1. LIFE IS A SERIES OF RUDE AWAKENINGS.

2. LONELINESS IS NOT ONLY FELT BY FOOLS.

3. TIME HAS A WAY OF TAKING TIME.

4. MAN HAS LOST HIS MOST PRIZED HUMAN TRAITS THROUGH THE ABANDONMENT OF HIS INSTINCTS.

5. IT IS FUTILE TO ATTEMPT TO RISE ABOVE SOMETHING THAT IS ALREADY BELOW YOU.

6. ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER.... OFTEN OF SOMEONE ELSE.

7. MASTERPIECES ARE OFTEN A RAW PRODUCT OF BOREDOM.

8. AS A RULE A MAN'S A FOOL, WHEN IT'S HOT - HE WANTS IT COOL, WHEN IT'S COOL - HE WANTS IT HOT; HE ALWAYS WANTS IT WHAT IT'S NOT.

9. INSANITY IS A STATE OF MIND.

10. TRUE LOVE IS THE MOST EVIL EMOTION OF ALL - IT ALONE POSSESSES THE POTENTIAL TO PRODUCE TRUE HATE.

11. LOVE KILLS; HATE IS MERELY A TOOL.

12. SOME OF THE HAPPIEST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE WERE WHEN I FELT THE JOYOUS POWER OF TRUE LOVE.

13. SOME OF THE HAPPIEST MOMENTS IN MY LIFE WERE WHEN I FELT THE EVIL GLEE OF PURE HATRED.

14. KILL IS SUCH A FRIENDLY WORD.

15. A CLOUD BY DAY, A PILLAR OF FIRE BY NIGHT.

16. IGNORANCE IS SOMETIMES THE BEST POLICY.

17. AND YEA, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF DARKNESS, I FEAR NO EVIL, FOR I HAVE A FLASHLIGHT.

18. AND YEA, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW OF DEATH, I FEAR NO EVIL...FOR I AM STILL ALIVE.

18a. AND YEA, THOUGH I WALK THROUGH THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOWOF DEATH, I FEAR NO EVIL...FOR MY FEAR IS NO MORE EVIL THAN MYSELF.

19. LOVE IS PSYCHOSOMATIC - HATE IS REAL.

20. GOD HAS ULTERIOR MOTIVES, SATAN HAS NOTHING LEFT TO HIDE.

21. A LONG LIFE IS MERELY A SLOW DEATH.

22. ANIMALS ARE PEOPLE TOO.

PEOPLE ARE ANIMALS TOO.

23. DON'T WORRY - DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

24. GUNS DON'T KILL PEOPLE - BULLETS KILL PEOPLE.

25. THE FIRST TEMPTATION OF CHRIST MUST HAVE BEEN TEMPTATION ITSELF.

26. WHAT CAME FIRST, THE CHICKEN OR THE ROOSTER?

27. LIFE IS A VIRGIN; A BITCH IS TOO EASY.

28. DEATH REAPS NO PROFITS.

29. AGE IS A STATE OF MIND AS WELL AS BODY.

30. DON'T SHIT WHERE YOU EAT.

31. I DON'T BELIEVE IN GHOSTS, BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M NOT AFRAID OF THEM.

32. WOMEN ARE ALL THE SAME, EASY COME - EASY COME.

33. COME WITH ME

RIDE THE BACK OF THE DRAGON

AND PULL DOWN THE MOON AND THE STARS

LET US ENTER THE ETERNAL DARKNESS

AND PARTAKE IN VIOLENCE DIVINE

- NORDIC LOVE POEM

34. I AM DARKNESS.

35. BEAUTY IS OFTEN A BEAST.

36. VAMPIRES SUCK!

37. THE PECKING ORDER IS OFTEN DISRUPTED BY A HOLIDAY FEAST.

38. BEFORE FEELING INSULTED, FIRST CONSIDER THE SOURCE.

39. MAN IS THE BEST KNOWN EXPERT ON HOW TO DESTROY HIMSELF.

40. SHOULD LOVE REAR IT'S UGLY HEAD, LOOK IT DIRECTLY IN THE FACE AND DECIDE; IF YOU CAN'T HOLD THE STARE - SEVER IT AT THE NECK.

41. ADD YOUR NAME TO THE LIST OF SUPERFICIAL FRIENDS.

42. WOMEN ARE EVIL.

43. BLONDES HAVE MORE FUN.... BUT ARE THEY?

44. THE MOST FRIGHTENING DAY OF MY LIFE WAS WHEN I FINALLY REALIZED THAT I WAS HUMAN.

45. I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR...

(NOT GOOD ENOUGH)

45a. I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR...

I AM THAT WHICH IS LUST AND REVULSION.

YOU WILL BE BLINDED IN THE MISTS OF ISOLATION.

AND YOU WILL KNOW THAT I AM YOUR MASTER.

46. WAS IT LOVE - OR MERELY THE IDEA OF BEING IN LOVE?

47. TO LOVE IS MERELY TO FALTER IN THE DECISION-MAKING PROCESS.

48. I GAZED UPON THE SHALLOWNESS OF HER SOUL AND CAME TO THE STUNNING REALIZATION THAT SHE WAS A TRUE BLONDE IN DISGUISE.

49. I WAS JUST PASSING BY AND DROPPED IN FOR AN ETERNITY.

50. YOUR IGNORANC MAKES ME ILL AND ANGRY.

51. YOUR HANDS ARE BLACK WITH SIN - FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.

52. HEED THE JEALOUS DAWN.

53. LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS DON'T HAVE TO BE LONG - JUST THICK.

54. ON A WARM SUMMERS NIGHT, WOULD YOU OFFER YOUR THROAT TO THE WOLF WITH RED ROSES?

55. TO LOVE IS TO PAWN YOUR SOUL WITH NO INTENTION OF REDEEMING YOUR MERCHANDISE.

56. HEAVEN CAN WAIT - BUT WILL HELL.

57. A ROOM WITHOUT A VIEW UNVEILS THE TRUTH SO SOON.

58. DO YOU LOVE?

59. DON'T MAKE ME EXPLAIN MYSELF - YOU DON'T NEED TO KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON IN MY BIG HEAD RIGHT NOW. YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE WHAT YOU FIND; IT COULD BE THAT I MERELY WISH TO REASSURE YOUR DOUBTS.

60. DISSAPPOINTMENT BREEDS CONTEMPT.

61. DON'T PRETEND YOU CARE - NOTHING MATTERS IF NOTHING'S THERE.

62. SHE DROPPED MY HAND AND SAID I WOULD GO ON FURTHER - I DROPPED MY HEAD AND HID MY TEARS WITH LAUGHTER.

63. DON'T FEED THE HAND THAT BITES YOU - JUST LEARN TO STARVE.

64. ONE MUST SUBMIT ONESELF TO DEATH MANY TIMES IN LIFE IN ORDER TO GENUINELY ACHIEVE IT.

65. MUSIC IS AN INTRAVENOUS FOOD SUPPLY FOR THE MIND.

66. LOVING, SHE TOLD ME, WAS A QUESTION OF BRAVERY, BUT WHEN SHE STARTED TO HOLD ME, IT WAS CLOSER TO SLAVERY.

67. YOU WEREN'T SATISFIED, I WAS ONLY SUPERHUMAN.

68. ARE YOU SURE THAT YOU WANT WHAT YOU SEE - OR IS WHAT YOU SEE MERELY WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE?

