i never hated anyone the way i hate myself...
i hate myself for what i did to us
to you
to me
i hate myself for being so weak
so wrong
so different from how i want to be
i hate myself for screwing everything
for not being able to prove i can change
for being for you to love me
i hate myself because i cannot bear my own tears
my own pain
me
i hate myself and this is probably my punishment
to lose you
to lose your love
to be alone with me...