Dear Trevor... When we found out that you were on your way into our lives daddy and I were so excited. Finally something that we had only dreamed about was going to become a reality. We dreamed of you so often. We dreamed what it would be like to have a little baby in the house, and if you were going to be a boy or a girl. We dreamed about what you would look like. Your likes and dislikes. Our dream became a reality on May 31, 1996 and that same dream shattered on July 6, 1996. We did not know that when you went on that helicopter that it was the beginning of the end. Oh Trevor, we miss you so much that it hurts. We want to hold you, touch you, and love you but all we can do is hold your picture and imagine the way things should have been. Vision is not seeing things as they are, but as they will be and some day we will be together again. They say that destiny is not a matter of chance it is a matter of choice, but it was not our choice to let you go to heaven and become an angel so soon. We were not ready to let you go, we wanted to love you and watch you live your dreams. We wanted to share your future. Please don't think that anyone ever gave up on you. You had so many people praying for you and so many doctors doing everything in their power to help you get better. We had team work . . . many hands, many minds, one goal. We know you fought as hard as you could but a stronger force took you away. You fought a very hard battle for five weeks and you just got too tired. Daddy and I do find comfort in knowing that you are not alone in heaven. We know that you are playing with your cousin Annette and other angel friends. Make sure you give Annette a hug and kiss from her mommy and daddy and tell her that she is sadly missed too. We are so sorry for not being with you when you died. As soon as the hospital called we hurried as fast as we could to get to you but we lived so far away. You couldn't wait any longer and we understand that but we never got to kiss you goodbye. We never got to hold you and we never got to say "I love you" one last time. Oh Trevor, the day of your funeral so many people came to tell you good bye. Your family, friends and some people we didn't even know. You will never know how special you were to so many people. We love and miss you so much that it hurts. It's hard to remember you are not gone, you are just away. Even though we never held you in our arms, we will hold you in our hearts forever. Rest in peace Trevor, and remember . . . We will always love you. God bless you Trevor Paul Lauer. Sadly missed by Mommy and Daddy

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