Kalla's Poetry

The Flame

Have you ever looked
into a flame,
and seen yourself inside?
Huh.
That is me.

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The Dawn

The Earth,
not yet white hot,
is seared with red and gold.

For a moment,
blinding brilliance.
The light statley rises.

You can still look at it.
Is there anything more beautiful?

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Autum

Leaves,
brown and gold,
flutter in the wind.

The stark tree,
almost maked,
hangs desperatley to its last leaves.

The air is chilled,
the sky is gray,
and wet.

A beam of light,
flies from between the clouds.

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Fear

You wanna know what fear is?

True fear wanders,
lost through the woods.

Never knowing what's 'round the corner,
what's hiding behind a bush.

Fear waits,
wondering what's to come.

Fear is helpless, bound,
watching love die.

That's what fear is.

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Me Too

When the moon is full,
and shadows haunt.
When blood burns,
and the night shines...

Does the cracked mirror of
your own soul frighten you?

Me too

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Rain

The rain falls,
cascading gently down to the earth.
The fern quiver with the weigh of water.
The swollen stream gurgles through the forest.

The rain falls,
pelting streets and sidewalks.
Cars slosh through puddles,
as pedestrians scrurry under umbrellas and heavy coats.

The rain falls,
quenching desert thirst.
The oasis forms,
life returns.

The rain falls,
but not as rain, as snow,
Kissing the mountain tops,
the trees flocked with white.

The rain falls,
dripping down my window.
Chattering on my roof.
What a wonderous thing.

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The silent scream

I'm surrounded in darkness,
oppressing.
I cannot move.
I'm swallowed whole.
There is no light in the darkness.
I can't think,
I can't breathe,
I can't even cry.
Oh god,
how I wish I could scream.

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Rage

A silent tear falls
rage burns
I shake with fire

Clawing to sky
washes me clean
I raise a cry to heaven

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Fire and Ice

Alone
pain turns to rage

tears
turn to ice

Fire and ice
kiss, consume

I shake with hate
die with fear

All else
gone

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The Web

You ever get the feeling that
you're running, but you're not getting
anywhere? That no one can hear
your cries?
You try so hard, but nothing changes.
The more you resist, the more
enmeshed you become. Caught in
your own web.

You've spun it so well.

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The Fence-Walkers

Have you ever walked along a
fence, only a thin rail keeping
the earth under your feet?
On this side, all is solid,
safe. But what's on the
other side? The dark abyss.

Some people keep far from the
edge, terrified of falling. These are the
people who fear to even look over
the edge. What are they afraid
of seeing?

Some walk a little closer to the
edge, still afraid...but curious. Stealing
glances over the rail. They
see the darkness and steer clear.

Others walk right along the edge,
staring down. Afriad and fascinated
they gaze into the darkness, but
they won't fall.

Then there are the fence-walkers,
those few who walk the inch of
sliding earth on the other side of the rail,
hanging on, looking down.
They are not afriad of the
darkness. They see it inside
and sigh.

I am a fence-walker.

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My Heart

Alone I sit,
waiting and sad.
I feel the time pass
slowly.

Then he comes,
my heart beats fast.
I forget to breathe,
but happy.

Together the world
is different.
Alright,
somehow.

He leaves,
my heart drops.
Why does the night
have to end.

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The Road

The road is turning.
What lies ahead,
I can no longer see.
The road has been straight,
so far.
The road is changing,
unfamiliar now.
My guide has left me;
I'm on my own.
Only I can find,
what lies ahead.

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Sunday

I'm from a quiet
slept in sunday.
From the church
and synaguog.
I wish for the heaves
cry to the earth.
I live my life,
not a lie.

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I am

I am from the slide
the swings and bars.
I am from the cherry tree
and the beautiful dirty ditch.
I am from the blackberry bush
And the sky in a campfire's glow.

I'm from a quiet
slept in sunday.
The smell of pancakes
and orange.
From pinched cheeks
and pink dresses.
I'm from a red sunrise sky.

I am from chicken soup
and mashed potatoes.
From Spain and the Ukraine.
Teddy bear watches over,
along with kitty cat.
I dream of stars.

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Restless

Restless
I wait

As for what will come
I don't know

Fear and excitment
Fill me

I don't know which
I feel

And so
I wait

Restless

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A Poem For You

The warmth of your embrace enfolds me
Your heart beats against my ear
my fingers curls on your neck
The strength of your arm holds me
Our breaths caress

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Loneliness

What is loneliness?
It just hollows out your heart
And shakes you.
Why would anyone want it?
The only way not to get it sometime
Is to never have anything to miss.
Are those glimpses of heaven worth so much pain?
I'd die for them.

