Is It Just You?

How could I have known?
You fight like cats and dogs,
But is it you or the bottle
I should blame for all this mess?
Should I blame myself for caring?
Because caring never seems to be enough
And I always fail
No matter how hard I try
Or how well I do.
Or is it just you?
Is it my fault
My friends don't see this?
I keep it so well hidden.
I'm embarrassed-
Scared-
Alone-
Is it the bottle?
Or is it just you?
Is it just you
Who says I do nothing right?
Is it just you--
Four years old and a hand across my face.
A nightmare--unforgettable.
And now my brother and sister,
But never when I'm there.
You're going to lose everything--
Thrown out on the street.
Is it the bottle's fault?
Or is it just you?
Because you can't blame this on the past.
You can't blame this on anyone
But yourself.
So tell me--
Do you sleep?
Because I don't.
My sister wishes--
My sister wishes she were deaf
Or even dead--
So she didn't have to hear you fight
Or go through this.
How could you?!
Is it the bottle, causing a problem?
Or is it just you?
Are you just oblivious
To the fact you're the one making our lives miserable?
Stop this nonsense--
Stop cursing at me--
Stop getting drunk--
Stop blaming everyone else--
And look at yourself--
Because you're the one who picks up the bottle.
And it's not the bottle--
It's you.