69. IT'S NOT IMPORTANT THAT I AM NOT THE FIRST, BUT RATHER THAT I AM THE LAST.

70. DON'T WASTE YOUR PRAYERS ON ME - MY DAY IN THE SUN WILL NEVER COME, FOR I AM CONDEMNED TO ETERNAL DARKNESS.

71. THIS IS THE LAST WORTHLESS EVENING THAT I'LL EVER SPEND.

72. THERE'S NO ESCAPE FOR THE BROKEN HEARTED; THERE'S NO RETURN ONCE YOU'VE LOST YOUR WAY.

73. FRIENDS CAN ONLY BECOME ENEMIES, LOVERS CAN ONLY BECOME MEMORIES.

74. TIME WILL ALWAYS ASSURE THAT YOU GET OVER THE WORST OF YOUR PROBLEMS, EVEN IF IT TAKES AN ETERNITY.

75. TARRED AND FEATHERED LIKE A PIPER ON A KILLING SPREE.

76. IT IS BUT A FOOL WHO PLEADS INNOCENCE WITH GUILTY EYES.

77. FORCE EQUALS MASS TIMES ACCELLERATION.

78. BANISH THE LIGHT AND WELCOME THE NIGHT AS YOUR SOUL IS CARESSED WITH THE ICY COLD OF DARKNESS. LET YOURSELF BE LOST IN THE VERTIGO AND ALLOW THE VOID TO CLEANSE YOUR SOUL WITH THE PURITY OF BLACKNESS SO THAT IT MAY NEVER AGAIN BE STAINED BY THE BLOOD OF CORRUPTION. BROADEN YOUR INTELLECT AND UNDERSTAND THAT THE ESSENCE OF EBONY IS NOT EVIL, BUT RATHER ALL THINGS COMBINED INTO THE BODY OF ONE. FOR ONLY GOOD AND EVIL ARE CAPABLE OF MUTUAL CORRUPTION AND CHAOS BE THE ONLY DESTINY OF BOTH.

79. YOU CLOSED THE DOOR AND LEFT ME BLINDED BY THE SILENCE.

80. THE OBJECT OF THE GAME OF LIFE IS TO WIN - BY ALL MEANS NECESSARY. AND THE ONLY WAY TO WIN THE GAME OF LIFE - IS TO DIE HAPPY.

81. A LONG LIFE IS MERELY A SLOW DEATH.

82. THE SUN COOLS AND THE NIGHT BLEEDS IT'S WAY INTO THE HEARTS OF MEN AS FOOLISH YOUNG CONCUBINES SURRENDER THEIR FLESHLY MERCHANDISE UNTO THE NEEDS OF BRUTAL ADOLESCENTS IN THE ROOMS OF VIOLENT DESIRE IN WHICH THEIR IS ONLY ONE MOONBEAM OF HOPE WHICH SILL RESSURRECT THEIR INNOCENCE FOR AN ETERNITY. OUTSIDE THE WALLS OF CARNAL KNOWLEDGE AWAITS A KNIGHT IN WHITE SATIN WHO WILL ANSWER ONLY ONE MAIDENS CALL, WHO HAS ONLY KNOWN THE CARNAL KNOWLEDGE OF BARBARIAN INCEST. ALAS, SHE CALLS AND HE ANSWERS, HE ANSWERS WITH THE LOVE THAT SHE HAS ONLY DREAMED OF AND HE SHOWS HER THE LOVE OF ANGELS, WHICH SHE INGESTS WITH H HER WHOLE ENTIRETY, ANT YET SHE LONGS STILL FOR THE BARBARIAN INCEST FOR WHICH HES LOVE CANNOT AFFORD HER. YET HIS LOVE DEMANDS THAT HE ALLOW HER TO PARTAKE IN THIS BRUTAL SACRILEGE - FOR WHICH HIS PURITY CANNOT AFFORD HIM.

83. THE ARTIST SHOULD PAINT NOT ONLY WHAT HE SEES BEFORE HIM, BUT ALSO WHAT HE SEES WITHIN HIM. IF, HOWEVER, HE SEES NOTHING WITHIN HIM, THEN HE SHOULD ALSO REFRAIN FROM PAINTING THAT WHICH HE SEES BEFORE HIM.

84. TRENT REZNOR IS THE MOST REALISTIC PERSON THAT I NEVER MET.

85. IN THE DESERT I SAW A CREATURE, NAKED, BESTIAL, WHO, SQUATTING UPON THE GROUND, HELD HIS HEART IN HIS HANDS, AND ATE OF IT. I SAID, "IS IT GOOD, FRIEND?" "IT IS BITTER - BITTER" HE ANSWERED; BUT I LIKE IT BECAUSE IT IS BITTER - AND BECAUSE IT IS MY HEART."

86. HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHAT KIND OF INTELLECTUAL VIEWS A STUPID PERSON HAS IN EVERYDAY LIFE, WHAT EXACTLY DO THEY PONDER DURING THE COUNTLESS MENTAL LULLS THAT TAKE PLACE EVERYDAY - ANYTHING?

87. WOMEN HAVE PMS, MEN HAVE ESPN, I HAVE LSD.

88. BE THE BALL.

89. CHICKENS HAVE MORE OF A GRASP ON REALITY THAN MOST WOMEN I HAVE MET. AND THEIR GOSSIP IS JUST AS, IF NOT MORE, INTERESTING.

90. "GOOD NEIGHBORS" ARE A CURSE OF MODERN HUMAN SOCIETY.

91. IF ALL ANIMALS ARE CUTE WHEN THEY ARE YOUNG, WUY DO HUMAN BABIES TEND TO BE SO UGLY?

92. HUMAN MATING RITUALS SEEM TO INCLUDE A MODERATE AMOUNT OF SUPERFICIAL INTEREST AND A GREAT DEAL OF COMMON STUPIDITY.

93. WHY?

94. I AM TRYLY DOOMED - FOR ONLY GOD CAN SAVE ME NOW, AND I AM ALREADY CURSED WITH THE KNOWLEDGE THAT HE DOESN'T EXIST.

95. BE NOT AFRAID OF THE VALLEY; FEAR YOURSELF WHILE WALKING IN THE VALLEY, FOR THE DEVIL WALKS WITHIN.

96. I HAVE DINED WITH AZMODIOUS ON THE SOULS OF THE CORRUPT AND FORCEFED HIM MY DEFECATION. I HAVE STORMED THE GATES OF HEAVEN AND DRANK THE BLOOD OF ANGELS, I HAVE DRIFTED ON THE OBLOVIOUS SEAS OF MY OWN CORRUPT MIND AND SEEN THIS SICK AND TWISTED REALITY FOR IT'S TRUE NATURE, I HAVE LOOKED DEATH DIRECTLY IN THE EYE AND DARED HIM TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE.

AND YOU ASK ME FRIEND, AM I AFRAID TO DIE?

AND YOU ASK ME FRIEND, AM I AFRAID TO DIE?

I TELL YOU THIS: I AWAIT DEATH AS A SOLDIER LONGS FOR HOME.

97. I AM SIMPLY A LESBIAN TRAPPED IN A MAN'S BODY AWAITING THE ONE WOMAN WHO CAN CONVINCE ME OF MY TRUE MALE HETEROSEXUALITY.

98. IF GOD BE MY JUDGE, AND SATAN MY PROSECUTIONER, THEN I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO CHOOSE DARWIN AS MY DEFENSE ATTORNEY.

99. THE HUMAN RACE NO LONGER EXISTS IN THE HAZE OF SURVIVAL; IT IS SIMPLY A SICK DISEASE THAT STRIVES ONLY FOR PROFIT, GREED AND JEALOUSY.

100. I WOULD NEVER LIE TO YOU, BECAUSE I SIMPLY DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR OPINION.

101. UGLY PEOPLE ARE SIMPLY INDIVIDUALS THAT DO NOT REFLECT LIGHT THAT IS PLEASING TO THE EYE.

102. WAS EINSTEIN A GOD FEARING MAN?

103. THE NATIVE AMERICAN CULTURE WAS NEVER LOST UNTIL IT WAS FOUND IN 1492.

104. LOVE IS AN EMOTIONAL MEATGRINDER.

105. LIFE IS JUST A MIXING BOWL AND I DON'T EVEN GET TO LICK THE SPOONS.

106. MY LIFE DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND LSD; LSD JUST REVOLVES AROUND MY LIFE.

107. ONE'S THRESHOLD OF PAIN IS ONLY AS GREAT AS THE PAIN THAT THEY HAVE THUS ENDURED.

108. RATTLE MY CHAINS AND ROUSE THE DEMON THAT PROTECTS ME, TAUNT HIM, TEASE HIM, TEMPT HIM. BUT FIRST ALLOW ME TO WARN YOU - IT'S MY PLEASURE - AND YOU CAN'T WIN.

109. "MOTHER" IS THE WORD GOD ON THE HEARTS AND LIPS OF EVERY CHILD.

