*~he told me~*
he mentioned your name today
in casual conversation
says you are doing fine
taking a vacation
that your high on love
breathing the same air as me
i tell him it doesn't matter
hearing your name again
lying to myself
trying to recover
breathing the same air as you
i try to put you in the past
lock your memory away
shut the door
learn to live again
forget and go on
how can i when i know
your breathing the same air as me
he tells me he thought i'd like to know
how you live your life
without me
in another's arms
sharing the morning paper
and breathing the same air as you
i tell him it doesn't tear my world apart
the mere sound of your name
letting go was easy
not a problem at all
what a fucking joke
i never can reach it
breathing the same air with you
*~forget it all~*
forget all about this
my nonesense
and all the things i spoke to you
that morning
in the sheets
next to your warm skin
i was taken aback
by your foolish kindness
and the way you made me scream
i gave in to a moment
without thought or consequence
and i let myself live a dream
but i don't belong here
even if i want to
your only home to my wishes
there is a room
a house
family and friends
i have a life i can't leave behind
they need me
more than i need you
this is the story i wrote
before i knew how to spell
so you are just a passing page
a stop along the road
not my happy ending
or anything but over
maybe you should hate me
shun me
lose me
make a dart board with my image
write bad poetry
like i do
but try to forget
i ever was here at all
i know i won't
forget
but you should try