Good Riddance

When my mom first got sick...I went to stay with her in Memphis....Every couple of weeks or so, I would return home for a few days....Although it was only a four hour drive, it often seemed like an eternity...I suppose that happens when your life is falling apart and you have nothing else to do but think about it....Anyhow,  I was driving home one weekend....my cassette  player was busted so I was surfing the radio stations... (hint:...never stick a tape that's warped from sitting on the dash all day in the middle of July, into your tape deck)  Anyhow....I was trying to make sense of the whole situation.....the question "Why her??" kept running through my mind... tears were fallin'....road was blurrin'....I was a complete basket case (aren't you glad to know I was driving nearly 80 mph down I-40??? hehehe) Anyhow... the song....Good Riddance by Green Day came on....like many other songs....I'd heard it in the past, but had never actually LISTENED to it....For some reason....at that particular moment my mind focused on the lyrics....I listened intensely...one last tear fell.....I felt an overwhelming sense of peace....for the first time in a long time...I smiled .

Sometimes, while she was sleeping, I would sit next to her bed and sing that song to her...I can't recall if I ever sang it to her while she was awake....perhaps I was afraid I'd break down (hehehe....who am I trying to kid...I'm really just a horrible singer... my mom often gave me that "will you shut-up already" look)....Shortly before she passed away, I heard her humming it...we looked at each other...she just smiled....I never told her what the song meant to me....however, I think she knew....

 
 
 
 
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