110. CHILDHOOD IS OVER THE MOMENT THAT YOU KNOW YOUR ARE GOING TO DIE.

111. YOU ARE ALL GOING TO DIE.

112. IF I REFUSE TO TELL YOU GOODBYE, YOU'LL JUST HAVE TO FORGIVE ME UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.

113. BUILDINGS BURN, PEOPLE DIE, BUT TRUE LOVE IS IMMORTAL.

114. GO AHEAD, PULL THE TRIGGER, YOU'VE GOT ME - DEAD BANG.

115. LOVE IS...THE MEANING OF LIFE.

116. JESUS WALKS INTO A HOTEL, HE HANDS THE INN-KEEPER THREE NAILS AND ASKS; "CAN YOU PUT ME UP FOR THE NIGHT?"

117. INNOCENCE IS SIMPLY UNUSED MEMORY SPACE.

118. DON'T WORRY, IT CAN'T RAIN ALL THE TIME.

119. I AM THE NEW WAY TO GO - I AM THE WAY OF THE FUTURE.

120. THERE ARE ALOT OF INNOCENT PEOPLE BEING CRUCIFIED.

121. I HAVE KISSED THE EARTH INHABITED BY UGLY SPIRITS AND BECOME A BETTER PERSON FOR IT.

122. "HATRED" - IT'S TOO BAD TO BE GOOD AND TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE.

123. DARE TO EXPOSE TO ME YOUR HUMANITY AND I WILL GIVE YOU A TASTE OF GOD.

124. DRUGS ARE THE CROBAR OF MY EMOTIONS. HOW PITIFUL.

125. SPIRITUAL VIOLENC IS AN ECSTATIC MOMENT OF PURE JOY.

126. I'VE ALLIES IN HEAVEN AND COMRADES IN HELL - SAY HELLO FOR ME.

127. WHAT MAN CAN DISCOVER, HE CAN EASILY DESTROY.

128. WHEN I AM WEAK, I FIND STRENGTH IN MY WEAKNESS

WHEN I AM AFRAID, I FIND COURAGE IN MY FEAR

WHEN I AM SAD, I FIND JOY IN MY TEARS

WHEN I AM ALONE, I FIND COMFORT IN MY OWN COMPANY

BUT WHEN I AM LONELY, I FIND ONLY LONELINESS IN MY ISOLATION

129. I KNOW THERE WILL COME A DAY WHEN I BEG FOR THE REAPER'S KISS - I ONLY BEG THAT IT COMES.

130. THE ONLY THING THAT YOU CAN FEAR FROM ME IS WHAT I CAN EXPOSE TO YOU ABOUT YOURSELF.

131. BETRAY ME AND IT WILL BE WITH FIENDLIKE SMILING MADNESS THAT I WILL ALL TO GLEEFULLY DESTROY YOUR VERY REALITY.

132. WHAT DO I LOOK FOR IN A WOMAN? I LOOK FOR BEAUTY...THROUGHOUT.

133. I HAVE BASKED IN THE TEPID AFFECTION OF AN ANGEL WITH THE NAME OF A BIRD.

I HAVE WITNESSED HER FALL FROM GRACE AND LOOKED ON AS MY SOUL ROTTED IN THE AFTERMATH.

I HAVE BEEN HAUNTED BY THE DEMON OF HER DISGRACE AND EXERCISED IT WITH THE BREATH OF FORGIVENESS.

IN THE END I AM NOT BITTER. FOR I WOULD NOT BE THE MAN I AM TODAY WITHOUT MY RANCID HISTORY OF PAINFUL SUFFERING.

134. IT'S SO LONELY WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW YOURSELF.

135. ONE OWES RESPECT TO THE LIVING, TO THE DEAD ONE OWES ONLY THE TRUTH.

136. I DO NOT KNOW FOR TRUE WHAT DOORWAY LIES AT THE END OF THIS SICK AND TWISTED CORRIDOR CALLED LIFE. BUT IT IS NOT DEATH - BY NO MEANS IS IT DEATH.

137. ASK ME ONCE AND I'LL TELL YOU TWICE

WHEN ONE LIKE ME LOVES HIS WORK

HALF THE EFFORT JUST WON'T SUFFICE

YOU HAND ME THE NAILS, MY HAMMER IN HAND

I BRING IT DOWN WITH DEFENING FORCE

AND HIT YOU HARDER THATN EVEN I'D PLANNED

YOU PROVIDE THE IMPLEMENT, YOU PAY THE COST

EITHER TEN PENNY SPIKE OR NINE INCH NAILS

IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE, THE CASKET OR THE CROSS

SO JUST GIVE ME JUST ONE REASON

AND ARM ME WITH YOUR TREASON

AND I'LL GIVE YOU AN ANSWER

FOR WHY YOU ROT IN CANCER

I'LL POUND ANOTHER NAIL

AT THIS I NEVER FAIL

BREAK ALL THE EGGS IN YOUR EASTER BASKET

WITH ANOTHER NAIL, DRIVEN INTO YOUR CASKET

OR

I'LL DRIVE ANOTHER SPIKE

YES, THIS JOB I TRULY LIKE

I NAME THE PRICE, YOU FURNISH THE COST

AS I GLEEFULLY HAMMER YOU TO YOUR CROSS

DEAD - CRUCIFIED, WHATEVER YOU LIKE

EITHER NINE INCH NAIL OR TEN PENNY SPIKE

MY HAMMER AWAITS LIKE A WOLF HAUNCHED FOR BATTLE

SO BRING ON YOUR SINS, YES BRING ON YOUR CATTLE

I DO NOT MIND, I ENJOY THE WORK

JUST REMEMBER ONE THING, THERE'S ONE LITTLE QUIRK

IF YOU COME TO ME AND YOU CAN'T PASS THE TEST

THEN HAVE FAITH FRIEND, YOUR SOUL WILL FIND REST

138. EDDIE?

SO IT'S EDDIE YOU SAY YOU WISH TO CALL ME TODAY

A NAME SO LONG FORGOTTEN

THIS NAME, YOU SEE, BRINGS ME BAD MEMORIES

OF A CORPSE WHO HAS LONG SINCE ROTTEN

OH NOW LET'S SEE, OH YES THAT FELLOW

SO CONFUSED, LOST AND TWISTED - YET SO VERY MELLOW

EDDIE, YOU SEE

IS JUST NOT WHAT HE USED TO BE

THIS GUY YOU SO FONDLY CALL ED

HE'S REALLY QUITE SIMPLY A BAD CASE OF DEAD

1989 WAS THE END OF HIS TIME

I BELIEVE IT WAS IN DECEMBER

A LOVE OF MINE, SHE COMMITTED A CRIME

NOW WHAT WAS HER NAME, OH YOU REMEMBER

THE CRIME YOU ASK? OH, NO EASY TASK

TO EXPLORE THIS PAIN, ONE CANNOT DISDAIN

IT STEMMED FROM THIS, LIKE A HAND TO A FIST:

THE CRIME, YOU SEE, IT WAS SIMPLE AT FIRST

LIKE WATER IT CALLED FOR HER TO THIRST

IN ONE SIMPLE WORD, I CAN END THIS BOUT

THIS ONE SIMPLE CRIME - A WORD CALLED DOUBT

ON SIMPLE WOMAN DOUBTED THIS MAN

SHE DID NOT KNOW IT YET, BUT SOON SHE WOULD PLAN:

"HOW CAN I BE HAPPY AND SATISFY ME?

SURELY HE CAN'T DO IT, FOR HE IS JUST HE

AND WHAT OF THIS CHILD, FOR I AM TOO YOUNG

I DON'T WANT TO BE A MOTHER, I WANT TO HAVE FUN!

NOW, WHO CAN I FIND TO BRING ME JOY

IN THIS LIFE OF SHIT, OH, WHOM SHALL I EMPLOY?

THE LIST HAS TO START, AND FINALLY END SOMEWHERE

EITHER OF WHICH, I DON'T REALLY CARE

IN THE END, I'LL HAVE USED ONE AND ALL

AND I WILL FIND JOY AS I WATCH THEM ALL FALL!"

