dec 2002 - jan 2003


01.29.03    TTC GEMS
TTC train drivers announce the names of upcoming stations in bland, bored voices. in the past 2 months of riding it twice a day, monday to friday, there have been outstanding drivers that break The Monotone Rule.

01.28.03
sometimes all you have is blank idleness, white space filled with nothing but endless, flute-y Muzak.

i feel wan, languid. this had better not last long.

01.24.03
you know your diet's going badly when you consider pesto a vegetable.

in all seriousness, now: i'm trying to break up with jacob. a 4-year relationship -- poof! even though i'm the instigator, it isn't easy.

01.16.03
he writes hard, pressing pen to paper, creating imprints on the sheets below.
it makes me curious to know what he's writing with such intensity.

john and i have similar relationship problems: we want what we can't have, and if we can have it, we don't want it.

i'm exhibiting certain behaviours that could be classified as stalking. at the very least, they're disturbing.

01.15.03
i was standing on the subway platform when it hit me: the type of man i am least likely to date would be a stand-up comic.

01.12.03
did i tell you? went to australia, dec. 20 - jan. 07. it was fantastic. a little bit strange to celebrate christmas on the beach with bbq dinners in 30 degree weather, but i'm not complaining.
it's the new year. two small resolutions:
cute co-worker no longer at work. makes the work days a little more boring.

12.16.02
i have a new love of my life. it's a bone folder and a slitting knife from germany. i'm absolutely thrilled with them, and have no regrets about spending $50 on the two.
i'm also thrilled with the guy that sold them to me. blond, stocky, great smile, great in black sweater... plus he wrapped up my knife in pretty tissue so that i wouldn't stab myself, and sealed it with a sticker. a sticker! A STICKER! this means something! and that's only funny if you're john.

12.13.02
everyone and their monkey has a blog these days. why not me?
the regular site is to be cleaned up a bit to accomodate this new development. however, i'm not going through each page to change index.html to index2.html. there are obvious implications.
some old content below to try this out. will think more about what i where i want to go with this tomorrow. am tired. have headache. have 20 christmas cards that need writing. have bookbinding class tomorrow morning. arg. and i thought i wanted a more fulfilling social life?

12.13.02
it's been a while. some things have developed.
i finally got a job 6 months post-grad. my job role is undefined, partly because of newness (it's been 2 weeks), partly out of need (it's a small company of 6 employees; therefore i need to perform a variety of tasks).
i spent the 6 months pre-job travelling (mmm, paris!), moving, hooking up the freakin' hub & upgrading my comp, and, most importantly, exorcising my art demon. the fact that my heart is in the artistic, creative side but that i squandered my education on science haunts me. i say squandered, but i'm not being entirely truthful there.
latest news? i'm in love with my underage, ukranian co-worker. there are so many things wrong with that sentence.


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