Hey Nicky! Well, since I didn't get to see you before I left, and since txt msgs take along time, and are fucking annoying when you get 3-4 in a row, I figured that this is the best way. Now this is weird for me, because this is the first time that I wanted to write to someone before I leave, but I'm pretty sure that your little bubble already knows that you're special! I will be sending out emails to pretty much everyone that I know before I leave, which is what I do. Since you don't have an email address, I had to get creative. It's actually pretty hard to set up a website that you haven't touched in years @ 1am, but hey it's done!! OK, so here's what I had written for you (keep in mind, that I would have left it at work, but that would be probably the dumbest thing I could have done, so ya I'm typing it out and editing it.. gotta love computers) -------------------------------------------- Nicky, Well it's weird that I just met you and started to like you and even manage to get close to you, and now I'm leaving (actually I'm probably on a beach or in an airport at this exact moment). For that I just want to say, I'm sorry! The decision for me to leave was made before we started to hangout. But that doesn't change anything. What happened, happened, and I don't regret getting to know you at all! You're an amazing girl, which for my last week in Montreal made me really regret leaving!! Remember when I said that maybe I should stay?? Well that could have been the easiest thing I've done in months. I had 2 job offers in MTL my lastweek here. I think the only reason I didn't take one was because I'm not sure what I want to to do. But I really did think hard about staying, cancelling all this is as simple as a phone call, or email to Miami. I can't really tell you how hard it is to get close to someone and the have to leave. Which is exactly why whenever people ask me if I'm excited to leave? / Am I anxious? / well, and because of this, this is the main reason why I always said NO, this fucking sucks!!! Every 2-6 months, someone you care about will leave, or you will leave, and It's impossible to deal with that over and over. You are the 2nd girl in one year that I got close to and that I leave. Which under this situation really shouldn't matter because I really don't know you, but I really do want to get to know you more, but oh well, that's the way it is! I'm going to go, do my job and try to make the best of Club Med! That part I know how to do well.. :P And there's one thing that I will not say to you, and that's goodbye!! See that's why I tried to call you before I left, I didn't want to say goodbye, because I WILL be back, and I'll see the people that I want/need to see when I get here. That's the thing about me. I'm always out, I go out everynight, but I get in touch with the same people (actually 7-8 right now) everytime I'm away, and it doesn't matter where I am, they are the ones that I contact first. The rest , well I'll see them when I get time. That's what I wanted to say (now imagine a txt msg with that? Shit..) So goodbye, nope. I'm not leaving the planet, and I'm not dieing. Anyway, the contract I have is for 6 months, and before that contract is done, I have to be back in MTL for a few days in March/April, I'll let you know when. Besides, aren't you the one that kept saying that you're gonna come to Ixtapa ... blah, blah, blah... So then I'll see you there! Oh BTW the deal I'll give you is stupid cheap, I laughed.... So ya, that's basically it. I'm sorry for bringing you into the life of Club Med, but it's really not what I planned, but who knows what will happen in the future! So on that, I really wish you the best of luck living through another winter here, just smile and enjoy!!! Winter only lasts a few months! So, I really hope that I'll hear from you soon!! Like I told you at the beginning of this essay, I emailed alot of people. So someone at Cafe Local will always have news. My phone is suppose to be working, I called Bell enough times so you can call whenever!! I will 100% give you a call within a few days of me getting organized (sooo don't screen, and answer weird numbers on your ID :P ), but until then, stay in touch, be safe Nicky!!! (just get a real email address and it'll be easier!!) Talk to you soon! Shaun My email address is shaun.bazinet@gmail.com