Who is that girl hiding behind the mask?  Move forward and you will soon find out.

Let me start with my goal in life.  My one true goal is to find happiness.  Pure, unchaste happiness.  The kind tht makes you want to sing and smile all day long.  The giddiness you felt the first time your "true love" talked to you.  The awe when you watch the sunrise.  Perhaps I will find it in love, but I am beginning to think "love" in just a faery tale concept, and there is no soulmate for anyone.  Perhaps I am meant to spend my final years alone, bathing in nature's sweetness and beauty.  However, one day I will be happy, content and joyful

My Ideas on The Universe, Religion and Self-Consciousness

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The Universe is a scary thing.  It just keeps on going and going.  And even if it stops somewhere, what is beyond that?  and where does that end?  Perhaps the Universe is merely a spherical-like entity which ends in its own beginning, but still, there is something past that.  What is this "space" composed of?  And just what exactly is that black hole thing?  Anti-matter?  What the heck is anti-matter?  Does it not believe in matter's beliefs and moral, or perhaps it is just against matter's sexual practices.  Who knows.  Even the universe can't get along.  Isn't that sad?  Well, I am still stuck on what is past the universe, and what is past that and where does it all end.  But then again, it never really can end, can it?  The true meaning of infinity.  Much too beautiful for my simpleton human mind to comprehend.

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Religion, one of my favorite topics.  Philisophical discussions are among the best.  I guess arugment who better describe the way these conversations usually end.  Why must we all be wrong? I personally believe each and everyone of us is right.  I think religion and faith are very important to the survival of the human race, and the human spirit.  We must all have something to believe in.  It is what drives us, what makes us strive for things.  Perhaps I believe in faeries.  If they make me happy, why shouldn't I believe in them?  Have you ever noticed how childeren are so much happier than adults.  I think it is because they haven't lost thier faith in the world.  They still believe in Santa Claus, in fairies, elves, and unicorns.  The dragons may one day come back to the Earth, and world peace with be a reality.  I am happy to say I haven't lost my childhood faith.  Fairies still fly around, and when I was younger, I did see a unicorn. A real live unicorn.  One day I will go back and see it again.   Since most of you probably think me nimble minded, I will go on with my religious beliefs.  I believe there is one god.  One loving God who watches over us all.  We may know her (or hiim) by many names, but it is always the same mind we are praying to.  Some call him God, others Krishna.  There are many names.  Jesus and Buddah are both saviors.  They found God and came to share the message with us.  somehow we managed to screws things up a little (human tendancy).  I am not sure, but I think reincarnation exists. Eventually we will all make it to "heaven."  We just have to learn from the mistakes we make in each life until we are living for ourselves and only ourselves.  Then we will all be truely happy.  I don't even think there is selfishness in these people, because halping others, making others smile with make these "higher" people happier.  Eventually they will be able to leave their flesh bodies behind and live as pure energy (see that is how I account for there always being the exact same amount of energy in the universe.  We are energy, therefore we can never truely die.  Are energy just "takes" us somewhere else.  This pure energy also has many names.  Spirit, soul, emblca.  There we will have true knowlegde, and it is this knowledge that makes us happy.  After all, isn't that what "heaven" is about?

III

Consciousness?  What is it?  What do dreams mean?  Are they simply are minds releasing stress? Are the trying to tell us things that we already know deep down?  Are the pychic phenomena that helps us to precieve what will happen in the future?  From experience I think that they do help us to see  things that we would rather not, and I also believe that we can precieve things from our dreams.  When I was 10 I had a dream that a friend of mine would (someone I did not yet know) would.  I didn't know how, but in my dream I did play a role in her death.  When I was 11 I met a girl named Stephanie who was older (therefore cooler, she was about to get her driver's liscence) and we became friends.  We were part of a group (spiritual truth seeking type of thing).  Right before I turned twelve she died in a car accident.  Two nights before she died I again dreamed of someone (I still didn't know who, but they were female) dieing very suddenly and violently.  Coincidence?  I think not.  This was what forced me to believe in the power of dreams.  I have had others dream that seemed to come true.  They were not so clearly linked to the outcome however.  Sometimes I wonder if it is just me who is making the connection.  Some of them I know have come true.  So I guess I believe that our conscious' are some how linked to whateverit is that keeps us here and thriving. I would like to take a survey of what people think. I just want to know how many of you believe in the power of dreams.