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31 May 2001

oh let's update to the journal, shall we? before you read this, just know that i have had went through a total change of heart (and reality) since the last update, and i intend to stay in nyc and continue with my studies here. i have a hold on myself and the last entry was just too deep!!! i just home from nyc for the day and there is so much to tell, but so little room and my fingers cramp up. this is also known as my infamous "stream of consciousness" that DR appreciates so much on the stage of life. im going to try not to be too "culture-pretentious," so bear with me. get the "the beautiful game" cd ASAP, such a good story, and i believe it could bring some non-theatre people to the wonderful world of theatre. its by sir andrew lloyd webber and the ever- erracible ben elton. i want to say congrats to briana, my tiny dancer, who just graduated 8th grade and is bound for the nyc stage. she looked "ever-so-loverly" before her formal and im so proud of you! yay for our AIDA video! so my homesickness is over, and nyc has been wonderful this semester following the "emancipation." at first you think it is a terrible thing, but it made me appreciate how independent i have become and how i can really deal. DR and campus crusade helped me get through it a lot, even though it meant that i would wallow my worries away shopping or going to the theatre. i learned that staying was definitely worth it and i met some wonderful new people, stepped out of my shell, and released myself to the splendour of the city. Jackie is going back to Seattle to improve her improv and her craft. Melissa, my roommate, moved back to the heartland and it was such a great time when we hung out in the heights and skipped class/watched talk shows. Highlights of the semester include: the MCC Benefit with Peter Gallagher, Patti Lupone, Taylor Dayne (who stole my favorite rub-a-dub autograph pen?!), Adam Pascal a pic of true happiness, and Donna Murphy. There I met Heather, who works at Sony Classical, and who is a great theatre companion, i might add. (we bonded over AIDA and adam pascal!) Spring break in baltimore was boring, and then i returned hoping to have my mom and dad get their first AIDA experience, but mom was sick, so I took DR and Kate instead. see the pic above i met a lot of people at starbucks including koh and reggie, two of the best male dancers in AIDA, who were so great and talked to me about college and the arts and good stuff like that. i also met Adam, a nice young gentleman from England, who is part of a training group that are doing some computer stuff or programming or something (right?!) in the affectionately-called "big silver building." ok, i think im going to wrap things up now, oh, did i mention im going to the TONY AWARDS!!!!! omg! i know, my dad got tickets for my birthday, which i will also mention, is on june 13th! but the tonys are on june 3rd, this sunday i happily accept anything you'd like to give me. I really like purses/bags/carryalls (man purse!) and shoes...but anything is nice...oh, i would never hear the end of it if i didnt say je suis votre comprere to juan, b/c according to him, i only update every ten years. which is sort of true. ;-) sorry about the links not being hyperlinked, but im lazy right now and just want to get this posted and over and done with, perhaps ill update in another ten years. when i get my whole computer set up with scanner and printer and usb devices, ill get more into scanning nyc pics for your leisure.

14 March 2001

hey everyone...long time since the last update right. anyway, a lot has happened and i wanted to devote this to quotes and important situations made by annoying adjuncts, my best friends, celebrities, and such. i love all of you very much. i want to say i love you to the WF at UMCP, i love you guys a lot and i think about you all the time, p.r. was amazing and it made me want to go to seminary and change my major, so i thank you for supporting each other and we had an awesome sense of community right. i want to say hello to adam pascal, jimmy fallon, tim meadows, chad lowe, hillary swank, seal, robin williams, and the news anchor who works at 750 Broadway. i thank you celebrities for talking to me and making sure i was ok when you could tell i was homesick. i want to shout out to jackie and seth who are in my math class...seth for showing me the card tricks...david blaine i still like though. and to jackie for some nice improv moments and our note sharing and song singing and cheeto-eating and for picking out quotes from our museum curator/adjunct. "why was he talking about the nyc breweries in the first place?" and "if any of you ladies are thinking about computer programming..." good times right. hello to my DR and Nick from bible study. i love you guys so much and i know i dont see you as often as i should, but you crack me up. DR, i love our late night bus rides singing aida and everyone telling us to be quiet...makes me feel like i can sing...we do hit some good notes with the line, "and now im a slave like you, our lives are not our ownnnnnn." anyway, saying hi to my girl lisa and her roommate dre...what ever happened to my british jewish boyfriend, "pita" who lives in the east village (hint to peter if you happened to see this, i left that note on the tablecloth at hebrew karaoke for you) saying hi to the JTS group that takes care of my girl Li too. i want to say hi to all my friends at umcp in ellicott,you know who you are, and my fav ladies man girl rachel in hagerstown, too. i love the fact that you support me through all of my nyc depression stuff and my homesickness. i think you are the best support group i have had in a long time, if ever i had one. i love you michelle, i love skatinga nd i forgot how much i loved it and how much i missed it. come visit me soon. i love PS132, my 3rd grade allstars. it is my new endeavour in the city and i love spanish harlem, and everyone is nice to me, and they make me feel at home, even thought i have only been there a few times. its going to be awesome. and to individual people now: my mom and dad i love you with all my heart and i need you and i didnt realize how much i needed you until i went away to school. to lucy, girl, its going to be ok. i hate letting go of something good, and i hated when people told me to, but its worth it. you will be fine, and if it is meant to be, it is meant to be. God would not give us anything we couldn't handle, and He made us b/c He loves us. And like i say alot of times, "Love each other to show to the world that we are His disciples." i miss you lucy, and i love you truly. As for juan (and brett too), you guys are totally weirding me out. juan, i love you so much especially when we sing our broadway duets on the phone. it makes me feel like NYC is totally worth it to live and be here. and i know you'll be here in two years, and it'll be so awesome with our penthouse up on the upper east side along the 1/9 (only b/c the best restaurants and stores are along the 1/9). and lastly, for andy. i want to thank you for everything you have done for me. you are my best friend, and like you said, we can totally be honest with each other, and it makes me feel wonderful that i still have you in that capacity at least. you led me to Christ, and you are truly the first Christian that i looked up to, you know our respect for each other is so great. im so glad we are what we are now. i know i say this a lot, but it makes all the sense in the world why good people do the things they do to help benefit others when they see struggle. and everything will be ok with everything...we are accountable for our prayers. Deuteronomy 16:17 is the verse for this update. and the showtune quote is from the ever astounishing, AIDA: "This should've been my time. It's over, it never began ... I know the truth and it haunts me. It's flown just a little too far." (and to anyone i forgot, sorry, and email me.)

Until Tommorrow or whenever I update again.... email me at CHOWDER613@aol.com. Hope to talk to you soon!