Sometimes I just get this emotional weight on my heart. I don't have many people to talk to, though even when I do talk it doesn't always help. Friends try to help me, and sometimes it does help. It's just that I'm too independant for my own good. If people don't ask me about my problems, I won't tell them. Because I don't tell them, my emotional weight turns into a ball of pain. I don't deal with this pain very well, and so I do what I know to do. I cut myself.
The cutting sort of turns my emotional pain into physical pain. See, I can deal with the pain that's skin deep, but it's soo hard for me to try to deal with the pain I can't really justify. Some tell me that i should talk to a counselor or to my parents, but I just can't bring myself to. I think that it would help, but cutting helps too. It helps me deal with my problems. It may not be the best way to deal with the pain, but it works for me.
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