A LETTER TO JIMMY'S FATHER

Dear Mr. Scott,
Regardless of what you choose to see and hear, two out of the three remaining children you have believe your Grandaughter had something to do with your Son's, Jimmy, murder. I too battled with it for the longest time, not wanting to believe she had anything to do with it. Ask my pastor, ask my therapist, they both will tell you that I did. I was very close in commiting suicide several times because of this delima as well as the pain I was going through missing Jimmy and hurting so bad because of what happened to him.
As far as you allowing me to stay there, I tried my best to help out as much as I could by doing dishes so you could take it easy and relax some. When Rebecca got hurt, I tried my best to take care of her so no one else would have to. I also thanked you as best I could for allowing me the "privelage" to stay at your home. I even told Jimmy that if he wanted us to, we would paint the rooms there since he said that he had the paint, in thanks for us staying there. He wanted nothing to do with that idea. So you see Mr. Scott, I did try to pay my way there. My offer was not accepted by who I thought the owner of the house was. So you see sir, I did try my best.
You taking good care of your wife, is that why you yell at her and call her names as well as telling her how useless she is? Yes, you give her the pills she is to take. Do you help her with the exersizes she is to do? No you don't. Do you not leave her alone longer than what the doctor said she was to be left alone, which is 2 hours? Yes you do. Was Jimmy not contacted a time or two for all the yelling in the house, yelling that you were doing to your wife? Yes he was. A long time ago, did you not have a gun to your head and threaten to kill yourself, in front of your children, if your wife continued to press for a divorce? Yes you did. Did you not physically beat her several times, in the hospital as well? Yes you did. Now please tell me again how well you take care of her. A word of advice to you Mr. Scott, you will be watched, if you are not being watch now, so if I were you, I would watch what I say as well as how long I would be gone from the house. They can get you for neglect.
Now, for your being a good father. How many times did you tell not only Jimmy, but your youngest daughter that you wished they were never born? That they were worthless? Several times. Your now only son told the therapist that he and his elder sister were treated differently than the two younger siblings, that there was more verbal and physical abuse to them than the two elder children. The therapist they are going to is very suprised how well they have turned out concidering the abuse that went on in that house when they were growing up. Especially since abused children tend to lean tword being abuse parents when they themselves have chidren. They did not. Knowing as little as I do of their growing up, you should be very pleased as well as very proud of them. But no, you are not. Instead you called them, after Rebecca's sentencing, and told them that they were no longer welcome in your house, and also told them that as far as you were concerned, that they were no longer a part of "your" family. You have turned out to be a very "good" father Mr. Scott.
Now, for the reason for me doing this like I am. Rebecca. You believe in her innocence. You believe what she said, that she had no part of the whole thing. If she didn't have a part in your sons murder, why did she not call 911 when she heard the shot. She was home. Why did she have a rifle under her bed? Remember what the inmate said at the trial, the one that Rebecca told everything to? That if you would have come home early, she would have had you killed too. A nice granddaughter you have Mr. Scott. Let me ask you these questions :Why did she remove the dogs from the house when the boys were there, why did she call the boys to tell them that she was home and that her father was sleeping? Can you answer that logically? I know you can't. As for her child Mr. Scott, I hope and pray to God every day that the child will grow up being like his grandfather, Jimmy. A wonderful man with a very big heart, a heart that had gotten severly punnished by his father as well as his wife.
If the truth be known Mr. Scott, I am glad I didn't marry Jimmy also. I loved him with all of my heart, I still do, but knowing what I know now, about what he has lied to me about, and with you, I would have divorced him and came back to my home here. I would have been unable to live with a man like you. And Jimmy would not have left his mother in your "capable" hands, fearing for her safety as well as her well-being.
In my opinion Mr. Scott, an opinion that once was brought up, was agreed upon, you just wanted to have control over Rebecca's check. You wanted to use it in your own greedy and selfish ways. Now you do not have it, that is why you are blinding yourself to the truth. Rebecca's mother is getting a check for the child that she has taken into her home, Rebecca's child. I hope and pray to God that the child will grow up to be good in society. Not a murderer, like his parents are, not a user, but a good person, useful person that people would be proud to know.
Now Mr. Scott, I can go on and do what Jimmy wants me to do, now that justice has been served to one of the two that killed him. I can forgive her, just like Jimmy did. For you see, he is free now. Free of you, free of her, free of his feelings of being responcible for his mother since you were not. He is also free of the pain that plagued him for several years as well as the problem that he came down with several years ago. He can go where he wants to freely. Know this Mr. Scott, Jimmy's spirit is still here, watching over those that he knew loved him, respected him and cared very much for him. He knows who stood behind him and wanted justice done for his murder. Those that did not believe the unjustness that was said at the trial. Those that knew how much he loved his daughter and how far he went to please her, regardless of his needs, wants and desires.




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