Never Enough

A cry from my soul was heard today,
yet no one was there, no one would listen
I tore out my heart, my love, and innocense,
yet no one was there, no one would listen
I slit my wrists, choped off my hair,
yet no one was there, no one would listen
I yelled so loud that I lost my voice,
yet no one was there, no one would listen
I fell to my knees begging God help me please!
yet no one was there, no one would listen
I lyed waiting for my death, holding all memories
that were soon to be forgotten
yet no one was there, no one would listen
I breathed my last breath keeping it all inside,
yet no one was there, no one would listen...



Untold

Needless thoughts,
Useless words,
If only you knew it
Was something I really never heard

Uneasy feelings,
Guiltless sayings,
If only you knew it was
My life that shall be failing

Screaming battles,
Harsh replys,
If only you knew how
Easy it would be to never say goodbye

Misleading actions,
Forceful ways,
If only you knew all
The things I still have to say



Dark Tunnel

Through the wondering nights
Listening to the wind
Wondering where you are
And how you have been
Through the painful days
Walking down the halls
Wondering what has come of us
What has been
What have I become
Why must I believe
Listening to the screams of silence
The pain grows deeper
Deeper then it has ever been
Beneath it all I know the truth
I know how I really did love you
Why must it hurt me so
Through it all
I know the pain and the torment shall never leave me,
for this life is but a stone made by my enemy



What

What lives inside of me
What shows through me
What is that pain
That pain that I know so well
What is my life
What has it become
What can I recall about the joy
The joy that has never been



Once More

As slow as my tears may fall
It does not mean my silence is a call
Dripping into a puddle that I had
left behind from many years ago
My tears turn cold
I think of the faint whispers I had once heard
From the person who I had trusted most
The one who I had trusted with my secrets,
The one who I had believed in with all my soul,
As I look towards the tree that stands outside
I remember the way you had left crying with nowhere to hide
Now I find myself near your hurt again
Trying to push myself away
I just keep getting closer
Closer to what I had felt before
Now I must turn away from what I had been
I must not let you win my soul once more



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