To where my heart is on one knea. Have you ever lost some one Or always wished you could Well now to hurt your feelings I cheated on you too. Melly |
| Savage Beating You say your a friend of mine you sure like to ignore me If you're my enemy don't cross this line your head will meet my knea. If you honestly think I'm bluffing look straight through my eyes deal with the cards I'm suffling don't tell me no more lies. You really must think I'm dumb to fall for your evil minded tricks I'm not that much of a bumb I know how you get your kicks. I know how many friends you ditch just to have a ball to kick listen to what I'm sayen witch hopefully it will all stick. I don't want us to get into a fight if you don't smarten up we will your attitude towards me does bite friends we can be still. If anyone hates me then it's because of you I won't let it be only I know what I'll do. Don't take this as a threat don't look for a way out I have one wager to bet I don't have one doubt. Melly |
| Loving a lose Hey there old friend long time no see had no letters to send no pictures of me. Sorry it took so long for me to say hi been listening to our song started to cry. I know it's to late for us to be together we only had one date it'll last forever. no why would I lie I have no reason to hide to you we said good-bye you never stood by my side. Yeah I know we're friends we'll never be less we had more bends then a room in a mess. Tell you what I think has made me realize that you drove me to drink and a drop in size. Well yah I miss you I always will nothing is new or going down hill. To me love ranks no matter where you are you'll find the skanks I'll be at the bar. You see, nothing will change you'll still be in my heart which makes it so strange when love peirces like a dart. Well I gotta go It's getting late we'll never know about our fate. Melly |
| Friend of no Feelings so your back for more what is it you want? The heart you tore, or the soul you haunt. I bet you don't know or that you won't say you act like a crow in every other way. Don't blame it on me not ever the rain you may have the key but I'll drive you insane. You asked for the trueth so I gave you a lie you thought it was youth and you began to cry. You want me to kneal and call you a queen? your eyes I will steal paint them both green! You say that I'm bluffing you only need one card see the deck I'm suffling? It's really not that hard. So tell me one more time why I should let you stay Nope your not worth a dime so I says go away. I don't want to trust you you are a dead beat my skies will stay blue my life will be sweet. So now you know you make me sick you can go blow some one elses dick. No one really likes you sorry to say it is true so collect what is due either that or get a clue. Melly |
| Depression I have the thoughts of suicide yet to afraid to do it to me life is a worthless ride that will make my world split. I can't stand living anymore the pain in my heart hurts a lot I tried shutting it behind a door hoping it would rot. Nothing ever helps me now people can say the wrong thing I just can't figure out how pain can make sarrow sting. I know for certain I can't go on even though I made a promise my life still hasn't shawn no one is anonymous. Everyone seems to know whats right it makes me feel so wrong I just want them to leave my sight stay away for oh so long. There is no one who can cure the memories in my brain I'm not so immature that I don't know the feeling of pain. So if I leave please don't cry just forgive and say good-bye. Melly |
| To Whomever Cares I'm carrying out my lonely self to some one who will care about me like a picture on a shelf or like something that is rare.. I really am a lonely girl who doesn't know the truth which my lungs would like to hurl in this dark and lonely phone booth. Don't think of me as crazy because I'm not full of lies I can smell like a rose or a daisy to hide my painful cries. Can't anyone see the pain of which hides under my soul I can't wash it like a stain or fill it in like a hole. There are poeple just like me who feel exactically like this by trying to give away their key ending up with a good bye kiss. Tell me this isn't true about the feelings I will miss about the freedome that is due or the warmth of bliss. Melly |
| Questioning Shame Whats happening to me? Why am I like this? Why can't I see? It's the old me I miss! I can't understand The feelings I feel I guess I got the other hand I'm hoping this ain't real. Hoping and believing Just won't matter It's my soul thats leaving My mind that will shatter. I'm wrecking my friendship Because I don't know where to go Someday the word will slip And my face won't show. This isn't my story It should be better I can't just say sorry Cause my eyes to be redder. I want to run But that won't stop Nothing will be done The issue won't drop. so whatever I do I'm stuck either way I have no clue What my heart will say. Melly |
| Friend for Life When you came into my life my whole world was a mess I had cuts from a knife I believed I was less. you believed in me you showed me why you helped me see that I should give life a try. You helped me through the rough you saved me in the bad you showed me I was tough and the dreams I had. I owe a thanks to you in many different ways I'd give you whats due but that'd be a midnight craze. Please don't be mad that I'm being serious with you I'll never be sad and my soul never delerious. Any time your confused don't turn up your nose with me you'll never be abused you'll always smell a rose. so as I leave you with this just remember my words Knowing I'll always miss the song of the midnight birds. Melly |
| Dead Feelings When lovers come across a thing a thing they can never change these feelings sometimes bring something awfully strange Even though you can't sense it the wrong floats in your mind and when you realise the bulb is lit your heart is still mindlessly blind Blind to the madness blind to the pain but you don't feel as long as the loves there and soon this feeling will crack and rain on your love, but you still won't care Finally you see the pain he puts you through you don't know what you really want but he should die in black red and blue he says he loves you but it's all a huant He begs, he pleads, he doesn't want to die you know better though you know whats right you raise the blade, thrust with one final cry His eyes close.....dark....no more light you stand there bloody as you are looking at the love that was once in your life knowing you've done wrong looking over at the car you cry out and to your heart plunge the knife The light is fading away fast the stars all turn red you hit the ground second to last one final breath, and then....you are dead Melly |
| Living with Abuse As I pace in my room hoping he won't come in I feel all the gloom of his awful sin. I hear his stride in the hall I have no where to hide no where to crawl. So I hide my ears and cover my eyes I can feel the tears and hear her cries. I hear him leave slam the door I didn't want to believe it was her on the floor. As I look around I see her hurting so we don't make a sound as we decide to go. Melly |
