This page is open to contributors out there who would like to share their black and white visions. Write to me if you want to share your dreams and aspirations, your angst and frustrations, even the joy of insanity that seeps out of your dark demented mind. You may send prose or poetry, or some beguiling written passages, or black and white artwork (due credit will be given).   A Malay poem by a dear friend, Nur Afni, titled Nostalgia Cinta. Bedetik kisah resah Bersuara hati gelisah Abses halimunan kian bernanah Benakku diragut gundah Perasaanku terus tersiksa Kata-kata Umpama manisan bersalut hempedu Bak kenyataan Yang hilang kebenaran Tampak sempurna Namun berbahang neraka Sesungguhnya Kepincangan pelayaran insan Suatu dugaan tuhan Yang lemah kan tenggelam Yang teguh pendirian Jarang kecundang Kini, Jiwaku mengundang kecekalan Mindaku mengusir kekalutan Sanubariku menghempaskan segala       keberontakan perasaan Hatiku merindukan keindahan ketenangan Malangnya, Damai enggan bertandang Dalam mengharungi penitian Yang diselimuti cabaran Alhasil, Tercipta suatu kebuntuan haluan Walau batinku digores-gores Walau antipati bermastautin di hati Walau luka terbabang makin berdarah Kusarungkan topeng baru pada wajah Meninggalkan parut kecewa Mengimpikan halaman sejahtera Menuju destinasi bahagia Mengharungi lautan bergelora Mendaki puncak asmara Seindah syurga The next poem is a cryptic one, by one Ms Nora. K. Such eyes you said are honest and true Such a heart I prayed would be faithful and true Alas the day when you came to woo All the words you said Now turn out to be false Voices in my head Only think about switchblades Now that I have got one Stopping to cut I can't Blood lover I have no more My fucking head is demented you should know My love for him was so pure That my depression has no more cure Whatever is his shall never be mine Whatever my love will always be with him He says his heart is in my possession But why do I want to fill this killtration I want to be his which I will never be Then should my life end like this I know I don't deserve anybody But should I feel not the love of somebody - July 1997 MsDeath With This I Repay With this cut I repay For the sins I did that day With this tears I might say That my love for you will never go away With these memories I shall keep And bury it in my heart real deep With this present that I bought Hoping that you would give me a second thought With your picture on my table You looked to be my guardian angel With the charming smile on your face Makes me wonder why you never got chased With your hand in my hand I wish that you would be my Man. Zeena Heartbeat A moment ago...i listened to my heart A second ago...i followed religiously to its constant thriving beat... But i realized soon enough But i realized at this point of time That in fact... I did not listen... Because my heart is bleeding... And the beat... Was just the blood flowing. - May 2000, Wizni

Asparas ...
(Illustration - Pen & Brush)

Two poems by the mysterious ~Eyeza.

As a child plays with his toys
You are playing with my feelings.
You ignore me when you found someone new
Causing me to lose control.
Shattered and then cast aside,
Feelings of being used and a fool for love
Wondering where did I go wrong?

My thought do so reflect
How could you betray me
And take away my pride
Saying facts that was never true
When in the beginning,
You were the one who started it all ....

You say I'm special,
You say I'm part of your life,
You say you truly care.

I did my best to make you happy,
Sacrificing and pleasing you in every way.
But the truth - You lied and played with my feelings
And there's nothing more I can do or say.

I shed many moments of tears with you
I pray that tomorrow will be all right.
But it gets worse each day,
That's when it made me realised
You betrayed and had used me.

You promised that you'll change
But it never seemed to be.
I can no longer bear these hurt feelings,
My heart is aching and its torturing.

~Eyeza

A collection of poems from the enigmatic MsDeath.

Possessed by anger
So strong and fiery
Burns my soul
To its very core
My teeth are grinding
My eyes bloodshot
My heart thumping
My tongue caught
Shan't say much
Ready to kill
Prey on the next victim
Who shall it be
I don't give a damn
As long as my hands are wrapped around them
Their neck I shall wring
Till it snaps like a string
Their eyes will pop
Their heart will stop
Cold hands till the fingertips
On my face a smile will slip
A malicious one you shall see
But not the evil that lurkes underneath

-20th June 1999-

Dani, my friend
My life line has come to an end
I will be fine till the morrow
For now I shall wallow in my sorrow
My circle of life has halt
For darkness now engulfs
Like a warm coat on a snowy day
A thin black veil now shields my view
But what I see is the world so true
I live for now I live forever
For death I have already discover
With this veil I see
The whole truth behind the Illustration
Let the darkness be my friend
And let it protect me till the end.

-23rd June 1999-

MsDeath

A sajak from MawarDewi.

Seorang wanita..

Berhati kristal,
Dihempas bertalu-talu,
Dibiar tanpa terbelai.

Berairmata muntiara,
Membasuh suria di wajah
Berlinangan tiada terhingga.

Kehidupannya
Bersandarkan Doa
Tetap bertongkatkan Iman
Menunaii janji-janji yang dikata.

Dia membawa diri,
Tegap menghayun langkah,
Walau lemas terkapaian
Dipukul gelombang dunia.

Dia tahu yang pasti,
Diri ingin melihatNya.

Harapan yang ada..
Semoga sampai dia di sana
Di mana tiada duka membalut senja
Tiada kesepian terukir di jiwa.
Hanya senyuman riang
Menyerlah di wajah mudanya.

-27 July 2000-

MawarDewi