Contemplating

You ever lied awake at night
And looked up at the stars so bright
Wondering just how to fit in
When to start and where to begin?
Is it worth the price that they all pay,
Being unhappy day after day?
Starting a habit that they'll never break…
Finally realizing that they're fake.
Smoke so much pot they can't concentrate.
Puking up the food back onto the plate.
I don't know, it's just not me.
I don't want it. Let me be.

You ever looked into their eyes
To see what therein really lies?
Their worlds of insecurity and fear
Leave you wondering what went on here…
They hate because they don't understand
What makes up the heart of every man
So they kill with words instead of knives
And decide to ruin other people's lives.
Hold a gun up to their head
And in a second, whoops, they're dead.
I don't know, it's just not me.
I don't want it. Let me be.

For this would you lose your virginity?
Just to earn popularity?
The price we pay from day to day,
The mask we wear that will betray
Even ourselves-on this we think
As into our stomachs our hearts will sink
To think of how sick they really are.
And we notice their terrible scar.
Across her wrist I saw it there
Poor kid always thought life was fair.
I don't know, it's just not me.
I don't want it. Let me be.