Oh, to be in L.A. in the summer. What fun this town will be.

Proposed writers' and actors' strikes. Layoffs in the music, internet and film industries. And, of course, the decision by Disney to layoff 4,000 employees by July. Well, entertaiment may be taking a big hit in the wallet, but the pharmaceutical industry will be booming.

Disney's plans have already claimed its first journaller victim. I don't know yet if I'll be its second. I wont know for some time. Unless I decide to take The Company up on its offer for the "voluntary separation program" (or VSP). If I apply, and managemetnt accepts, then I get a nice package of 12 weeks of pay. And there's something great happening with the 401K, but I can't remember what it is offhand.

I don't know. There's a part of me that would dearly love to go for it. A very big part. It would be great to finally leave this place, maybe move towards something new and exciting. I have a terrible habit of becoming comfortable in current situations, even if I'm not very happy, and this would be the perfect thing to kick me out of my rut. And that 12 weeks of cushion would be mighty nice.

This is the worst possible time. I know one of the main reasons Disney's letting us go is because it sucks for most of the companies now, but there are going to be so many unemployed folks trolling for jobs this summer that my competition is going to be very, very stiff. And since there's still a part of me that's convinced I'm nothing but a big fraud and prospective employers will laugh at me for even daring to walk in the room for an interview, pointing at me, telling me my talents would be best suited working behind the counter at 7-11 or McDonalds, well, you can see my dilemma.

Or, on the flip side, what if I apply for the VSP, but my manager and VP decide that I'm too valuable to let go? Imagine how awkward the atmosphere of this place will be. Plus I would really like to stay with Disney for a while longer.

I just don't know. Yeah, yeah, stop analyzing it to death, already. Shit or get off the pot. Trust me, all of this runs through my mind, too. One day I'm convinced I should leave, the next I'm convinced I should stay. I don't hate my job any more, but it's hardly filling me with joy, either.

Well, I have to make a decision by this time next week. So, just after my 35th birthday I'll either have made a life altering change...or not. Happy Birthday to me, indeed.

In brighter news, I finally finished (well, about 99% finished) that site I mentioned earlier. No, honestly, I did.

M-M-M-More Than M-M-M-Max:The Matt Frewer Story. Yep, it's a fan site. It's a good one, with more info than you ever wanted to know about the guy, and it's already being linked by related sites, with more people telling me that they'll be adding it to their link pages in the future.

While I don't think I'll be as fortunate as my friend Linda with her fan site (which has since become the official Mike Farrell site), I hope The Matt Frewer Story will become the destination for all inquiries Frewer.

If not, well, that's cool too.

Next step:move this site and revamp it. I've started on that, let's hope I get a good chunk of it done by the end of the month. Wish me luck!