I was blessed enough to have been contacted by my dearest friend from Houston, Flaka, just out of the blue today via email! We had a falling out shortly before my wedding 2 years ago (because she warned me that my cheater husband was no good and that I should not go through with my wedding plans but I just would not hear her out, I was blinded by love at the time) and we had not spoken sense. Regardless of past issues, the way true friends always do, we have remained on each others minds and hearts all this time and now that I have her back, nothing will come between us ever again!
Right now, I have had no other choice but to retreat back to St. Louis, where Im from, due to the financial and emotional support of my family being in the best interest of Love, and believe me-her best interest is my first priority. I was able to get work rather quickly after my arrival and I bought a 93 Ford Explorer within the week as well, so things are a little brighter than they were where I just came from. Boy, talk about a Gypsy, I have lived in 3 different states in just over a month now!! I can’t wait to settle into a place of my own now that I have my transportation and employment issues in the bag. Actually, I feel like I am being punished for no reason for having to retreat back to my original starting point….but I will always stick to my belief of everything in life happening for a reason.
Well, unfortunately a shaky situation has gone from bad to worse and the deal on my house that I was buying fell through 3 days before it was set to close. I'd like to cry, but instead I'll say...hey THAT’S ALLRIGHT, THAT’S OK, WERE GANNA BEAT UM’ ANYWAY!! I don’t give up easily and I am still determined to get a place to live that I can stand long term (I prefer to buy or rent a cheaper house verses moving into another apartment) before the arrival of Love.
We have arrived! The real estate couple who has been working with me, Mike and Gail Hunter of Remax has really been wonderful and are going out of their way to assist me in settling in town until I hopefully close on the house in the beginning of October. They have helped to find me a place to stay, Mike unloaded my Ryder into storage and they have even lended me one of their vehicles until I can get into my house and buy one of my own; mainly because the loan has been a little shaky and we dont want to make anything fall through by my purchasing a car at this moment. I have really been blessed to have these good people in my life! Now all I need is a JOB and I will be set!
I'M BUYING A HOUSE! Pictures will soon be posted but I dont want to jinx anything right now until it is actually all mine. I was initially shopping in Chicago but ended up finding the best deal in Merrillville, IN...which is about 40 mins east of Chicago. Arturo is still working on joining us. Livie, Love (who is now kicking wildly in my tummy daily)and I will soon be loading up our Ryder truck and making our treck back west...and it wont be long before we hopefully settle in our nest!
I got my first ultrasound today!! They are pretty sure she is a girl and she looked very healthy to us on the screen. I counted 10 fingers and 10 toes on the monitor, she stuck them right up there for me to see! My heart melted as I saw her move around vigorously the entire time, her hands and feet were exercising joyfully as if she were doing water aerobics! I have been proudly showing off my first pictures of Love Bella. My favorite is this one because her head is resting on our placenta as she patiently waits for her November arrival. This one is a very clear shot of her face and then this one is of her profile. I couldnt be more proud of these pictures and what I have growing inside me!
06/06/01
My midwife has put me on early maternity leave from the airline. I hope the old wives tale about having a girl on the way if you are morning sick is true, because I sure have been sick as a dog these past few months and a little girl would make everything double worth while for me! I have been steadily home shopping online all this time and plan to make a series of weekend trips to Chicago in the month to come to actually see possibilities. Arturo tells me that things on his end are going the way we want them to and he should be joining me any time now. I recently began working temp in a Foster care agency, how bout that? I got an assignment that fits into my AAAW list without even searching! Let’s hope I have the same kind of luck finding a home.
06/01/01
Oh baby! I have decided not to move to Cancun with Arturo BECAUSE I am 4 months pregnant! Instead of me going there, he is going to move up here to the states with me. We have plans of buying a house (back west, closer to my family) and living happily ever after together! We are both very happy about our little blessing that we have on the way. Arturo has supported my decision of wanting a home birth involving delivery in the water. I have been reading up on that a lot lately.
02/12/01
I have met a wonderful new boyfriend who lives in Cancun. His name is Arturo Santiago and we met one day on my plane. He works as a member of the ground staff there in CUN. I have been spending a lot of time with him lately, flying over there on my off days which could be up to 4 days in a row. We get along so well that he wants me to move down there to be with him. It is a possibility and who knows what will happen?!?
01/01/01
I spent New Years Eve in great company and surprised myself by not even missing my husband’s kiss at midnight! I am having great fun on my new job and feel so fortunate to have finally doing something that matters to me! Every day is different and I have in fact already been involved in about 4 emergency situations concerning different problems with passengers. It is a neat feeling to know I could have the opportunity (and have what it takes) to save someone’s life on any flight at any given moment. This kind of stuff keeps the job exciting despite the very long hours that I have to put in. Don’t worry, my sweet Livie is just fine because all of my trips are quick turn arounds, meaning I leave very early in the morning and get back very late that same night.
12/25/00
I have been keeping in touch with my birthmother and her boyfriend (they have been together 20 years). Mike sends me emails now to let me know how Mari is doing. We sent each other Christmas presents, which I enjoyed because I didn’t really have anyone else on my list because I was scheduled to work the whole holiday.
11/23/00
I had a great Thanksgiving in St. Louis with my family as usual. We had about 50 people at the table this year and they were all very supportive and ready to offer me a shoulder to cry on about my separation and very excited about my great new job that I am enjoying!
11/1/00
Well, as you can see my wedding web site containing all the pictures of my beautiful Wedding has been pulled due to my marriage having recently crumbled apart unfortunately. It turns he was a cheating dog all along and there was indeed reason behind all the mental anguish he put me through. So enough about the cheater, oh yea, by the way, I felt the unbelieveable ETHAN ZOHN is much more worship worthy (closest thing to GOD that any man on this earth will ever come!) and would have looked much better by my side on that beautiful day! I am now trying to move on with my life and enjoy the new flight attendant job that I have just finished 3 weeks of training for with Ryan International Airlines!
09/15/00
I finally gained the courage to leave the administrative position that I have held for going on 2 years now at the Urology company. My husband thought I was very stupid for doing this and chastised me even though today is a Friday and I already have work lined up to go to on Monday from the temp agency I applied at on my way home this afternoon. I wish I had a husband who was supportive of me. I have been wanting to leave this job for a long time now because it has felt like I was selling my soul to the devil for a job that meant absolutely nothing to me other than good money and excellent medical benefits. I want to enjoy what I do, life is too short not to! I have decided that I am just going to work temp and never take another full time job unless it fits into my AAAW list….which is a list of my four career passions being either Airline, Animals, Adoption or Weddings. Any job having something to do with one of these 4 fields is a job that I am sure I could be happy spending the rest of my life doing.