Christmas was so hard every year without you. The gift I had for you is still unwrapped. I have heard it said that time eases the pain....when??? It only seems to get deeper and deeper. I keep in touch with your fiance' and he is so very lost without you as we all are. Somehow I feel closer to you when I write to him. I keep hoping this is a dream and I will wake up and find you sitting here beside me. I miss you so my friend. I will never have another best friend in my life. I can never let myself get closer to anyone ever again because I will never find anyone who meant as much to me as you did. I wonder who has the best friend necklace I gave to you. I hope whoever has it knows just how much our matching necklaces meant to each of us. I still have mine but I will never wear it again. No one can ever replace you. You truly were one of a kind. Sometimes I am so angry at you for leaving. You were so loved by so many. Why couldn't you see just how much joy you brought into everyones life? But I still think that deep down there was somthing that you didn't want any of us to know. I will have to wait until we meet again and I know you will tell me why.
It now 2008 and it feels like you have been gon just yesterday and the pain has not gotten any lighter. I still miss my best buddy but I guess I will just have to wait until I see you again. I wish you would have been here to meet my new granddaughter who was born yesterday. She is so beautiful, you would have loved her.
May this candle forever burn in memory of Hazel Ann Sells
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