~*Concealed Heartache*~

5/25/99

A world of rejection,
Is all that I know,
Eluded by the world,
Neglected as I live,
The loneliness unbearable,

Relying on illusions,
Disappointed by deception,
This is my life,
And how it has remained,

I wander upon the perilous cliffs of death,
Thinking as I walk,
About the pretended friendships I have seen,
About the love I have attempted to give,
About the rejection that I have experienced,
And about the worthless life that I live,

I stand at the edge,
Wondering to myself,
If my demise would forever remain unnoticed,
Or would my dissolution shatter the hearts of the very ones
That said they cared but neglected to show it,

I've come so far,
Battling with anxiety,
Locking up my heart,
Fending off emotions,
Preparing to die…

As I step out of my life,
Falling,
Thinking,
I blow the world a kiss,
Once and for all,
Giving my love,
Neglected forevermore.
-Gene