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untitled

The door is open
It can ne'er be closed again
The angel stands in it
Is he within or without?
Either way
I'll fight to join him

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Supposed Solitude

Precious solitude
Where can it be found?
In the remotest corner
The world is all around
The quiet of the scene
Pierced by neighbor's dog
The twitter of the lark
Must make it through the smog
There are initials
In all of the trees
The steady hum is of cars
Not of bees
How I long
For what is not
O, I hope I see it
Before it is forgot.

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Bitter Wind

A bitter wind is blowing
It's driving me away
A bitter wind is blowing
But I want to stay!
A bitter wind is blowing
Urging me to go
A bitter wind is blowing
To where I'll never know
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Isolation

I feel like there?s a
hole in my soul
and I know it?s more
than just missing you
no one person can mean that much

What?s it doing here?
why won?t it go away?
I feel all this anger
and hate
where did it come from?
It wasn?t here yesterday
or was it?
I?m not that good at hiding
things from myself
am I?
make it go away

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Seperation

Why Can voices caress
Yet not hands?
I see your face
Yet it's not yours
Across the vast
Chasm of space
Oh that we
Were never apart

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Drawn

blackness
growing
darkness
filling
fire
raging
calling me back
i'm drawn to darkness

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Glass

gently
down

sinking
slow

muted
empty

don't see it
don't hear it

don't mean it
don't feel it

world is spinning

walking the slow spiral
of hollow glass

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Duty

Being forced to do
what I don't want to do
Why am I obliged?
I have to do these things
but why?
I've lost what I once
wanted to do
What I have to do
obscures all the rest
It puts me at odds with myself
Battle within
Why?
Did I do this?

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Bend

nothing is real anymore
the world bends
infinity engulfs
time slashed
no beginning
no end
beyond paradox

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Loathing

So stupid, so worthless, so ugly, so pathetic.
Lost my way, lost my will, lost my hope, lost it all.
Running away form everything that you're afraid of.
Why don't you just give up and get out of the way.

I don't wanna see you any more.
I don't wanna feel you any more.
I don't wanna hate you any more.
I don't wanna be you any more.

So sorry, so faded, so jaded, so helpless.
Lost my faith in justice, in goodness, lost it all.
You've stopped struggling against all the lies that you've been told.
You can't even imagine what you've become.

I don't wanna see you any more.
I don't wanna feel you any more.
I don't wanna hate you any more.
I don't wanna be you any more.

So blinded, surrounded, unsheltered, no tears left.
Lost passion, lost courage, lost everything that you once were.
You promised yourself that you wouldn't end up like this.
Shows just how much you know about the way things work.

I don't wanna see you any more.
I don't wanna feel you any more.
I don't wanna hate you any more.
I don't wanna be you any more.

I feel so cold.
I feel so lost.
I hate this life.
Can I have yours?

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Slaughtered

I've been slaughtered
Mowed Down
War against youth
Spirit slaughtered
Resistance crushed
Sold out from under
I've been slaughtered

You kill me
I kill myself
Slaughtered
I help you kill me
Slaughtered

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Can't Keep It

I can see happiness
Smell it
Touch it
Taste it
But I can't keep it for long
Just when I think its mine
It slips away again
Why does it run from me?
Why is it so hard?
I just want to be happy

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Harvest

You reap what you sow
It's your own fault
Don't fucking complain to me
I don't care about you
What makes you think you're so damned special
Everybody suffers
You're not an exception to the rule
You boxed yourself into a corner
Just like you always do
It's your own fucking fault
You don't like it?
You fucking change it
It's not my problem
I'm tired of bailing you out
You fucking fix it
You broke it
Why do you think I care
I don't
You reap what you sow
Bitch

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Crone

Bitch
Hag
Wench
Shrew
Fury
Witch

Why thank you

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Luna

Dark lady of the sky
Waiting, watching down
Below
Watching up on high
Mere mortals down below
Stardust wanders down
We long to join that life

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Nothing

I've lost it all
I'm nothing
Nowhere to go
No one to know
How do I feel
Can't cry anymore
Don't care at all
Sad sweet apathy
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Stars hang overhead
Dark trees reflect in the silver water
A lake of perfect black glass
Visions dance within
Silence swells
Rising silver
The night stirs
The swan stark and white
Glides
The Lady smiles from above


Feel the fire
Stirring deep within
The heart of the earth
Beating
Steady
Strong
Rising life expanding
Growing from within
Life bursts forth
Spring has come again


No worries
No cares
No hurt
No hope
Just numb


waiting
for all this to end
waiting
for the night to come
waiting
to come home again
waiting
to be my own
waiting
to live my life...

so where am I now?
not living
not dead
just waiting


Coursing through me
Filling all of me
Taking me farther
Than ever before
Dark night shining
Sweet night singing
Making me your own


Longing
Yearning
Wishing you were beside me
Hollow
Empty without you
Needing you
Missing you
What is my life without you?


am i happy?
am i sad?
i can't tell?
what is this?
where am i?
what am i?
what do i feel?
what do i think?
who am i?