9/3/99



making breakfast:
i find mold on my english muffins.
i think of my father.

shower:
turn the dial slowly toward the H,
sear away thought (imperfection).

fractured, i am fractured
my father's biopsy is in two weeks
they have to check if it is mold or mildew
inoperable
my mother is hysterical
and my heart
my heart is open and dripping
muddled
next time i should wrap it more tightly
in my clothing (gause)
maybe i'll ship it to china in a teapot
damiana tea
an aphrodisiac.