HE PERISHED SHORTLY AFTER HIS ONLY TRUE LOVE

HER HEART HAD LEFT HIM, LIKE A CROW FROM A DOVE

THE WOMAN HE LOVED COMMITTED SUICIDE

WHEN SHE SURRENDERED HER BODY TO ANOTHER MAN'S PRIDE

EDDIE, YOU SEE - HE JUST WASN'T STRONG

HE JUST COULDN'T SURVIVE SO VISCIOUS A THRONG

ROBERT NOW INHABITS THIS FLESH

AND LIFE IS NOW THE WHEAT HE DOES THRESH

EDDIE, YOU SEE, WAS STILL BUT A CHILD

WITH A WORLD OF DREAMS, AND A HEART SO MILD

HE DESERVED TO DIE, A SOUL SO DUMURE

IN A WORLD FILLED WITH EVIL SO PURE

WHERE YOUNG EDDIE ONCE SAT, ROBERT NOW STANDS

A MAN WHO GIVES IN, TO NO-ONES DEMANDS

A MAN WITH THE WRATH OF THE DEVIL HIMSELF

A MAN WHO KEEPS SIMPLY, HIS HEALTH AS HIS WEALTH

A MAN THAT IS STRONG, YET SO KIND OF HEART

A MAN OF BEAUTY, OF WISDOM, AND ART

A MAN WHO IS LEARNING WHAT LIFE'S ALL ABOUT

FOR WHOM DOES NOT EXIST, THIS ONE WORD CALLED DOUBT

BUT THROUGH IT ALL, WHEN PUSH COMES TO SHOVE

THIS MAN STILL AWAITS THIS ONE WORD CALLED LOVE

ROBERT, YOU SEE, HE'S NOT AFRAID TO DIE

HE'S NOT AFRAID TO LIVE, FIGHT, CONQUER OR CRY

A MAN OF EMOTION, UNDERSTANDING AND TASTE

A MAN WHO THINKS "WORRY" TO BE NOTHING BUT WASTE

EDDIE - HE DIED, SOMEWHERE BACK THERE

IN THE PAIN, DOUBT, SORROW, HATRED AND DISPAIR

IF YOUR LOOKING FOR HIM, ASK ROB AND HE'LL TELL

"OH, EDDIE, HE LEFT - HE DIDN'T LIKE HELL."

HELL IS A PLACE I ONCE KNEW AS HOME

AND FROM THAT PLACE, I NOW VENTURE AND ROME

NOT AFRAID OF THE PAST, THE PRESENT OR FUTURE

THREE SUBJECTS OF WHICH, MOST SEE ONLY AS TORTURE

SO, WHEN YOU'R LOOKING AT ME, IT'S NOT EDDIE YOU SEE

IT'S SIMPLY THIS MAN CALLED ROB

A NEW BREED OF ME

WHOSE SPIRIT IS FREE

ROB, YOU SEE, HE'S LIVED THROUGH THIS HELL

HE STOOD UP STRONG, WHERE POOR EDDIE FELL

SO, WHEN YOU ADDRESS ME, PLEASE CALL ME ROB

FOR POOR EDDIE'S MEMORY, STILL DOES MAKE ME SOB

I AM ROB, AND THOUGH, I'M NOWHERE NEAR PERFECT

I AM A MAN MY SON WILL LOVE AND RESPECT

NOT QUITE JUST ANOTHER FACE IN THE CROWD

FOR I AM A MAN WHO IS HONEST AND PROUD

I LOVE MY SON, MY NAMESAKE, MY SEED

IT IS I HE WILL HONOR, THIS IS MY CREED

EDDIE COULD NEVER BE THE FATHER I CAN

AND CONFIDENTLY GUIDE MY SON TO A MAN

EDDIE.... THAT POOR MISCHIEVOUS LITTLE FLIRT

HE'S DEAD

I SAY NO MORE - MY NAME IS ROBERT

139. NEVER MARRY JUST FOR MONEY, MARRY FOR LOVE - ESPECIALLY IF YOU LOVE MONEY!

140. POWER IS THE ABILITY TO SEE THROUGH YOUR OWN LIES

POWER IS NEVER TO HAVE BEEN CONQUERED

POWER IS HAVING CONQUERED YOURSELF AND KNOWING YOU'VE LOST

POWER IS THE ABILITY TO LOVE - UNCONDITIONALLY

POWER IS BEING ABLE TO CRY, AND LIKE IT

POWER IS THE ABILITY TO RE-INVENT YOURSELF

141. I DREAM MYSELF FLESHLESS

142. PAIN?

YOU ASK ME ABOUT PAIN AND I'LL TELL YOU

AGAIN AND

AGAIN AND

AGAIN AND

AGAIN

PAIN IS WHEN ALL THE GOOD YOU DO IS DONE PURELY IN VAIN

THE POINT OF AGONY FROM WHICH YOU CAN'T REFRAIN

PAIN IS WHEN LOVE TURNS INTO A CURSE

PAIN IS THE KEY TO AN HONEST LIFE

PAIN IS WHEN DREAMS ARE YOUR WORST VACATION

PAIN IS WHEN LIFE IS PURELY PRIVATION

PAIN IS A MIRROR THAT SHOWS WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF

