The Spiral Descending Staircase
I am so sorry dear lady
I cannot be strong like you
That's what I always admire
about you
Your ability to come back
from the pain
There is no way I will
ever be the same
No way I can ever trust
and care
I have always thought I
was
Ascending the spiral staircase
I was never ascending
Only falling into oblivion
As the panic and pain set in
I
can feel my face pale
I can feel the blood
The pain will cease
Soon I will not know pain
Nor will I cherish joy
I will be a person dead inside
Dead inside but free of pain
Free of frustration
Free of effort
While I am not much
I can say I
have been me
I will always be me
Who I am is insignificant
My love never
has been
And never will be
I will be buried
In
an avalanche
Of
empty tears
Who you are
Will always
be dear to me
Will be buried with
me
I am so sorry
I could never
be more for you
Or for myself
That's my fate
I could never juggle
dreams
I am going now to sleep
My dreams will be of
you
The dreams that will never come true
Dreams of laughter and
tenderness
© Paul Viel 2000