| i think i saw myself beautiful today. i think i saw mysefl smile. the mirror told my wrong today so did the patern in the tile i cant fix it i dont know how this feeling in me tell me now why do i care what they think i wont do my hair for anyone today i though i saw my self beautiful, today i actually did smile today if forgot to put on my glasses, love it took me a little while i dont think ill write beautiful because i dont think that youd care im not going to lie to myself, love i can feel it in their stare so please remind me, next time i dont have my glasses on im not going to lie to myself, love your not going to care if im wrong. |
| do you ever feel sometimes that you need to be depressed? that you just need to fall on your face and cry? have you ever wanted to jut sleep for hours? or even, have you ever not wanted to sleep because sleep is a horrible waste of time? what time is it? what is this in me? have you noticed yet that this text is entirley questions? where on earth are you by the way? how long has it been since youve checked this? or have you already read it 14 times.? do you wander what im thinking now? why dont you ask me? did you know that when i was 14 my favorite color was yellow because it looked happy? why didint you know? did you ask? did you care? are you laughing now? are you crying? when will these questions stop? why are they all here, stuffed inside my head? why arnt you gone yet? |
| life is great. right now my maind goals are to study for school and memorize verses in the bible. im also verry prous to announce the completion of my FIRST ZINE! EEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! o_o sorry... *ehm* ok so if you want me zine, let me know cause id love for you to have one ^_^ and i apologise for not updating my thoughts for a while buuuutt.. im begining to have this weird thing called 'life' and its comeing more and more frequently =P n e wayse. *luv from cassy* ps: VOOOOOTTTEEEEEE <3 |
| breakdown, realistic. spaztic memories thrown from left to right tell me.. could you understand this if i just told you who and why it think somone would hate me hate me like you would if i just said i had a bad day and i cand express myself in the most comfertable way cant i just tell you i had a bad day; i had a b ad day. |