| Bad Habbits As I sit here drinking up a storm not even thinking why my head is warm. The room is spinning my head just hurts I'm in the second inning of hurling on those shirts. I don't know why I do it but I do know it's fun though I do think I'll quit I'll wait until I'm done. So I light up another smoke hoping to get a buzz thinking it's a joke I seem to yell, just because. I know it's stupid and I'm gone just about though I'm still a kid I really want to pass out. I just sit there and blink and in the end over the sink is where I bend. Melly |
| Truesures Life: The never ending story the only thing that goes on may it be beautiful or gory or may it begin at dawn. Money: Every living nightmare Just having it makes you bleed those who have it don't care that their life is living on greed. Friends: Everyone is a friend doesn't matter who you are they havbe the same interests and even share the same whising star. Dreams: It's always explaining what you are supose to be even if your eyes are raining it doesn't mean your not free. Care: doesn't mean a thing to me it's just a name that has no good to bring and has no burning flame. Pleasures: Everyone has pleasures may they be just around the bend so now you have all the truesures your thoughts should never end. Melly |
| Someday I didn't expect someday to come so soon just as it may hit like a harpoon. someday was the only realisation that I feared it was one I couldn't see or sense as it neared. But now that it's here fear is still an issue so let it whisper in my ear I'm ready for the new. Let the cold wind blow The warm sun shine the blizzards snow I'm sure I'll do fine. This is my day my love and my man this feeling will always stay in the palm of my hand. Melly |
| The Dream I dreamed about you last night you looked so peaceful and relaxed staring at the stars, counting each one thinking about nothing at all. The tree you were leaning on Was shaded on your face the moon shined on your teeth I could see your breath in the air. Suddenly your eyes were closed and a smile came on your lips you laughed a little softer then you looked serious yet again. you looked in my direction and mouthed a sentance or two I couldn't make out your words so I took them as I love you. Then all of a sudden out of the blue you started to vanish your look was sad and filled with pain you lips mouthed three final words... how could you? As fast as you came you were gone the dream was left dark my mind was blank no pictures and with a sudden jolt, I woke up. Melly |
| Forever Remains As the moon is to the stars as the sun is to the clouds as a dog is to a cat as a shoe is to a foot. They all go together you can't take them apart fore if you think of a friendship you'll know it's true in your heart. My friends are my world They are my sun moon clouds and stars I am never going to leave them they will always be within my soul. We fight our differences But love them all the same and even in a real rough spot no one is left with the blame. So if you ask me what a friend is don't hold your breath just count all your blessings and leave your regrets. A true friend is some one who lives for life and passes on but in your mind they'll stay with you forever with that bond. Melly |
| Compassion A tear falls Staining a pillow The sarrow burns Deep within a soul. Cries of redemption fill a yearning heart The beads of pain Explain it all. A tourturous feeling Dwells within a body Rotting the living Into a fearful corpse. Lies of the world Burned all love To heal the wounds That will endure nothing. Empiest of all Cries to be fulfilled Not having the strength To carry this burden. Melly |
| Chains of Night Dead before I wake in a dreamless sleep black as night is all I remember. Here I thought I'd be dreaming of you but instead of wonderment shacles of darkness keep me. Could be a nightmare of my past events could also just be a dying love bleeding. Bleed this aching heart drain my tourtured soul dream me pleasurable wishes ache my tendered mind. Call out my name in your owen sleep let me know you care and you still love me. Melly |
| Deepest Apologies In my womb you grew at first without my knowledge but in my heart I knew in my soul you grew. Once finding out for sure scared tears I cried I was so immature I was still dependant After thinking it through I decided for the best not yours it was but for me I murdered you never getting to know you I just killed you not thinking of you you still haunt me to this day I remember to this night I cry everyday I remember My deepest regrets call for your forgiveness your life I distroyed mt deepest apologies. Melly |
| My Love What can I say that hasn't already been said in every little song? What can I do that hasn't already bin done in the past? What can I write that hasn't already bin writen in every single book? There are a lot of ways to say I love you but there is only one way to prove it unconditionally. You leave me no choice but to broadcast my love and show you my soul through the windows of my eyes. For if it wasn't for you this poem wouldn't exsist and my love for you will always be looked over. Melly |
| The Trueth Comes Out How do you know when your mind leaves you? or do you know at all? When you want to laugh at bringing some one else pain do you consider yourself cruel and heartless? If I felt like jumping off the face of the earth would anyone look for me? Am I supose to be miserable in my soul if I don't love you or never really did? Should I really care if you get hurt by me would you even tell me or fear I'd be pleased with your pain? would you really care if I just said the hell with it and bled to death on the side of the road? How should I tell you I'm not inlove with you do you really want to hear me say it? Could you handle me being as heartless as I am or would you go crazy like I already am? Do you believe in love at first sight? I never did probably never will. don't cry for me or yourself really It makes you look weak and it'll make me laugh! Melly |
| Remembering Bratling and Evaju Sometimes when life passes on to the next level your left asking questions your soul will never settle. Tears are drained till you cry yourself dry still your heart is aching asking why they had to die. Always they will be watching their spirits will guide those they cared about always by your side. Though you will forget the little things about them the big things will remain and show your heart the light. Their strong wills their laughter will always be remembered in our memories Happily Ever After. Melly |
| Together Yet Apart Since the early ages of time There have been words on souls The sun and the moon Together yet apart. Cloads and water Together yet apart Sky and ground Together yet apart. Though life travels far To find what it searches for My heart doesn't half to My soul mate doesn't have to look for me. He knows where I am He feels me burn With the suns heat and the stars passion We may never be within reach Though we are Together yet apart. Melly |