A LOOKING GLASS OF TRUTH WHEN PUSH COMES TO SHOVE

PAIN IS A COCOON OF EMOTION THAT WILL CHANGE ONE

FROM THE SLUG TO THE BUTTERFLY, FROM THE FIST TO THE GUN

PAIN IS A NIGHTMARE YOU AWAKE FROM RELIEVED

FROM WHATEVER THE LIE - YOU'LL NO LONGER BE DECEIVED

PAIN WILL SHOW YOU WHO YOU REALLY ARE

PAIN IS A JOURNEY THAT IS FOREVER FAR

PAIN IS HATE, PAIN IS REAL, PAIN IS A TOOL THAT WILL HELP ONE FEEL

PAIN IS MEDICINE, NEVER TAKEN WITH ZEAL, PAIN IS A PILL THAT HELPS ONE HEAL

PAIN WILL ANSWER QUESTIONS YOU'LL NEVER THINK OF

PAIN IS A WINDOW THAT WILL SHOW YOU LOVE

IT WILL SHOW YOU LOVE ON A RAINY DAY

WHEN YOUR CLOTHES ARE DRY, AND YOU CAN'T GO OUT AND PLAY

143. IN LOVE I STAND CHEATED

DEEP WITHIN MY CHEST THERE EXISTS A HOLLOW

A VOID OF EMPTINESS THAT YOU CAN HEAR THE WIND WHISTLE THROUGH

PLEASE, SOMEONE - SOMETHING - ANYTHING

144. YOU HAD ALL OF THEM ON YOUR SIDE

DIDN'T YOU

DIDN'T YOU

YOU BELIEVED IN ALL YOUR LIES

DIDN'T YOU

DIDN'T YOU

THE RUINER'S GOT ALOT TO PROVE AND NOTHING TO LOSE

AND NOW SHE'S MADE YOU BELIEVE

THE RUINER'S YOUR ONLY FRIEND AND THE LIVING END TO THE CATTLE SHE DECEIVES

OH, YOU KNOW THE RUINER - THE RUINER RUINS EVERYTHING SHE SEE'S

THE ONLY PURE THING LEFT IN MY FUCKING WORLD IS WEARING YOUR DISEASE

YOU HAD TO GIVE THEM ALL A SIGN

DIDN'T YOU

DIDN'T YOU

YOU HAD TO COVET WHAT WAS MINE

DIDN'T YOU

DIDN'T YOU

THE RUINER'S A COLLECTOR SHE'S AN INFECTOR SERVING HER SHIT TO HER FLIES

MAYBE THERE WILL COME A DAY WHEN THOSE THAT YOU KEEP

BLIND WILL SUDDENLY REALIZE

MAYBE IT WAS A PART OF ME, YOU TOOK IT TO A PLACE I HOPED IT WOULD NEVER GO

145. SORRY?

SO YOU SAY YOU'RE SORRY - WELL, SORRY - I DON'T FUCKING CARE

WHAT I WANT TO SEE IS SUFFERING, WRETCHEDNESS, HATRED AND DISPAIR

YOU TOOK MY LIFE FROM ME- AND THAT YOU JUST CAN'T FUCKING REPLACE

I WANT TO SEE YOU WALLOW IN THE SHIT OF YOU'RE SINS

I WANT YOU TO GO BACK TO THE PLACE WHERE MY HELL BEGINS

I WANT YOU TO SAVOR THE ACRID NECTAR OF PAIN

I WANT TO FIND OUT JUST WHAT YOU HAD TO GAIN

WHAT I WANT TO SEE IS YOUR FUCKING HEART CARVED OUT AND RAPED IN TWO

I WANT TO SEE YOU WHITHER AWAY TO THE BONE

I WANT TO SEE YOU CALL THIS PLACE HELL YOUR NEW HOME

I WANT TO SEE YOU KNOW HATE AS YOUR NEW LOVE

BUT, EVEN IN THE END, NONE OF THIS WILL EVER BE ENOUGH

I WANT TO SEE YOU MAKE THIS ALL GO AWAY

ALL THIS HATRED, SUFFERING, MADNESS, AND DECAY

AND BRING ME BACK TO A TIME WHEN THE SUN SHINED ALL THE TIME

BUT, YOU CAN'T DO IT, YOU'LL NEVER REPLACE WHAT WAS RIGHTFULLY MINE

146. ONE MUST KNOW WHAT IT IS TO SUFFER HUMILIATION AND POWERLESSNESS BEFORE ONE CAN ENTIRELY APPRECIATE IT'S EFFECT ON OTHERS

147. DON'T TRY ME AND YOU WON'T TASTE ME.

148. I UNDERSTAND ONLY SOME THINGS ON THIS CORRUPTED SPHERE OF EXISTANCE

BUT ONE THING THAT I DO UNDERSTAND IS COMMUNICATION

IF YOU REFUSE COMMUNICATION THEN YOU REFUSE UNDERSTANDING

AND IF YOU REFUSE UNDERSTANDING THEN YOU REFUSE ME

149. I DIE, I WAKE

I LIVE, I TAKE

I DISLIKE THE SUNLIGHT AND LOVE TO HATE THE NIGHT

150. DOMINATION IS MY WEKEST STRENGTH, PLEASE TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME.

151. ALCOHOL IS AN EVIL SPIRIT

152. PAIN IS VERY EDUCATIONAL

153. VIOLENCE IS MY MEDICINE

154. A CHARMING CHAMELEON WITH A SCORPIONS TALE

155. ARE YOU SIN-CERE - OR JUST SIN-NING

156. HONESTY AND COMMUNICATION ARE TWO KEYS TO EVERY RELATIONSHIP, ONCE ONE OF THESE FALTERS, THE ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP IS IN A CONSTANT STATE OF JEOPARDY

157. I WAS ONCE AN EVIL SPIRIT AND BELIEVED THAT HATRED WAS THE ONLY KEY TO HAPPINESS, BUT THEN A FRIEND OF A FRIEND SHOWED ME THAT I TRULY LOVE TO BE LOVED

158. I LOVE VERY FEW PEOPLE IN THIS TWISTED AND FOWL EXISTANCE,

BUT THOSE THAT I LOVE I LOVE HARD AND WITH THE ENTIRETY OF MY BEING.

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE

159. I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE

I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, NOW WHAT AM I TO DO

I JUST CAN'T ACT LIKE A TIME THAT I KNEW

I WISH TO WANT, I WISH TO LOVE

I JUST CAN'T FIND A SOUL TO WANT OF

I JUST WANT WHAT I ONCE SO LOVINGLY HAD

I WISH TO BE LOVED, IS THAT SO BAD

I DREAM TO AWAKE IN SOME LOVER'S ARMS

WHERE HAPPINESS REIGNS, AND DOUBT HAS NO HARM

I WISH TO LONG FOR SOME LOVER'S SIGHT

WHEN I CAN'T DIE SAD, AND WHEN DEATH IS SO RIGHT

160. I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU

AFTER ALL THIS TIME AND ALL THIS SPACE

YOUR MEMORY IS SOMETHING I JUST CAN'T REPLACE

SO LONG AGO, IN A PLACE SO WARM

I LOVED YOU SO, SO FAR FROM HARM

IN A TIME WHEN HAPPINESS WAS EVERY WORD I BREATHED

WHEN PASSION WAS HOT, AND DESIRE SEETHED

I NEVER DREAMED OUR PATHS WOULD EVER BREAK

AND I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY TIME I WAKE

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU IN THE POURING RAIN

REFLECTING THE MOOD OF A SOUL IN PAIN

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU, WHEN A BUM HOLDS OUT HIS HAND

PERHAPS IT WAS A WOMAN LIKE YOU, THAT DESTROYED THIS MAN

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU, WHEN A LONELY CHILD SMILES

I THINK OF MY SON, AND ALL OF THESE MILES

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU, WHEN I'M ALONE ON THE BEACH

