Angeloflust8

Friendship's Gone Wrong

So lonely seems like I've been on my own forever. Friendships have left me burnt by untrustworthy people. I put my trust in people and they walked all over me. Now I feel all alone though I'm not.

The tears keep flowing onto my pillow at night from all the bad decisions in my life. I toss and turn through the night and when I do finally sleep. I wake up screaming and begin to weep. I've lost my faith in people I don't know who to trust is my friend, my friend, or my foe. Should I stay here and be the victim of lies and schemes or should I turn my back and run to another place where I will think I am safe? I'm so confused I cant seem to make up my mind. I feel like I am running out of time.

My life has gone from a dream to a nightmare with a single twist of faith. The knife was shoved into my back then twisted till I screamed out in agony. I can't reach the knife to take it out and ease my pain, I need a helping hand but when I look no one seems to be around. All I hear is the sound of my tears falling and my heart beating in my chest. Where is that shoulder I need to cry on, has everyone left me alone to slowly go insane?

I didn't do anything wrong I was there with them when they couldn't be strong. Now I am out in the cold with wounds that just won't heal. Can I overcome this hole in my life or will I fall into it and never come out? I am stronger then I look they burnt me but, I won't do unto them as they have done unto me. I will let God punish them for what they have done to me. It would feel good to make them feel my pain but I know that if I do that I will live in vain. I treated them like family instead of friends but in the end they were just my bitter enemies.

Can anyone hear my cries of sorrow. Can anyone help me move on to tomorrow. I wonder was it worth it to deceive me what did they achieve. Through my blurry eyes I see a new sunrise and start to realize that I will be just fine. I see the beginning of a new journey in my life one without sorrow or betrayal.

I make it onto my feet again to finally take a stand against the wrongs that have been done to me. I've learned my lesson well, gotta know who I can trust or else I will feel this burn again. I might have had a kind heart and seemed easy to fool but; I am wiser now and have learned you can't always play by the rules. I will win this battle they can't make a fool of me I will live my life to the fullest watch and see.