I have always been one has been searching for peace in my life. Especially during those crazy times when nothing just seems to go according to my "Master" plan. To get me through those times I used to write a lot of poetry. Some of my friends have also written some truly wonderful poems and have agreed to let me put them on here. So here is a small variety of some poems that touch me deep within...
Break of Time.......by Laurel
Shadows and Rain.......by Laurel
Senseless.......by Laurel
One by One.......by Laurel
Before the End.......by Laurel
After a While.......by Anonymous
Masks.......by David
Midnight in America.......by David
On the Corner.......by Laurel
A Break of Time
Depressed, Angry, Scared
she sits alone in a dark corner
sunlight will kill if it touches.
It has already burned her
Heart, Soul, Spirit.
Snicker, Sorrow, Pity
is all she feels and hears
life no longer is life.
An empty shell of herself
Broken, Torn, Obliterated.
Laughter, Triumph, Content
he did this to her
touched her right but really wrong.
Gone with a smile and a kiss
Stomping, Crushing, Taking.
Cold, Small, Cheap
her friends now that are always with her
she bears the constant reminder.
She calls out to scream
Blackness, Isolation, Nothing.
Shadows and Rain
Rain falls gently to the ground,
As the tears are released from my eyes.
The rain washes away any signs of the tears,
But the pain is still visible on my face.
I was so alone when I first met you,
A child lost inside of a woman.
You made me come alive with love and trust,
Now I am lost in the shadows of love.
I thought our love would last forever,
Now I'm sitting here looking inside myself.
Here I am wondering what went wrong,
Did we ever have a chance?
But this is a love that can never fade,
Though the rains may clear up.
This cloud of pain shall entangle my heart,
One day love shall blow these shadows away.
Senseless
Put me in your human eye
come taste
the bitter tears
that I cry.
Touch me with your human hand.
Hear me with your human ear.
but notice me
damn you,
notice me
i’m here.
One by One
This one is for my friends in College....
One by one we met and grew together
No one knowing where it would lead.
Six lives bound to be changed forever.
Squabbles, tiffs, and spats were common
But happiness was important to all.
We were all different but breathed as one.
Our friendship was almost a necessity,
Silently sitting yet always knowing.
Each of us brought a different aspect of life.
A dreamer, laugher, thinker; a realist, lover, stranger
Taking what we needed and meshing it with ourselves.
We may never comprehend our impact,
Our souls searching for the perfect feelings.
We know we will not be together forever
But our hearts will be bound by a golden thread.
Our spirits united and soaring with the clouds and sun.
Like the flame of a fire our love will burn bright,
A love that is not spoken but always felt.
We draw on each other’s faith, courage, and tender hand.
When one stumbles, five hands are there to prevent our fall
But hands will grow tired and weary.
One by one we will leave and grow apart
No one knowing if we will ever meet again.
Six lives permanently changed forever.
Before the End
Here in this leafy place,
Quiet she lies;
Cold, with her sightless face
Turned to the skies;
Tis but another dead;
All you can say is said.
As if beside the dead
Slumbered the pain;
As if the hearts that bled
Slept with the slain;
If the grief only died, but no
Death will not have it so.
After a While
After a while you learn
The subtle differnce between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security
And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts and
presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of a woman
not the grief of a child
and you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way
of falling down in mid flight
After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting
for someone to bring you flowers
and you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn and you learn
with every goodbye you learn
Masks
We have many faces we show the world...
Some happy some angry some sad...
We try to show a good face when happy..
And try to cover up unhappiness when sad.
But there are masks upon masks upon masks
Covering in layers my bare open soul
And it seems those layers bury us...
Deep in some deep dark dank hole.
But I need those layers, even though they stifle..
My inner self, my soul, my heart...
Even though they seperate me from others..
Keep me cold, distant, and apart.
For I do not know how to survive..
When my soul is opened to the fire..
For love, desire and hate...
Throw me on the flames of that pyre.
I slowly reach out from the layers..
Digging my way out, my way free..
And your hand grasps it and pulls me out...
And lets my soul be free.
Midnight in America
It's Midnight somewhere in America..
And a heart somewhere used to be whole.
that once was given freely out to another..
Now it's empty.. that somebody stole..
And somewhere in America this evening,
A eye that before was dry and bright
Now the tears fall free and fast..
Shimmering in the silverish moonlight.
And now a voice that once rang..
with happiness and joyful glee..
Now comes out soft and flat...
It's a definite change that one can see..
And the person who had such energy once..
Now finds that the worlds gone dreary..
Before being excited about everything in the world
Now finds the same world infinitely weary...
Yes it's Midnight in this country called America
and one doesn't know where to start...
To say about this world gone mad...
This change, now so true has broken someone's heart
And the time may be midnight forever...
for gentle reader.. as you see...
The one who faces Midnight in America...
The brokenhearted man that's me.
03/29/97
On the Corner
Sitting on the corner,
alone and afraid.
trying to hold on to hope
for the life I've made
It's so hard to smile
while holding back tears
but if you dig down deep
somewhere in your soul
you will find the strength
to fill the empty hole
it might take time
long hours of pain
but you have nothing to lose
and everything to gain