WHEN THE SUNSET'S SO FAR, SO FAR OUT OF REACH

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU, IN THE DARKEST OF NIGHT

I THINK OF YOUR HEART, SO EMPTY OF LIGHT

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU, WHEN A GROWN MAN CRIES

WHEN HIS LIFE IS DESTROYED, BY A GROWN WOMAN'S LIES

I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU, AND ONE THING I REGRET

IS THAT I CAN FORGIVE, BUT, NEVER - FORGET

SO, IF YOU'RE EVER ALONE, DON'T FEEL BLUE

I'M PROBABLY OUT THERE, STILL THINKING OF YOU

161. BLISTERING HATRED

162. TEARS FOR PAIN AND TEARS FOR SUFFERING

IT'S NOTHING NEW, AND IT'S NOT AN OLD THING

TEARS, THE FILTER ALL MORTAL PAIN

THEY BLUR YOUR VISION OF ALL DISDAIN

TEARS MAKE IT FEEL GOOD TO REALLY HURT

163. AS I RETURN TO AN EMPTY BED

WITH EMPTY POCKETS AND EMPTY HEAD

I TRY TO REMEMBER WHY YOU'RE NOT THERE

MY ONLY ANSWER IS COLD DISPAIR

WHAT DID I DO, WHAT DID I SAY

TO MAKE THINGS WHITHER AND WASTE AWAY

DID I DO WRONG, WAS IT MY MISTAKE

OR WAS MINE TRUE LOVE, AND WAS YOURS ONLY FAKE

IS THIS THE ONLY ANSWER I'LL GET

FOR LOVING YOU SO, WHY MUST I REGRET

A HUNGER SO STRONG AND SO FULL OF TRUTH

HAVE YOU NO LOVE, HAVE YOU NO KUTH

YET I HOPE THAT YOU'RE WARM, AND PLEASED EVERY NIGHT

WHILE REST FOR ME, IS NOTHING BUT FIGHT

FOR I LOVE YOU ENOUGH TO LET YOU GO

AND LIVE IN THIS HELL THAT SO WELL I KNOW

YOU'RE HAPPINESS IS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME

NO MATTER THE PAIN, FOR I AM JUST ME

FOR I EXIST AS THE LIVING DEAD

AS I RETURN TO AN EMPTY BED

164. I'M SORRY, I REALLY LIKE YOU, BUT

THERE'S A DOOR STILL OPEN THAT I CAN'T SHUT

I LIKE YOUR SMILE, AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL FACE

BUT YOU'RE NOT THE WOMAN THAT WILL TAKE HER PLACE

I'M SORRY, I DON'T WANT TO LEAD YOU ON

THIS LOVE WON'T LAST FOREVER - JUST UNTIL DAWN

YOU MAKE ME HAPPY, BELIEVE ME - YOU DO

JUST LEAVE ME THAT WAY, DON'T LET ME HURT YOU

I'M SORRY, BUT I, YOU CAN NEVER LOVE

FOR LOVE IS SOMETHING I'M NOT CAPABLE OF

PERHAPS SOME DAY, I'LL FIND THE RIGHT ONE

BUT, BELIEVE ME, FOR NOW - YOU'RE ONLY FOR FUN

I'M SORRY, BUT PLEASE, DON'T THINK ME CRUEL

I'M JUST A LOST SOUL, WHO WAS ONCE JUST A FOOL

165. THERE IS A VERY THIN LINE BETWEEN INVOLUNTARY MANSLAUGHTER AND ACCIDENTAL SATISFACTION

166. IS DEATH EVERY MAN'S OWN PERSONAL ARMOGGEDON

167. IN THE DISTANCE I SEE A MUSHROOM GROWING

IT'S ULTIMATE TASTE THERE'S NO WAY OF KNOWING

IT SWELLS, IT BREATHES, IT'S ALIVE, IT HUNGERS

IT LASHES OUT, IT KILLS, IT MURDERS AND PLUNDERS

IN THE DISTANC I SEE A MUSHROOM RISE

ABANDONING THE EARTH AND ALL OF IT'S LIES

IT'S NOT DEAD, YET IT STILL JOURNEY'S TO GOD

WITH A MESSAGE OF PAIN, AND HATRED THAT'S BROAD

IN THE DISTANCE I SEE A DARK FIGURE ARISE

IT'S DEATH COMING FOR ME, AND THERE'S FEAR IN HIS EYES

I RUN TO HIM AND HE SCREAMS WITH MY LAUGHTER

HIS JOB IS NOW DONE, HE DIED HAPPILY EVER-AFTER

IN THE DISTANCE I SEE A SHIMMERING LIGHT

BUT IT'S NOT MEANT FOR ME, FOR ME HEAVEN'S NOT RIGHT

IN AN EXISTANCE OF DEATH WHERE WORSHIP IS PRIME

AN ETERNITY OF LIFE, IN A NO-WHERE WITH NO-TIME

IN THE DISTANCE I SEE A GREAT RIVER OF FIRE

A PLACE OF AGONY, PAIN, SUFFERING AND DESIRE

NOR IS HELL THE PLACE, THAT I'LL BE EXPLORING

AN INFINITY PAIN, WOULD EVEN SOME DAY GROW BORING

IN THE DISTANCE I SEE A NEW DESTINY UNFOLD

WHERE A NEW LIFE AWAITS, WITH RICHNESS UNTOLD

I CHOOSE NEITHER FATE, NOW WHAT AM I TO DO

I THINK I'LL SEARCH FOR CHAOS, AND EXAMINE THE VIEW

IN THE DISTANCE I SEE WHAT NO-ONE ELSE CAN

I AM NOW A FREE SPIRIT, WHO WAS NEVER A MAN

I FORGE MY OWN FATE, MY OWN RULES, MY OWN CREED

THERE ARE STILL MANY QUESTIONS, WHOSE ANSWERS I NEED

IN THE DESTANCE I SEE INFINITY WAITING

WHERE LIES HAVE NO TRUTHS, AND LOVE HAS NO HATING

I TURN FROM THE LIGHTS AND HEAD WEST, AT A SLOW PACE

NO RUSH, FOR I HAVE ETERNITY, TO EXPLORE EVERY PLACE

168. DON'T PRETEND YOU KNOW ME

IF YOU REALLY HAVE A SOUL

YOU'LL ONLY BEG TO SHOW ME

AND PAIN WILL BE MY GOAL

I'LL LET YOU HAVE THE UPPER HAND

AND I'LL MAKE IT FEEL SO RIGHT

I'LL BRING YOU HIGH ENOUGH TO WATCH YOU FALL

AND DEATH WILL BE YOUR SIGHT

AND ONCE YOU'VE FINALLY SHOWN ME

JUST HOW PITIFUL YOU ARE

YOU'LL WISH YOU DIDN'T KNOW ME

WATCHING YOUR FUNERAL FROM AFAR

THE ENDER'S GAME IS A DEADLY BREW

A GAME INVENTED BY FOOLS LIKE YOU

A GAME CUSTOM MADE JUST FOR THE FAINT OF HEART

A GAME THAT YOU, AND ONLY YOU, HAVE THE MEANS TO START

A GAME THAT IS SO VERY HARD TO LEARN

ONCE YOU'VE ROLLED THE BONES, YOU MAY NOT RETURN

AND SO WE START, THOUGH YOU'LL NEVER FINISH

BUT YOUR HOPES AND DREAMS WILL NEVER DIMINISH

YOU SEE, I'VE PLAYED THIS RUTHLESS GAME BEFORE

BUT ONLY SOULS LIKE ME, EVER LIVE TO KEEP SCORE

YES, RUTHLESS IT MUST BE - FOREVER MORE

IT'S PART OF THE RULES, IT'S PART OF THE CORE

YOU SEE, I HAD TO DIE, AND I HAD TO LIVE MORE

BUT ONLY DEATH FOR YOU IS WHAT'S IN STORE

I'VE PLAYED THIS RUTHLESS GAME FAR TOO MANY TIMES

AND RUTHLESS I REMAIN - NO MATTER WHAT THE CRIMES

CRIMES IN WHICH YOU PLAY JUST A SIMPLE ROLE

CRIMES KILLING THOSE THAT GIVE BLIND FAITH THIER ONLY SOUL

ONLY SOMEONE BORN TO FOLLOW COULD BE SO VERY STUPID

YOU'LL LIVE - YOU'LL TRY, AND YOU'LL SCREAM WHEN YOU DIE

AND ALL OF THE TIME, YOU'LL SIMPLY ASK WHY?

YOU'VE DONE ONE SIMPLE THING - YOU'VE SIMPLY BEGUN

YOU'VE BEGUN THE GAME, YOU'VE DEALT YOUR OWN HAND

AND ON YOUR OWN BLUFF, YOU'LL BE FORCED TO STAND

AND WHEN YOU'RE FINALLY FORCED TO FOLD ON YOUR PLAN

THAT'S WHEN YOU'LL BEGIN TO FINALLY UNDERSTAND

IF YOU DON'T WISH TO PLAY THIS GAME THAT I'VE SHOWN

JUST BE SURE YOU'RE NOT PLAYING

ALL ON YOUR OWN

169. THE WEED OF SIN BEARS BITTER FRUIT

170. I LIVE TO DIE...

171. THOUGH THE SUN MAY BE SHINING - THE ICE IS STILL SLIPPERY

172. AND THE LAUGHTER OF KNOWLEDGE ECHOED THROUGH THE CORRIDORS OF TRUTH

173. LEARN ALL THAT YOU POSSIBLY CAN FROM THIS TRMPORARY VERSION OF YOURSELF, SO THAT YOU MAY ENTER INTO THE AFTERLIFE WITH GLOWING SATISFACTION

174. I DON'T WANT YOU

AND I DON'T NEED YOU

SO WHAT THE HELL AM I TO DO

WHEN I JUST CAN'T GET RID OF YOU

I DON'T WANT YOU HERE

SO, WHY MUST YOU STAY

AND NOW IT'S MY DARKEST FEAR

THAT YOU WILL NEVER GO AWAY!

I DON'T WANT YOU

NOW WHAT AM I TO DO

THE ONLY THING I EVER DID WRONG

WAS TO GET SHITFACED AND FUCK YOU

TARNISH MY REPUTATION

YOU ARE THE BLADE OF MY CASTRATION

I EXIST IN YOUR DAMNATION

I ONLY WISH FOR ISOLATION

WE ARE SOMETHING THAT NEVER EXISTED

YOU ARE SOMEONE THAT JUST PERSISTED

I HAVE ETERNALLY RESISTED

YOU'RE JUST SO FUCKING TWISTED

"LOVE" IS A WORD THAT I NEVER BREATHE

I WANT THIS CRYSTAL CLEAR

IT'S "ANIMOSITY" IN WHICH I SEETHE

WHENEVER YOU ARE NEAR

WE ARE SOMETHING THAT NEVER WAS

THIS I'LL HELP YOU SEE

HERE IT IS BITCH - IT'S BECAUSE

YOU WERE NEVER PART OF ME!

