Brew Crew My ASS ~Roo               I remember, what seems to be a very long time ago, when the beer room was the most awsome place to be. Friend's hangin out together, havin' a good time, kickin' back and sharin a beer. True friends we all once were... funny how things change with time. Anyone remember the term "BREW CREW?" Not just the term itself, but the feeling of commradery we all felt when we said it. It was cool if ya found yourself up to your neck in shit, 'cause The Brew Crew had your back. Seems to me, most of us either don't bother chatting there anymore, or, we chat with our asses against a wall, 'cause, well, who has your back now?             Admittedly, there are plenty of the Crew members left, we just don't happen to know where alot of them are. They pop in for a few seconds and say hi, and they're on their way again. Who can blame them. And many, no, not all, but many of the crew have .....changed. Nothing unusual I suppose, times change, people change, hell, I'm not the same as I was when I discovered the room 2 years ago either. I'd like to say I had gotten chat into perspective, that I had "grown up" and moved on. Sadly, that wouldn't be true. I learned to love alot of you,  Soda, Mikey, Kelly, Thumper, Kinz, Op, Kess.... Lp, Luna, Deb9707. gosh there were so many of us. I couldn't begin to name us all. What has changed about me is that I've realized that friendships just aren't what they seem. That online, friends aren't necessarily what we thought they were.            LOL, I can honestly say, I wish I had Joel's outlook on it. He doesn't give a shit about any of us, never even bought into the "Crew Theory." Smart man, he hasn't been reduced to tears not once over any situation in that room... well.... tears of laughter perhaps.  I, on the other hand, have. I've cried more then once. I cried over the Benny fight. I have shed my share of tears over this latest round of fighting for sure. But I'm thankful. I've learned a lesson.            Maybe I just lost a chat "brother." Maybe I just lost a good friend. Maybe he was never as good a friend as I thought. Maybe, just maybe, I lost nothing at all. So, what I'm saying is, maybe it was all bullshit to start out with. Maybe the "crew" was just a silly little thing some of us bought into entirely too much. I know that there are a few special people that I met in this room, that I will always count as friends. Call me stupid, I don't care. I also know  that there are a few that were always full of shit, right from the start. And, I admire Joel, hell, we all always knew he didn't give a shit. And knowing that made all the difference. I luv ya Joel... even though ya couldn't give a shit less about me. Hell... I luv ya BECAUSE ya don't give a shit.            As for those willing to turn their back on the original crew, in a blink of an eye, for some "special feeling" some newbie gives ya... think about this... are they REALLY what they're leading you to believe they are? Do they actually give a shit? Or, will you find out in time, that just like the "crew," it was all bullshit?            Best of luck to you all. May you find whatever it is in life that you need, want, desire... blah blah. Whatever floats your boat. I... well... I'm trying to get a real life, and trying to pretend I don't miss that old pipe dream we called "The Crew."