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sleepwalk backwards

poured slowly into your cup
warm and sweet
your thirst is recognized and
attended to.
now i can sleep without the
restlessness,
now i can think without effort,
kowing i've served the drink well.
we sit at this table in comfort.
listening to a song
we collaborated on.
the music i've written
has allowed for your lyrics
and you sing so well.
so let us listen and drink 'til sleep comes again.
wake.
arise and repeat.

9 jul 99

on sunlight

over my shoulder and unnoticed
only the sweat on my neck
from its warming stare.
i wore dark sunglasses for fear of anything
but the cool safety of shadow.
all along depriving myself
of an unknown embrace.
there are uncertain moments in life,
glimpses of sudden clarity.
it was in one of these that i pulled the
shades from my eyes,
turned around,
and decided to take the heat head on.
(hello sunshine)

12 jul 99

chord of souls

salve for the antithesis
soothing and
staring to the insides
it's at ease
at peace
in harmonious relief
merciful release
coating the burns.
and i got it for free

26 jul 99


from the pillow

words
of
feeling and
intentions.
shared in the silence with eyes shut.
pictures derived
from spoken description
so beautiful,
so overwhelmingly precious.
pictures held close
and
illuminated so vividly.
pictures pressed between thought
and
kept safe until open eyes can see them.

29 jul 99

sweet proximity

speaking in tongues
a new yet familiar dialect
communication
lips,
quivering from touch
eye to eye,
warmth
hand to hand...a sign language
reading,
expressing in sensation
light!
oh so much light.
conversation embodied
no questions, yet answers
no teaching, yet knowledge gained

subtle and direct entwined
understanding,
truth, and
light!
oh so much light.

30 jul 99


clever twists

certain looks and
heartfelt touches
reminiscent of grinning and
inspiration
solid and textured,
sweet and prompting the word;
yes.

1 aug 99

glow

treading on softness
on good earth,
among blossom,
the sky shines regardless of hour.
sunset over stone.
sitting for a moment...a moment held
alongside a smile
that emits an equal glow,
a warmer brilliance.  gazing out as the tide rolls...
content.
thoughts unspoken forming
statements that caress,
eyes closed
to kiss stars
tenderly and honey sweet.
beaming.
reopening to find waiting hands near,
a companion willing
to continue on my stroll.

28 jul 99


purely mutual

seeing her brighten
did wonders.
i felt good,
i flt like saying things
and
grew confident enough to say
them though the
fear of her not wanting to hear them
made me step lightly with my words.
hearing her voice
made me close my eyes in dream.
i felt humble.
i felt like though i am no more
than
anyone else that i could do anything
to trade trust,
making her use that dear voice to
melt my heart in the kindest way.
feeling her touch
quickened my pulse and made my skin come alive.
i felt humaan.
i felt passion that raced
and
raised the awareness of my soul
bettering myself
reviving a spirit i had let
lapse into dormancy.
now that's what i call beautiful.

2 aug 99

where am i in this?

i have found that non-stop smile i've been
looking for,
that feeling i had only heard about before.
she belongs in my arms,
but she cant be.  that's ok, i'll hold her when i can.
she feels right alongside me,
but she cant be.  that's ok, i'll share whatever i can with
her in the time we have.
she is the one that accepts everything i am,
but she cant be.  that's ok, i know how she feels and
i've never felt better.
sometimes things arent fair, but you can always
even them out.
she makes me be the person i've always wanted to be
and i know
i can do the same for her
and that's why my smile is now non-stop,
becuase feelings this right have a way
of finding truth.

4 aug 99


name calling

no one had ever called me those names before
terms i had never heard used to describe me.
"cute"; when all i had heard before is "different"
"perfect"; when no one ever found me "good enough"
you said "love" when i felt it too and it
strengthened me...i'm so solid now
and it's returned,
all reflected.
and it's forever,
all in stone.

7 sep 99

pawnhouseflowergarden

throws of the afternoon

tongues tied
flicking to expose desires
fingers play
and find wanton playgrounds
bursts of pleasure
on an endless line of longing
here in the light with you

lips caress
soothing a pleading skin
teeth close
and entertain begging flesh
flashes of ecstasy
on a panorama of tenderness
here in the light with you.

bodies burn
yearning in mutual compassion
breaths labour
and feed affection to a fast beating heart
explosions of sensation
on an open source of amorous fire
laying side by side inharmony
here in the light with you

10 aug 99


at any time

come and find me where i lay
close your eyes and sleep with me
and feel things we needn't say
only have the need to be
rest your head upon my arm
kiss me and say goodnight
and through it all i'll keep you warm
and awake to a different light

come and touch me and i'll return
everything you give and more
each to have and not to yearn
because well have nothing to be yearning for
rest your hand upon my side
turn again and return to sleep
with a smile on your face
and one from me that you can keep.

14 aug 99

signs & assurances

i wish for inches rather
than miles
and i can smell you on my hands;
clean and clear.
the taste of your mouth
lingering in mine.

craving that which minutes ago
i held
that hasn't completely left me yet.
warmth in memory,
joy on my face,
still with you...always.

i wish for our dreams to
be simplified
and i have vision that sets me at ease;
need and love.
the sound of your heart beating
lingering in mine.

15 aug 99


my staring problem

cannot help but look
and
i don't want help.
she smiles,
talks,
looks down at her hands
and i look,
focused and absorbing.
she catches me and i still
make it obvious
never to be cured of my staring problem;
for it isn't a problem at all.
once in awhile she gets stuck
with this same affliction
once in awhile...
and that makes everything worth it.
i'm not the only one!
there are four eyes involved in this.
four beautiful staring eyes
all addicted to what they see.

22 aug 99


gold on my arm

two arms,
alongside each other
melting into one love.
here i am softened
this once cold soul,
here i feel fresh
because she's cleaned me.
i wath the fingers play
five-on-five
smiling here
with precious gold on my arm.

24 aug 99

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