I WISH I COULD JUST DEFACE YOU

NO NEED TO EVEN JUST REPLACE YOU

I WISH I COULD JUST ERASE YOU

AND LEAVE NO CLUES BEHIND TO TRACE YOU

YOU, YOU'RE LIVING IN PURE ILLUSION

AND ME, I'M DYING IN THIS CONFUSION

I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THIS INTRUSION

MY ONLY WISH IS FOR CONCLUSION

LEAVE ME, BE GONE FROM ME

FREE ME OF MY MISERY

175. A PENNY FOR YOUR THAUGHTS

I RESIDE IN SOLITUDE

BROODING IN MY SILENCE

LIPS CLENCHED WITH AN ATTITUDE

THAT'S BENT TAUT WITH VIOLENCE

I SAVOR MY PAIN WITH A PALLET THAT'S MOIST

SHIVERING WITH PASSION TO TASTE THE RIGHT CHOICE

IN THIS BLINDED FRUSTRATION, I WATCH MADNESS SEETHE

MY THROAT CLENCHED SO TIGHT, THAT I CAN HARDLY BREATHE

WITH A TEAR IN MY EYE, AND A SHIVERING BREATH

I CONTEMPLATE MY OPTIONS; OF MURDER - OR DEATH

EITHER OF WHICH WILL CAUSE OTHERS GREAT PAIN

YET, ONLY ONE, COULD I ENJOY AGAIN

FROM A QUIVERING CIGARETTE - I DRAW A DEEP BREATH

OF THE LINGERING SMOKE, OF THE LINGERING DEATH

I FEEL THE MOISTURE ESCAPE FROM MY EYE

A CHILDLIKE WHIMPER, MY ONLY REPLY

AND IN YOU COME, WITH A LIGHT-HEARTED SOUL

WHAT WERE YOU THINKING, JUST WHAT WAS YOUR GOAL

WITH A FLOWERY VOICE, IN THE KEY OF TWO

YOU INTERRUPT MY THAUGHTS WITH: "HOW DO YOU DO?"

HOW DO I DO? "WELL FRIEND, MY THIN SOUL ROTS."

AND OUT YOU COME WITH "A PENNY FOR YOUR THAUGHTS."

WITH A TOKEN OF GOODWILL - YOU OFFER YOUR FARE

FOR A PIECE OF MY SANITY, SO FARE BEYOND REPAIR

WHY DID YOU OFFER, JUST WHAT WERE YOU THINKING

WHEN A MAN WANTS TO DROWN, YOU SHOULD JUST LEAVE HIM SINKING

BUT DON'T WORRY FRIEND, IT'S JUST ONE OF MANY

I NOW HAVE A MOUNTAIN OF MY FELLOW MAN'S GOLD

THEIR SOULS KEEP ME WARM, IN MY LIFE THAT'S SO COLD

YOU MAY FIND THAT MY THAUGHTS CAN CUT LIKE A KNIFE

WHEN YOU FIND WHAT I'M THINKING CAN COST YOU YOUR LIFE

SO, COME OFFER ME COMFORT - COME OFFER ME CARE

OH, BY THE WAY, FRIEND - DO YOU HAVE A PENNY TO SPARE?

176. AND GOD SAID UNTO THEE

" I BESTOW UPON YOU THE GIFT OT LIFE

YOU WILL WORSHIP NO OTHER GOD BEFORE ME

I HAVE CREATED YOU IN MINE OWN IMAGE

THERFOR YOU ARE AN IMPERFECT BEING OF BOTH BEAUTY AND UGLINESS

177. PAIN IS MY TEACHER

178. HOW WERE YOU?

EVERY DAY I SIT AND WONDER

'NEATH THE BRIDGE OF PERCEPTION

WHICH LIFE FLOWS UNDER

WHAT WILL IT TAKE, WHAT DO I NEED

TO QUENCH MY THIRST, TO FEED MY NEED

THE NEED TO KNOW - AND THE NEED FOR MORE

TO KNOW THE END, AND IS THERE MORE

SHOULD I WAIT - OR SHOULD I RUN

IF I RUN WILL I LEAVE YOU, OR WILL WE EXIT AS ONE

IS OUR EXISTANCE ACCIDENT, OR A GRAND DESIGN

AND WAS IT YOUR IDEA - OR WAS IT MINE

THE SAY IGNORANCE IS BLISS

BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS

IT'S ONLY IGNORANCE IF YOU DON'T CARE TO KNOW

AND I STILL WANT TO KNOW THE END OF THIS SHOW

WILL WE EXIT THE RIDE AT THE END OF THE DAY

AND DISCUSS WHAT WE WERE, WAS I PREDATOR - OR PREY

WAS IT ANYTHING NEW, OR HAVE I DONE IT BEFORE

WAS THIS LIFE FULFILLING - OR MERELY A BORE

DID I KNOW LOVE, AND DID I KNOW HATE

WAS I IN CONTROL - OR WAS IT ALL JUST FATE

DID I KNOW JOY, AND DID I KNOW PAIN

AND IN MY PAIN - DID I TRULY DISDAIN

I GUESS I'LL NEVER KNOW UNTIL THAT DAY DAWNS

WERE WE KINGS - OR WERE WE SIMPLY PAWNS

UNTIL THAT DAY, FRIEND, I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW THIS

I DETEST MY IGNORANCE, FOR IT IS ALL BUT BLISS

FOR I HAVE NO CHOICE - OR IS THE CHOICE MINE

AM I SIMPLY AN ACCIDENT - OR SIMPLY, DIVINE

MY FRIEND, I'LL TELL YOU, I MAY NEVER KNOW

BUT UNTIL I'M ENLIGHTENED, I'LL ENJOY THIS SHOW

FOR, AT THE END OF THE DAY, WHEN I'M FORCED OFF THIS RIDE

I WANT TO FACE YOU, HAVING NOTHING TO HIDE

I WANT TO SIT DOWN OVER AN ICE COLD DRINK

AND BE ALLOWED TO REFLECT, AND BE ALLOWED TO THINK

WAS THIS LIFE GOOD, OR WAS THIS LIFE BAD

AND EVEN IF BAD, WAS IT THE BEST I'VE HAD

AND WHEN WE BOTH TIRE OF LAUGHING AND CRYING

WILL WE DECIDE THAT WE'RE BOTH TIRED OF TRYING

TO FIND SOME REASON, TO FIND DEFINITION

TO SEEK ORDER IN CHAOS, SUCH A HOPELESS MISSION

OR WILL WE SHAKE HANDS, AND SIMPLY DECIDE

I'LL SEE YOU AGAIN, AT THE END OF THE NEXT RIDE

179. HEY, LITTLE BROTHER, COME HERE AND LET ME PICK YOU UP

LET ME DUST YOU OFF

LET ME SEE YOU SPIT, KICK, CUSS AND CAUGH

HEY, LITTLE BROTHER, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

ISN'T THIS DISTANCE OUR GREATEST SIN?

HEY, LITTLE BROTHER, WHERE ARE YOU GOING?

DO YOU REALLY HAVE ANY WAY OF KNOWING?

HEY, LITTLE BROTHER, YOU CAN COME AND GO

AND GO AND COME AS YOU PLEASE

JUST DON'T FORGET ALONG THE WAY

THAT, HEY, I'M STILL HERE TO TEASE

THERE'S STILL A CHILD IN ME THAT LIKES TO PLAY

THAT LIKES TO HAVE FUN, THAT LIKES TO STRAY

TO GET INTO MISCHIEF, AND ADD TO THE FRAY

AND JUST SIT BACK AND TELL LIES

AT THE END OF THE DAY

JUST DON'T YOU FORGET ALONG THE WAY

I'M STILL HERE FOR YOU, AND I'M HERE TO STAY

I CAN BE STRONG WHEN YOU ARE WEAK

I CAN BE BOLD WHEN YOU ARE MEEK

ANYTHING THAT HAUNTS YOU, ANYTHING YOU FEAR

YOU JUST COME RUNNING, AND I'LL BE RIGHT HERE

I LOVE YOU BROTHER, NOW HOLD ME STRONG

AND GET READY AGAIN - 'CAUSE HERE COMES THE THRONG

JUST DON'T YOU FORGET ALONG THE WAY

I'M STILL HERE FOR YOU, AND I'M HERE TO STAY

180. HELP, FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE

DON'T COME WITHOUT DEFINITION

CRAWL NAKED ON PAVEMENT

BATHE IN SALT

AND AWAIT ILLUMINATION

AND BOUNCE

TAKE IT IN AND BREATHE IT OUT

BREATHE IT IN AND LET IT OUT

181. I WANT TO MEET CHRIST ON MY OWN TURF

IN A UNIVERSE ABSENT OF HIS HOLINESS

I WANT TO SEE HIM TREAD MY DEEP WATERS

AND STAY AFLOAT IN A SEA WHERE FAITH HAS NO MATTER

I WANT TO SEE CHRIST DRINK THE WATERS OF SCIENCE

AND DOUBT HIS OWN EXISTANCE

I WANT TO SEE CHRIST CAST AWAY FROM HIS FATHER'S LIGHT

AND FACE THE WORLD AS A COLD BASTARDIZED ORPHAN

I WANT TO SEE CHRIST BE HUMAN IN MY WATERS

BECAUSE I BET THE FUCKER CAN'T SWIM

182. IN THE DARKNESS, WE ARE BORN OF FIRE

FROM THE FIRE, WE ARE BORN OF EARTH

FROM THE EARTH, WE ARE BORN OF AIR

FROM THE AIR, WE ARE BORN OF WATER

FROM THE WATER, WE ARE BORN OF LIFE

FROM THE LIFE, WE ARE BORN OF LOVE

FROM THE LOVE, WE ARE BORN OF LIGHT

AND FROM THE LIGHT...

