When my mom first got sick...I went to stay
with her in Memphis....Every couple of weeks or so, I would return home
for a few days....Although it was only a four hour drive, it often seemed
like an eternity...I suppose that happens when your life is falling apart
and you have nothing else to do but think about it....Anyhow, I was
driving home one weekend....my cassette player was busted so I was
surfing the radio stations... (hint:...never stick a tape that's warped
from sitting on the dash all day in the middle of July, into your tape
deck) Anyhow....I was trying to make sense of the whole situation.....the
question "Why her??" kept running through my mind... tears were fallin'....road
was blurrin'....I was a complete basket case (aren't you glad to know I
was driving nearly 80 mph down I-40??? hehehe) Anyhow... the song....Good
Riddance by Green Day came on....like many other songs....I'd heard it
in the past, but had never actually LISTENED to it....For some reason....at
that particular moment my mind focused on the lyrics....I listened intensely...one
last tear fell.....I felt an overwhelming sense of peace....for the first
time in a long time...I smiled .
Sometimes, while she was sleeping, I would sit next to her bed and sing that song to her...I can't recall if I ever sang it to her while she was awake....perhaps I was afraid I'd break down (hehehe....who am I trying to kid...I'm really just a horrible singer... my mom often gave me that "will you shut-up already" look)....Shortly before she passed away, I heard her humming it...we looked at each other...she just smiled....I never told her what the song meant to me....however, I think she knew....
Another turning point a fork stuck in the road...
Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where
to go...
So make the best of this test and don't ask
why...
It's not a question but a lesson learned in
time...
It's something unpredictable...
But in the end is right....
I hope you had the time of your life...
So take the photographs and still frames in your
mind...
Hang it on a shelf of good health and good time...
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial...
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while...
It's something unpredictable....
But in the end is right....
I hope you had the time of your life....