183. I MIGHT HAVE BEEN PLANTED IN BARREN SOIL

BUT I GREW

AND I GROW

AND I'M GROWING

184. STEP A LITTLE CLOSER AND FEEL THE RYTHM OF MY LIGHT

185. I WANT TO BE HELD BETWEEN THE BOSOMS OF LIFE

WITH A SMILE SO BIG I CAN'T OPEN MY EYES

WHEN EVERY MOMENT IS A NEW SURPRIZE

AND HAPPINESS IS MY NEW DISGUIZE

186. I HAVE DANCED WITH THE DEVIL

AND I HAVE BECKONED UNTO HIS CARESS

AND HE HAS REPAYED ME WITH STRENGTH

AND POWER

AND GLORY

BUT, IN THE END, HE HAD ONLY HELL TO OFFER

AND, IN THE END, HELL HAS NOTHING TO OFFER ME

FOR I,

I AM A DEMON OF GOD

A BAKER OF MADNESS

AND A BROTHER OF SIN

AND I WILL FLY FROM THE DEPTHS OF HELL ON BROKEN WINGS

FOR ONE INSTANT OF PURITY

TO BE HELD IN GOD'S GRACE

AND TO KNOW THE ETERNAL GLORY OF LOVE

AMEN

187. TAKE THE BREATH I LEAVE BEHIND

YOU HAVE MY HEART AND YOU HAVE MY MIND

TAKE MY GIFTS, THEY'RE ALL I HAVE

MY ONLY WEALTH, MY AFTERMATH

SON

TAKE MY STAFF AND TAKE MY CROSS

I LEAVE MY COIN FOR YOU TO TOSS

I LEAVE MY TOOLS AND MY BELIEFS

YOUR ONLY GAIN, MY EVERY LOSS

SON

STRENGTH, HONOR AND DECENCY

MY GREATEST PAINS, MY MYSERY

NOW, YOU WALK TALL AND YOU WALK PROUD

LET YOUR SILENCE BE YOUR SHROUD

I NOW PASS YOU MY BATON

ON THIS TWISTED ROAD WE WALK UPON

EVER NOW AND EVER AFTER

WE MUST CLIMB THIS TWISTED LADDER

EVOLVER

188. I SWEAR TO GOD JUST ONE MORE TIME

AND STICK ANOTHER NEEDLE IN MY EYE

AND ONE MORE TIME I HOPE TO DIE

AS I MURDER THE WORLD

WITH ANOTHER LIE

189. AS MANY ENDEARING TRAITS THAT YOU POSSESS

AS MANY QUALITIES THAT YOU HAVE THAT MAY BE ALLURING

YOU ARE SO VERY SHALLOW

190. AND SO HERE WE ARE

AND THERE WE WERE

HOW DO YOU DO

AND "I WAS AN ASSHOLE

AND "OH, THAT WASN'T ME

AND "HEY, WHERE DID SHE GO

"OH, THERE THEY GO

AND HERE THEY COME"

AND "DAMN, THAT HURT

AND "WHY DO I TRY

AND "WHY AM I HERE

AND "DON'T LOOK AT THAT

YEAH, DON'T LOOK AT THAT BROTHER

HEY, HERE, LOOK AT THIS

SOMETIMES WHEN I'M DOWN

YEAH, YOU KNOW - WHEN I'M STEPPIN' ON ME

SOMETIMES WHEN I'M DOWN

IT'S JUST NICE TO LOOK UP AT THAT SMILING FACE

YEAH, THE ONE KICKING THE SHIT OUTTA ME

YOU KNOW SOMEONE'S HAVING A GOOD TIME ON MY HANDS

SOMEWHERE - OUT THERE

HEY, MAN, IS IT YOU?

YEAH, SMILING BACK AT MY BLACK EYE!

IF NOTHIN' ELSE

A LITTLE BIT MORE

IF NOTHIN' ELSE

WHY NOT ASK WHY

IF NOTHIN' ELSE

A LITTLE BIT MORE

YAH - SHUT UP ASSHOLE

HEY, I'M SO TIRED OF TRYING TO SNEAK UP ON MY-SELF

EVERY TIME I LOOK OVER MY SHOULDER

I CATCH MY-SELF OUTTA THE CORNER OF MY EYE

HEY - WHO'S THAT

GOOD TO KNOW YOU

HEY - WHERE'D HE GO

AND "AWW DAMN, THAT'S A SHAME

HE FORGOT TO KEEP TRYING

IF NOTHIN' ELSE

A LITTLE BIT MORE

IF NOTHIN' ELSE

WHY NOT ASK WHY

IF NOTHIN' ELSE

TRY A LITTLE HARDER

YAH - SHUT UP ASSHOLE

YAH - WHY?

191. SO, WHAT'S TROUBLING YOU FRIEND

IS IT THE DEMONS IN THE BASEMENT

OR THE ANGELS IN THE WINGS

LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME OH, SO WELL

TOO MUCH OF BOTH THESE THINGS

192. ONE GOT LOST, THE OTHER JUST DIDN'T MAKE IT

193. WALKING PROUD ON DIRTY KNEES

194. MEANDERING THROUGH THIS HAZE

MY MIND GROWS NUMB

AND MY THAUGHTS ARE STALE

195. MY PERSONALITIES ARE GROWING FURTHER APART, VISITING LESS OFTEN AND STAYING LONGER

196. MURDERING THE CLOCK

197. RIDING MY WICKED NERVE

198. REMEMBER; YOU CAN'T WIN WITHOUT A FIGHT

199. "OG"

200. SOME PEOPLES UNDERWEAR IS JUST TOO TIGHT FOR THEIR HEAD

201. SWEET BLOOD ON THE RAZOR

202. THERE'S NOTHING IN THE DARK THAT WASN'T ALREADY THERE WHEN THE LIGHTS WERE ON

203. BELIEVE WHATEVER YOU WANT, JUST KEEP IN MIND THAT BELIEF IS AN EVOLUTION OF THAUGHT, AND REALITY ITS EVER CHANGING FACE

204. SITTING BY THE ROADSIDE

LIKE A SMOULDERING PILE OF PAIN

THE CARS ROLE BY BESIDE ME

SPLASHING THROUGH THE RAIN

A STRANGER STOPS AND ASKS ME

IF I WISH FOR A RIDE

WITHOUT LOOKING UP AT HIM

I WAVE HIM ON ASIDE

HE ASKS ME WHERE I'M GOING

AND IF I WISH TO GO

LAUGHING LIKE A LUNATIC

I DESPERATELY REPLY - NO

I'M HEADED FOR THE END

I'VE TRAVELLED THIS LONELY ROAD

MY WHOLE DAMN LIFE, YOU SEE

AND IN THE END - IT'S JUST THE END

THAT'S IN STORE FOR ME

I'VE RECOGNIZED THE START

AS THE BEGINNING OF THE END

SO BE DONE WITH ME

AND LET YOUR JOURNEY FINALLY BEGIN

I'LL SIT RIGHT HERE AND LET THE END

BEGIN TO COME TO ME

FOR IN THE END, I'LL NEED THE END

TO FINALLY SET ME FREE

OF WAITING FOR THE END...

THE END IS THE BEGINNING